yea!!! Ma honeymoon's coming!!! so happy lahz!!!
After such a looooooong wait...
though we are not going europe liao(as wat we had planned)...
but i am still happy and excited with that idea nahz...

ma totally not interested in seeing old buildings and all...
i want SHOPPING , SHOPPING and SHOPPING!!!!!

and of course...
i like vibrant cities...
i think i am more of that urban type...

so USA, HERE I COME!!!!!

went bck hm yest and was charting with mummy and bro abt my honeymoon...
going whr, how the planning and all...

mummy: "wah..go one honeymoon need sooo much money one ah!!! Go for wat??!!!"

bro: "of course nahz...its once in a life time lehz...only when u honeymoon, then u will go for such a LOOOOONG holiday...after which...FAT HOPE!! anyway, wait they come back u can "carry grandson" liao...

i was back-facing them...
but my face was like -_______-!ll...

anyway, the whole world is getting married..
and soon the whole whole will be giving birth...

yea..
thats part of the cycle yahz...

haiz...
sometimes i think...
i oso wanna have babies...
esp in my area, i see ALOT of cute little kidos okay!!!
and is perfectly aware of how much fun and happiness they can bring into our lives...

but at the same time, i am not really sure whether i am ready for this kinda responsibility or not...
i cant even like take care of myself PROPERLY!!!
how to take care of andrea-richardson junior??

i doubt my ability...

and at the same time... i juz wanna njoy myself first...
thou i keep telling ric abt our 2-yrs baby-free contract...
but seeing all the ppl ard him(esp his relatives) were all married with kids..
u can see the look of envy in his eyes...

somewat i can feel it...

well,
i dun wanna burden myself...
esp when i am planning to take my degree now...

i am super clear that i cant handle work, family, friends, studies and a baby all together!!!
thou i know some ppl are super duper good at handling and managing their time...

i am obviously not one of them...

but at the same time...
i dun wanna disappoint him...

i know his wishes...
esp when he keep telling me...erm...u want u want...a baby???
and how disappoint he was when i told him that my HCG was -ve the other day ...

p/s: oki, i took a HCG the other day bcoz i got super bad migraine and the W24 doc wanna prescribe me some ponstan...knowing well that it might affect pregnancy, he ordered a HCG juz to make sure that i am DEFINITELY not preggy...

p/s/s: btw, he refered me to NNI for ?chronic migraine, and bloodily address me as MDM HEI in his referral!!! is he tired of living or something?!??!!!!??!!! juz dun let me see him in CE, i will make sure he wont survive a day!!!

other than stress from him...
the whole world seems to be asking me, "hey are u pregnant??!! or planning to get pregnant??"

a few reason i can think of why ppl ask tme his:

1. i bloody put on weight after my wedding till i look like am PREGNANT!!!!! FML!!!!
2. they are juz concern.
3. they are juz KPOS...
4. they juz ask for the sake of asking...
5. to strike a conversation with me..but guess u got better things to ask...

well...and somewat it bcums a norm that ppl should get pregnant once they are married???!!!
its like its a SOP (Standard Operating Procedure) that i should be pregnant after i am married...

KI SIAO OR WAT???!!!!???!!!!

its MY vagina, MY uterus, MY fallopian tube and MY EGGS!!!!!!!!!!

when i song i wanna have a baby, i will juz do it!!!

wat has it gonna do with YOU, YOU and YOU - randomies in my life!!!

argh!!!

its really getting on my nerves!!!!

i am juz venting...
maybe auntie wanna come liao...
that y i am feeling this...
we call it PMS...
Pre-Menstrual Syndrome..

aka, Post Marriage Syndrome...

haiz...
another tell-tale sign that obviously i am not PREGNANT...

so...

STOP ASKING!!!!

ROAR!!!!!!!!!