wow...i am FINALLY done with my 4 nights...
actually it was not as bad as wat i thought it would be...

so....


GOODBYE CE!!!!!
SEE YA NEXT YEAR!!!!!!!!!
(which is actually juz 1 day away...but i am off for freaking 5 days!!!! Hooray!!!)



am gonna be REALLY busy with the 过大礼 stuff...

i am tooooo much into all these preparation...
till i had a weird dream yest...

i dreamt that i was getting married!!!

i mean yahz...i know i am REALLY getting married...
but somewat like time flies bery fast...
like one sec i am sleeping on my bed early in the morning...
since i juz got back from a night shift...
and the next moment i am like in my gown getting married!!!!

sia lahz!!!
fast enough or not!!!

wahahahahhaha....

anyway, back to the dream...

i dreamt that all my JMs were at my place...
and my makeup artist was like "drawing" me...

and when i look down,
i was already in my WEDDING GOWN!!!

i was like WTH!!!!
i thought i juz fell aslp...
how come wake up then i bcum the bride liao...

i remembered that in my dream, i still turn and ask weili...
(who was around me when the makeup artist was making up for me)

"hey u sure today is my wedding day???!!!"

"yeah lahz!!!! u siao ah!!!"

"Sure or not!!!! i haben even have my Hen's ngiht lohz!!! we haben even go drink yet lehz!!! i dn remember me attending my hens party and getting drunk at all lehz!!!"
(side story: apparently we were discuss and setting the date for my Hen's night juz the night before i had this dream...wahahahhaa...)

"no we went liao wat!!! u wanna go how many times..."

i still dun feel rite and i think that something is really amissed...
i was even wondering whether am i in a dream during the dream itself...

wahahahahha...

then i thought cannot be nahz!!! sure something wrong...and definitely i am in a dream...
and thus i forced myself to wake up...

and indeed...

i was lying in my bed...


wahhahahahahhaha...

see....

i stress till lidat lehz!!!

wah kaoz!!!

someone better destress me before i go seriously crazy!!!

LOL...

time flies and its counting down to the last month...

its juz 23days more...

and its down to our BIG DAY!!!

other then tiredness...
there are still loads of stuff to be done...

but i guess its getting more and more excited...
as the dream is approaching...
but at the same time i am worried and anxious...

had been reading more and more stuff...
i guess i will juz do my best...
and i know God will do the rest...

gonna guo da li this coming sunday...
wow...thats another huge thng...

and i haben even finish pai-ing my invi cards...

argh~~~!!!

and now i am sourcing for wedding songs...
more of back ground music nahz....
as the main march in songs we had already decided like LONG LONG time ago...

well...
its time to end my break and go out to relieve miss snake women...

1 more night to my deserved 5 day offs...

its been 9 days since i have a rest day...

God Bless Me...

am having my break now...
luckily its juz 2 nights this time round...
if not i am juz gonna die flat...

had been having insomia for many many nights...
i keep scaring myself over worthless things...

well...watever had happened...
i am juz gonna leave it behind now...

all i ask for is a chance to turn over a new leaf and start afresh...
leaving the past behind...
i juz wanna be myself...

the wedding is round the corner and i am feeling more and more stress...

maybe retail therapy is my only escape...

yes....

lol....

wat an excuse to shop rite...

hmmmm....

i juz bought like 7 tops in 2 days???

wahahahahhaha...

and i am super guilty can!!!
bcoz darling is busy at home helping me to do my ang bao box...
while i am happily shopping outside...

ahhhhhhh!!!!
WO ZHEN BU SHI REN!!!!

lol....

but ....

who ask u to be my "LARLING"...

lol...

alot of wedding things seems to be pissing us off...
especially when u know all the ppl whom is servicing u, is juz out to chop u and squeeze ur wallet dry!!!

thats soooooooooooo mutha-fuckingly irritating!!!!

like wat my bridal studio did this afternoon...

bridal studio coordinator: "oh u wanna add another photo huh?? erm...cannot lehz unless u pay additional $85 dollars for the editing..."

andie: "oh oki lohz..then nvm..."

*hung up the phone then call and tell hubbie that they refuse to add in 1 unselected photo into the album for us...

hubbie: "wat is this??!!! u all missed out 1 photo we also didnt make life difficult for u all... now we juz wanna add in another photo then u wanna charge this charge that!!! the photo it self is not even well edited!!! (can still see hubbie's double chin and my fatty arms...lol...i might as well edit myself!!!! i think i do a better job!!!!) why should i pay???!!!!"

bridal studio coordinator: "okay okay...we will add in for u..."(lan lan)

hubbie: "and i wanna meet up with the album designer... once he/she is done with the design..."

bridal studio coordinator: "okay okay...i will try to arrange the date for u..."

really irritating lohz!!!
they are juz out to squeeze our money and not even taking pride in their work...

really pissed off with them!!!

they better fuckingly do our album properly...
if not i gonna FFFFFFFFFFffffffff..... them upside down lohz!!!!

angry!!!!!

hmmmm....

for the time being...
i think i juz gonna relax and take things easy...

looking forward to sunday...
finally can rest in hubbie's arm...
haben been seeing him for almost a wk liao...
miss him big time...

Random: i juz took my weight this pm...down by another 1.5kg...

woooooohooooo....(spin round the room!!!!)

YEAH!!!!!!!

Yoga Work Wonders!!!!!

"日久见人心"...

i hope i will neber need to use these words on someone...

well...

today was all fine till i was totally pissed by someone's actions...

maybe i am not meant to be respected...

i felt really pissed...

i am too tired to say/type out/describe how pissed i am here...

u know wat i mean...

like wat i ALREADY said a thousand times(like i have not said enough...)

maybe i am someone of NO POSITION in his heart.

i felt it countless times...

maybe its time for us to step back and think...

is it all worth it??

well..
the things u hate and dislike,
i wont do it upon u anymore.

even though it may be a means of me telling that i need u,
to feel u, for me to feel secured...

but since u detest it so much...

i had learnt to keep things to myself...

much more than wat u thought i am keeping from u...

i will do it,
even if it cause myself a drastic change...

i wont care anymore...

like who will even care abt ME??

i am getting numb...
really numb...

slowly, my fingers are losing the touch of u...

eventually,
my heart will lose the touch of u in my life too...

wat can i do??

that numb feeling u know??

well,

i doubt u will ever understand.

X'mas is coming...

and its a season for the Snow, Thanksgiving, Carols, Santa Claus, Pressies, Logcakes, Turkey, Xmas Trees...

oh...not forgetting the ANGELS...

was looking around for some angel costumes for hubbie...
but found none...

mainly bcoz we got no idea how a MALE angel should look like...

lol...

maybe like some Egyptian man + a pair of angel wing + halo???

*shugged shoulders*

so i went online and googled for some images...

and was WOW-ed!!!!

YEAH!!!!

I WANT THESE ANGELS!!!
*PS: provided hubbie will look like this... -___- !ll



fallen...but still look as delicious!!!
*slurp*




OMG!!! look at the obliques!!!

wah....

i will salivate till i turn hypovolaemic!!!