i am definitely more tired than usual...
having to handle night shifts...
waking up like 3 hrs earlier every day...
going for yoga classes everyday...
not forgetting to eat lesser...

even doris said i looked more moody...
probably i am really too tired...
not enough sleep bahz...

but all these effort did pay off nahz...
at least i lost abt 2 kgs since i start off my lose weight regime again...

i hope things will last...
and i wont go collapse thru the process...
but so far so good...

but i seriously need more sleeping time sia...
working out is really really tiring...
esp i put all my might and strength into these classes...
and after that i tend to get weak arms and legs...
hahaha...
maybe bcoz i am not that used to the intense training yet...
lol...

like juz now...
i cant even move a patient from a stretcher to the bed via a draw sheet...
(well...the child was pretty heavy to start with...he's a big boy...15 yrs old sia!!! but usually i will have strength to pull him over...esp with the help of another 3 person...)
my arms are juz too weak...

how i wish my 4 nights will end quickly...
thou this is only my 2nd night...
and my leave can quickly come...
and i am on leave together with dear dear...
bcoz he's gonna be officially JOBLESS!!!

not exactly jobless...
but only for 1 week...
then he's gonna start his career in another company...
and tml is his last day...

yeah!!!
at least i can have 1 whole week with him and him only sia!!!
taking our deserved rest together...
and we can sort out our wedding stuff too...

and its gonna me our farewell party for deo this coming sat...
i am really excited!!!

but the gathering and stuff like that...
but i dun really like the idea of getting drunk...

nahz....
i dun think i wil even get drunk in the first place...
i will juz reject and avoid watever that miss ore gives me...
and i swear that i will never pour watever she hands me into my mouth...

hmmm...in this way, it should be pretty safe already...

teeyu said she's dying to get drunk...
i mean...what there to die for??
she will get drunk after like 2 neat??
simple...
nothing difficult to achieve...
she's a lousy drinker afterall...

hmmm...
time to close my internet browser...
guess sister is coming on shift already...

and its time to GO HOME!!!!

woow...
its been kinda long since update this little corner of mine...

this few weeks had been really packed for me...
up and down...
my emotions went zooming...
i feel like i am riding on a roller coaster...

but since things are more settled...
well...
life had been much better for me...

anyway...
OUR BIG DAY IS SET!!!!

its gonna be on 23 JANUARY 2010!!!!

@ Pan Pacific Hotel...

so u guys can imagine how busy i will be...
but i thank God that things are more or less settled...
bcoz we had signed a package with our bridal boutique like last yr...
and hotel had already confirmed already...

so more or less the 2 major arrangement are done...

the rest are more of the small small little things that we gotta do...
shop for wedding band and stuff lidat...
arrange for actual day VG and PG...
coming out with the timeline for the wedding...
guest list...
fitting of gown...
photoshoot...
print the invitation cards...
and lots more!!!

thou busy..but i guess we are kinda happy and excited abt this union...

my friend asked me...
why the sudden change in me??

well..
if i dun wanna do it, no one can ever force me...
but if i set my heart on something...
i make sure i put in all the effort i could to fulfill it...

thus...
this explains the change u're seeing...

well..this is a happy occasion...
and i decided to be happy abt it...
and having no regrets...

well..
its time to hit the club again...
i dun have much time left thou...
lol...

i had a wonderful night with a bunch of really fun girls...
patient load was still alrite...
we still have time to sit around,
chit chat for awhile...

i was assigned as obs 1 nurse yest,
while huiting and veron mummy as triage nurses...
so i went break with veron mummy...

we got into a consult room...
and was sitting around...
making ourselves comfortable...
ready to chit chat...

suddenly, i heard my phone ringing...
"it better not be huiting!!" i told myself...

well...true enough...
its her...
but she hang up even before i could pick up her call...
and i was telling veron mummy that didnt she find huiting bery irritating at times??

then out of a sudden...
we heard someone knock on the door like some crazy woman...

the only name that went into our mind was...

"ORE HUITING!!!!"

well true enough!!!
the knocking really drove veron mummy crazy!!
and she climb up and slammed open the bloody door,
while i was still sitting behind her...

she looked like she's goona kill huiting...
but seems like she saw someone else....
and her expression changed immediately...
she even invited the person in...

i was thinking who the hell was that??

i pop my head out...
and its hubbie standing in front of me...

hahahhaa...

with a packet of guo tei (fried dumplings)...

he's sweet isnt it??
always sending me supper,
popping by to see me esp when i am on night shift...
telling me that i looked dumb in my stupid bear bear apron...
(not as if we wanna wear that!!! we were forced to!!!)
not forgetting to plant a kiss on my lips....

lol....

hmmm...
its a sweet thing...
even to see him for a minute...
i am happy...
u know girls like surprises...
no need for a huge one...
but something that matches the needs of her heart is sufficient...

hmmm...
i gonna sleep now...
seems to get more and mroe drowsy liao...
hooo...hoooo...
nights...

hmmm...
i am kinda in a happy mood recently...
lol...
everything seems to fall in place nicely...

hubbie had recently tendered...
and his last day will be the start of my leave...

hoooo...
hurray!!!!

finally we can have some rest together...
but i guess we juz gonna slack at home sia...
afterall there isnt much place to go...
and its time to save alot of money...
so sianz...

well...
thats not exactly wat made me really happy today...
hooo hooo hooo...

hmm...
we quarrelled yest evening...
for some reason that i dun think i should announce it here...
but we juz refused to talk to each other lohz...

we didnt msg or call each other for the whole of yest....
think its more than 24 hrs...
lol...

then he called me at abt 7 plus pm juz now...

hubbie: "why u didnt call me??"
(in a calm and soft tone)
me: "u oso didnt call me wat..."
(my usual self...trying to challenge him)
hubbie: "its bcoz i am angry with u..."
me: "then why now u still call??"
(slightly pissed...but still in a challenging tone...)
hubbie: "its bcoz i missed u..."

hooo hooo hooo...

i cant help it but he juz brought a huge smile across my face...

hahahaha....

well..he wanna date me this sunday for movie...

hooo..hoo...

can i even consider it a date??
maybe i should...
juz to make myself feel that we are still patohing...
rather than those really old couple...
hahhaha...

me went genting with hubbie last week...
its like been 2 yrs plus i haben been up there...

there isnt much things i like abt that place...
other than the cool climate....
no interest in the Casino, nor the theme park...

but this tie round since hubbie and his dad is driving up there...
so juz go lohz...
anyway its free!!!
lol...

free room + free transport...
why not???

so i did 4 nights so i could have 3 days off...
but thru out that 4 nights i was super tired!!!
didnt have enough sleep...
everytime sleep at 10 plus or 12 plus pm,
i would be up by 4 plus pm...
only slept for like 4 hrs...
and stil gotta work night...
so its juz damn shacked...

then on sunday, once i off shift,
hubbie came and fetch me...
and we head off to malaysia...

our virgin road trip to genting...


after a long 5 hrs drive,
we are finally in genting...

hmmmm....
i think its better if u drive up urself...
as compared to taking coach...
its so much more comfortable...
i was like cuddling hubbie to sleep...
with his blankie covering me...
keeping me warm...

then u can stop anywhere any time u want...
not so much restricted...

we stayed in resort hotel...
his parents redeem the room using their world card points...
they must have alot of points sia!!
if not how to redeem 2 rooms at one time...
lol...

anyway, the rooms look soooooooooooo much nicer after they reno...

the toilet + shower room...


there is even rain shower...thou it isnt that obvious in this pict...


we managed to get only 2 single bed...
bcoz all rooms in the higher level only have single bed...
however i think their single bed is those super single...
thus me and hubbie squeeze into one bed at night...
i dun care if he snores or drools...
i dun dare to sleep alone sia!!!


kinda spaceous too...

following our trend setter - Miss Chew Tee Yu (721)...

i went to Teeyu-ed my hair too!!!

now i have a total new look!!!


hubbie said i look cuter and younger...
not that i looked old to start with...
but it juz makes me look youngER!!!

while others keep saying that i look like those china/japanese dolls...

hahahaha...

then i told kah hui...
if i ever start singing "大错特错，不要来。。。" in the triage...
kindly juz ignore me...

hahahaha...

but she's more worried that if i ever do so...
i sure will xia suay her!!!
and parents will definitely start questioning her why her colleague ki qiao in the triage...
hahaha...
then i will make her mah lu sia...
hahahaah...

anyway,
my newly trryu-ed hair is kinda cute yahz...


not really wat i wanted thou...
but guess i will juz let it grow longer before i can start doing other adjustment to it...
lol...
=)

today had a freaking busy day @ work...

all thankz to 721 (aka Chew Tee Yu)!!!
hahaha...

as she was the usher for the day and it was abt 12 plus when the queue wasnt that bad...
we were chatting with Michelle outside room 20...
it was raining like cats and dogs...

i was telling them sure the crowd will decrease bcoz the parents wont wanna come bcoz its so cozy to sleep at home on a rainy day...
so most probably they will come back after the rain...
that will be like in the early evening liao...
and we will be off shift by then!!!
haahha...

then this foul-mouth chew tee yu say that it might not be the case...
wait rainy day then alot of rta and breathless will come in...

and true enough...
the moment after she said that,
the crowd start to come...

and ambulance keep coming one after another!!!

i think i received at least 4 to 5 ambulances back to back...
and i dun know call how many resus for rta liao!!!
then some more got one # femur bcoz its raining and the child slipped and fell in her void deck!!!

WTH!!!

really feel like plastering 721's mouth lohz!!!
or maybe i should have juz pour some acid in!!!
hahahah...

and it was like mad house behind...
and everyone was soooooooo busy...
with michelle and veron mummy settling resus cases...
while me and tee yu trying our best to clear the crowd in triage...

so we have to triage and usher paitent at the same time...
as i press for the next queue no,
i have to go out and usher the patient into my room...
so the moment i step out of my room,
i start shouting for their queue no...

and there was this particular patient that i called...
i pressed the queue no and i get out from my seat and storm out to the waiting area...
and i started shouting at the top of my voice, "queue no 180, queue no 180!!!!"

and guess wait, the patient was juz right in front of me,
waving his hands at me telling me...i'm here, i'm here...

well,
and 721 withness the whole incident...
and she was laughing at me...
hahahah...

well,
after work,
hubbie came and fetched me...
and we went for frog leg porridge with 721 and melvin in geylang...

its really really nice...
shall blog abt it next time...

then we head to parkway to look for some working shirt and pants for hubbie but we found none...
thanks to his out-of-shap-body...

either the chest too tight...
if not the sleeve is too long for him...

argh!!!

so we left and went to 師奶茶餐廳 @ ECP for supper....

this is their famous milk tea..
they sort of filter the tea using STOCKINGS!!!!
i personally finds nothing marvelous abt this...so i suggested that one day i shall make him a similar cup of milk tea using my stockings...hahahhaa...
that wouls taste really yummy!!!hahahaha...


this bake rice is still not bad...with 3 kinds of sauce inside...curry, tomato and seafood cream...i prefer the curry and tomato thou...the cream kinda tasteless...


crispy sotong..this nice....will the ?thai sauce on it...lol...


claypot eggplant...pretty nice...but i had eaten nicer ones...

had been having difficulty sleeping these few days...
always waking up 2 or 3 hrs before my alarm rings...

like i slept at 0240 yest...
and i woke up at 0640...

so i had juz slept for 4 hrs only...
when i can juz wake up at 0900...
hmmm...
thats 3 hrs plus earlier...

haiz...

thats wat happened the other day too...
was suppose to wake up at 0515hr...
but i woke up at 3 plus 4...
darn!!!

am i thinking too much???
thats why i keep having insomia...

haiz...
even diazepam is not working very well for me...
think promet is still better...
lol....

gonna get more promet soon...
i had used up my stock already...
lol...

i am really worn out recently...

had been doing 4 nights...
didnt have enough sleep already...
then i head off to Genting with hubbie...
and had been acompanying him to casino every night till 4 or 5 am...
how much sleep u think i can get??

then come back, the next day kanan morning shift and got mock code in PSTC!!!
best part, the whole mock code process was recorded and played backk during our debrief...

then out of no where,
there were abt 20 plus thai doctors visiting kkh...
and sooooooooo heng my reg bring them up to see our mock code...

best lohz...
we already bery nua liao..
then still show other outsider how lousy we are....

kaoz!!!

super sia suay ah!!!!

its not that the scenairo was freaking tough...
(its juz a simple collapsed, pulseless VT)
its juz that i dun know how to doc give instuctions one lohz..
i myself think i can lead better lohz!!!

its freaking messy lohz...

i still remember i did much better during my ACLS practical exam lohz!!
at least i was MUCH MUCH more calm and compose and i am definitely not as messy as her....

the child was COLLAPSED!!!

COLLAPSED!!!!

PULSELESS!!!!!

and she asked for R.S.I!!!!

i juz shoot back say,
why do u need RSI??
the child is collapsed...

then she realised...

ohh....yahz hor...

dong...

hello...

u're a doctor lehz!!!
MBBS lehz!!!

do u need a Diploma in Nursing to tell u that?

thats why ppl say...

Behind Every Successful Doctor...
There's Always A Nurse To SAVE THEIR ASS!!!

absolutely right man!!!

so ppl always look up to doctors rite...
please...
most of it is juz from the outside...

without nurses, u go and work urself lohz!!!

i see how u guys can survive...
i bet u will have med error on ur very first day...
and u wont even survive long bcoz u will commit soooooooo much mistake till u kena strike off from the medical board...

thats why nurses are always trained to be really careful esp when doing patient care...
be it procedure/giving med/resuscitation or watever shit...
its so that we could save those brainless doctors!!!

u ppl get me???

anyway,
the staffing is juz super weak this few days...
and i sooooo heng kena in-charged on these day..
2 consecutive days...

u may ask..how weak is the staffing??

the most senior is my good-for-nothing sister...
she practically knows nothing...
if u ever ask her something...
she will ask u back...
so in the end, u gotta find the answer and solve the problem urself...

the next senior is me liao...
with only 3 yrs working experience and e-trained...

then is all the junior SN...
how junior...
hmmm...
they join the dept for only 3 months or lesser??

then is my enrolled nurse liao...

steady rite!!
and both my SSN and another intermediate is outside in the triage...
and i am juz push to go and die lohz!!!

first i am sooooooooo busy with paper work...
and at the same time i gotta take care of the patients, the flow of the whole dept and those little chicks...

and was best???

my SSN (SENIOR STAFF NURSE) come and send a breathless trachy paitent in as "9" case!!!!

some more the patient is on BIPAP ventilator!!!!

he's a moron or something izzit???

let me list the reasons why this patient should be a resus case...

1st: paitent is BREATHLESS!!!
2nd: she is obviously in RESPIRTORY DISTRESS!!! she had subcostal and intercostal RETRACTIONS!!!
3rd: she has a TRACHOSTOMY!!!!
4th: she is on BIPAP VENTILATOR!!!!!

this is NO-BRAINER kinda resus case lohz!!!

and true enough...
the patient turn out to have pneumonia!!!
and was admited to HD...
i mean she has to go HD definitely bcoz GW can neber handle ventilator...

u as a SSN and u should have fucking lots of experience!!!
and u cant even anticipate how bad this paitent will be!!!

and best part,
when i push patient into the resus room,
he couldnt even bother to come in and help!!!
he juz stand at the CE entrance to usher paitents....


WAT THE FUCK!!!!
(pardon me that i have to spell out the whole word bcoz i am super pissed!!!!)

and its only left with me and one EN to run the whole resus...
its not that there's alot order to administer...
but the BIPAP alone can kill u...
if u ever nurse/transfer patient with a BIPAP or any kinda ventilator...
all the wiring/tubing/connection etc etc...
u juz wanna go crazy lohz!!!

and he fucking got face to send patient as a 9!!!!

Bloody Fucker!!!

i pray that u will fall into a drain when ya walk...
when u shit, ur shit comes out from ur mouth...
and when u pee, ur urine comes out from ur nose...
and u eat thru ur ass!!!
and some decent person can help me stick ur cock up ur fucking ass!!!


CHEE BYE!!!!

hur......................

but i am still feeling really tired...
i was juz telling 721 that i had polyuria and polyphagia recently...
keep waking up 2 to 3 times in the night to pee...
and i keep getting hungry...
so i went to check my urine yest morning...
(hahaha..i got plenty of dip stick at home..)


and it was a clear NEGATIVE!!!
then 721 kaopei me say its bcoz i drunk too much water before i sleep...
hahaha...
yeahz..
i had a big cup of apple juice and 1/2 cup of water before i sleep that day...
thats the night when i keep waking up to pee...

hahahah....

and my 2 consecutive morning shift is makeing me really tired...
i really cannot do morning shift sia!!!

can die ah!!!

and i juz soooo tired even when i am stationed in triage...
triage non-stop lohz!!!
triaged until i wanna slap the child and the parent and ask them to scram!!!

some moron patients juz wanna struggle like there's no tml...
and their retarded parents will juz stand there and fold their hands...
watching u battle with their child...
and will neber offer any fucking help...

hello!!!!

its ur kid oki!!
i can jolly well slap her till she passed out and do my assessment...

but i've decided to do the humane way...

calm the child, "play" a lil with her, distract her, make some stupid sound with that fucking sweet bottle... praying that the reading quickly appear on the dinamap!!!
so i can ask them to get out of my room stat!!!
along with that crying and yelling!!!


GET OUT!!!!!!!


argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


now i feel sooooooo much better after i vent that anger that i bottom up for these few days...

well,
i had some genting picts that i wana load...
but i am juz soooo tired and i am pissed off with him...

haiz...

he's a retard nahz...
i am juz soo tired to complaint abt him...
not matter wat i say...
he's neber gonna change or make any changes...
so i juz couldn't be bother anymore...

so i juz gonna wash up and head to bed soon...
i rather i rest my worn out soul...
and recharged my body to fight a war again tml...