hmmm...
my head have neber been this BIG before...
doing all the sums for the wedding...
going to sign up the videography package by the end of this month...
and this will cost us a good 4k+ already...
haiz...

i started doing my accounts for our wedding sia...
and now in my head is juz $$$$ & ¢¢¢¢...

argh!!!

i gotta really start looking into my spendings...

so no more shopping...
no more cabbing...
no more dining in high class restaurants...
normal restaurants oso cannot...

must eat hawker or if got home cook food,
thats the best!!
lol...

hmmmm...i suppose everyone works hard and save as much as they can before the wedding sia??
or am i the only one??

hmmmm..i doubt so...
after all, money dun drop from the sky...
and everyone works hard to earn wat they want...

and not everyone is soooooooooo fortunate to marry a millionaire or billionaire...

but i am already bery fortunate to marry a FUTURE Billionaire!!!
(i really hope so sia!!! so i can shake leg at home!! hahaha...)

*p/s: dear, this is juz a joke..not meant to stress u further in ur already bery stressful working environment...

hmmm...
its time to rest my mind!!!

all the H1N1 cases are driving us nuts!!!!
and i kena OT sia!!
so i worked like from 1800 to 0330!!!
9 1/2 hrs...

well...
maybe alot of u work longer hrs...
but working 9 1/2 hrs in A&E isnt an easy task...

imagine the whole time u need to be on ur toes...
buzzing around like some busy bee...
neber once ur leg will stop walking...
nor ur butt hitting the chair...

even if u sit in triage,
ur mind gotta keep spinning and working...
esp when u triage patients...
not an easy task...
thats why ppl say triaging is the most tough section in the A&E...
thus supervisiors always assign those that are more senior and experienced there...

afterall, recognising a sick child and providing immediately treatment isnt always easy...
kinda test ur clinical knowledge, observation skills, abilty to pick up abnormal findings quickly and being bery sharp and steady with ur work...

and after a long day,
i am still awake now!!!
kinda steady rite...
hahahaha...

alrite..i think i am abit groggy now...
time to hit the sheets...

i bet u wont find this cutie boy unfamiliar...


esp those die hard "American Idol" fan!!!!


yeah...

he's Adam Lambert...


hmmm...i dun really watch American Idol...
(nurses dun have time and the luxury to go after drama/tv series...shift work kill lives!!!)

but i somewat saw this cutie pie on yahoo news!!!
omg omg...
he's sooooooo cute!!!!
the moment i saw his pict,
i juz spend my whole day googling all abt him!!!

my 2nd nights....
and i am absolutely tired...
my dun-know-how-many-freaking-rounds-of-friday-sat-and-sunday-nights!!!

i miss my wkend offs...
haben been having one for like yrs!!!!

suddenly i juz feel that i want to spend more time with him...

note:
its not that we gotta spend more time together...
but rather...
its me wanting to spend more time with him......

hmmm...
i missed his embrace...
sleeping in his arms...
his smell...
his voice...
his warm hands...
his everything...

sometimes i really think that i am already bery fortunate...
looking at the ppl around me...

i means its not like i got absolutely no problems haunting me in life...
well...
maybe not at this moment of time...

i still remembered how i scolded him upside down this morning bcoz he was suppose to come and fetch me...and was 30 mins late!!!

argh!!!

i was really fuming!!!
imagine not have ANY sleep for a good 12 hrs...
its not really fun to keep waiting like donkeys outside the dept...

i gave him a piece of my mind the moment i got up the car!!!

but by the time we reach the hawker centre for breakfast...
we were giggling away already...

hahahahaha...

somewat i realised its not a must to get wat we yearn for...
and wat we want may not necessary turn out to be wat's really for us...

but rather...
wanting something/someone that can make yourself happy is the most impt thing...

so i guess its always happier to have someone to love u, rather than loving someone...
esp if that someone simply doesn't appreciate ur love at all...
and stepping it on the ground like some dirt...

i guess i had grown up alot...
thru the things i had gone thru...

events that were witnessed by all...
while others were juz small little secrets that i would love to keep it to myself forever...

its painful even when u try to think back...
the pain somewat lingers...

but rather than avoiding it...
forcing urself to forget or even to deny its existence...

i guess...it would be better to accept and acknowledge them...
and learn from it...
as all were valuable lessons in life...
and be grateful that u had seen and been thru them...

hmmm...
definitely there are more to come...

but now i am no longer handling it all alone...
i know that he will always be there with me...

BEWARE!!!!

I AM NOT IN THE PERFECT STATE OF MIND TO THINKING NORMALLY!!!!

JUZ THE TIME OF THE MONTH WHEN MY HORMONES SURGES AND ANY IRRITANTS WILL JUZ KILL!!!

SO SCRAM OFF!!!

BEFORE I START TO KILL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I WANT A NEW PHONE...


BLACK BERRY STORM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


but my mobile plan is gonna expired only next yr!!!!


ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!