Finally i managed to change a NEW BLOG SKIN~!!!! :D

HURRAY!!!!

WAH!!!
u guys juz have no idea how many donkey years i have been figuring out HOW to freaking use a blog skin from bloggers!!!

YES!!!!!!!!!

AND THIS DAY FINALLY HAS ARRIVED!!!!!!!!!!

WAHAHAHAHHA.......

nothign to be soooo proud of...
scarly u ppl are scolding me STUPID behind my back..

aiyahz!! watever!!!!
like i care!!

so for this newly and nicely "furnished" cyper-home of mine...
i promised i gonna blog more oki!!

well, as if i got plenty of readers...
but i know i got 1 die hard fan...

wahahaha...

anyway, had been having neck stiffness this couple of days sia...
dun know izzit due to poor sleeping posture...
or maybe i am have MENINGITIS???!!!



CHOI!! CHOI!! CHOI!!! PUI!!! PUI!!!!


me juz too tired nahz...
after doing countless of 4 nights...
hubbie ask me dun sua sua do soooo many nights...
if not lidat he will hardly see me for the whole wk sia... ;D

lol...

its coming to the end of the whole CNY...
wow...thats fast isnt it??!!!

but the CE girls are gonna go out tml to pai-nian...
and do some last-min angbao collecting...

and i juz read darling's blog!!!
and she made some DELICIOUS CUPCAKES!!!

wow...
making ppl drool sia...
but i think ric will drool all over her mum's table after seeing his fav calamari...and hopefully his Kong Ba Bao...

wahahahha...

time to end all the New Year Bingeing...

okay okay...
darling ask me go in acc her change uniform...
*ps:she took a cab to work!!! SINFUL!!! lol...

i am upset for obvious reasons...
but i am not at all ready to disclose it here...

thinking abt a future...
i dun know whr i am heading to...

i feel like leaving this place..
but seems like i have not planned whr to go...

i am sick and tired...

now i totally understand how and wat she feels...

i shouldnt be bothered by these ppl...
wat they say or do...

at the end of the day,
they are juz passer-by(s)...

think i have more things to worry abt...

i am sick and tired of faking...
faking that i like u ppl,
and i like this plc...

i hope i can move on...
but material stuff is holding me back...

who are my real friends??
only a handful...

but i am glad that i have them...
at least them...

for the rest of the world can die...
i juz need my love ones...

yea!!! Ma honeymoon's coming!!! so happy lahz!!!
After such a looooooong wait...
though we are not going europe liao(as wat we had planned)...
but i am still happy and excited with that idea nahz...

ma totally not interested in seeing old buildings and all...
i want SHOPPING , SHOPPING and SHOPPING!!!!!

and of course...
i like vibrant cities...
i think i am more of that urban type...

so USA, HERE I COME!!!!!

went bck hm yest and was charting with mummy and bro abt my honeymoon...
going whr, how the planning and all...

mummy: "wah..go one honeymoon need sooo much money one ah!!! Go for wat??!!!"

bro: "of course nahz...its once in a life time lehz...only when u honeymoon, then u will go for such a LOOOOONG holiday...after which...FAT HOPE!! anyway, wait they come back u can "carry grandson" liao...

i was back-facing them...
but my face was like -_______-!ll...

anyway, the whole world is getting married..
and soon the whole whole will be giving birth...

yea..
thats part of the cycle yahz...

haiz...
sometimes i think...
i oso wanna have babies...
esp in my area, i see ALOT of cute little kidos okay!!!
and is perfectly aware of how much fun and happiness they can bring into our lives...

but at the same time, i am not really sure whether i am ready for this kinda responsibility or not...
i cant even like take care of myself PROPERLY!!!
how to take care of andrea-richardson junior??

i doubt my ability...

and at the same time... i juz wanna njoy myself first...
thou i keep telling ric abt our 2-yrs baby-free contract...
but seeing all the ppl ard him(esp his relatives) were all married with kids..
u can see the look of envy in his eyes...

somewat i can feel it...

well,
i dun wanna burden myself...
esp when i am planning to take my degree now...

i am super clear that i cant handle work, family, friends, studies and a baby all together!!!
thou i know some ppl are super duper good at handling and managing their time...

i am obviously not one of them...

but at the same time...
i dun wanna disappoint him...

i know his wishes...
esp when he keep telling me...erm...u want u want...a baby???
and how disappoint he was when i told him that my HCG was -ve the other day ...

p/s: oki, i took a HCG the other day bcoz i got super bad migraine and the W24 doc wanna prescribe me some ponstan...knowing well that it might affect pregnancy, he ordered a HCG juz to make sure that i am DEFINITELY not preggy...

p/s/s: btw, he refered me to NNI for ?chronic migraine, and bloodily address me as MDM HEI in his referral!!! is he tired of living or something?!??!!!!??!!! juz dun let me see him in CE, i will make sure he wont survive a day!!!

other than stress from him...
the whole world seems to be asking me, "hey are u pregnant??!! or planning to get pregnant??"

a few reason i can think of why ppl ask tme his:

1. i bloody put on weight after my wedding till i look like am PREGNANT!!!!! FML!!!!
2. they are juz concern.
3. they are juz KPOS...
4. they juz ask for the sake of asking...
5. to strike a conversation with me..but guess u got better things to ask...

well...and somewat it bcums a norm that ppl should get pregnant once they are married???!!!
its like its a SOP (Standard Operating Procedure) that i should be pregnant after i am married...

KI SIAO OR WAT???!!!!???!!!!

its MY vagina, MY uterus, MY fallopian tube and MY EGGS!!!!!!!!!!

when i song i wanna have a baby, i will juz do it!!!

wat has it gonna do with YOU, YOU and YOU - randomies in my life!!!

argh!!!

its really getting on my nerves!!!!

i am juz venting...
maybe auntie wanna come liao...
that y i am feeling this...
we call it PMS...
Pre-Menstrual Syndrome..

aka, Post Marriage Syndrome...

haiz...
another tell-tale sign that obviously i am not PREGNANT...

so...

STOP ASKING!!!!

ROAR!!!!!!!!!

it was really fast...
and my wedding was over...

much faster than i could realised in time...
lol...

anyway its a HUGE load off my shoulders...

once again, i cant have any right words to express how much gratitude i had towards my JMs and Bros...

u guys rocks babe!!!

too bad the raw footage cant be out before CNY...
the videographer said the had too many clients to rush...
but hopefully by end of nxt wk...

anyway,
i didnt have anytime to blog abt my wedding...
since i already have enough things to do, and to keep me busy...

marriage life was so far so good...

he's loving me more...

i could feel it...
and as his wife...
i feel my responsibility to love him more too...and to take care of him...

but that doesn't give him the reason to treat me like a slave sia!!!

but now wat worries me is abt how to keep the flame going??

well, other than have great sex...
thats a no-brainer...

but i think both gotta put in effort to manage nahz...

now me no more small kid...no more single me...

its now "WE" liao...and my mom keep KB say," ai yah u adult liao ah!! gotta take care of ur husband ah!!!"
like as if my husband dun know how to take care of himself...
i had enough training in washing brats' buttock liao... i dun need extra training in that...

this coming CNY will be our FIRST CNY as Mr &Mrs Richard Koh...
wow...

its really kinda exciting...
except the giving angbao part...
and not receiving any...

argh!!!
now i know why adults always dun look forward to cny...
hahahah...

anyway, this is my first night...
and i am already missing my bed...missing him...

4 days not being able to sleep with hubbie...
wat kinda torture it is??? but its a calming time for my ears...
no snoring at least...
wahahahaa...
but i guess i got kinda immune to it liao...
i was like sleeping right in his arms the other day for the WHOLE FREAKING NIGHT!!!!

wah kaoz!!!
usually i cant...
by 3-4am, i would have kicked him several times and ask him to shut up!!!

but i didn't that day!!!
maybe i am juz too tired i guess...

anyway, good day...

looking forward to meeting darling for fu ruo ri...
and night shift with her...

at the mean time..let me slog my life...