me tired lehz!!!
its my 3rd night...
and i still have 1 more day to go...
surviving on wang cafe's kopi-gao (coffee with milk THICK) every night...
but even with that,
once i reached home and done with my "decon"...
i sure drop dead on the sheets...

kinda lonely this week...
i haben seen hubbie for a good 5 days already...
since he left for work on monday from my place...
i somewat re-called that he did kinda say bye to me before he left for work...
and thats the last time i saw him this week...
kinda miss him yeah...
and now he's slogging his life away in reservice...
poor him...
but luckily this time round he's only going for 1 wk...
according to him...
the reservice this time round is a "low" key one...
though i dun totally understand wat it means...
but i suppose its not so xiong like the previous ones...
when he heed to go and dig hole and sleep inside...

then i was wondering...
y singapore government so rich ah...
pay ppl to go into the forest and dig hole and sleep inside...
then after u sleep liao...
cover the hole back...

juz like dogs...
when they wanna pee,
they dig a hole oso...
then after they pee,
they cover the hole back...

hahahaha...

juz joking oki!!!
all NS man please dun throw stones at me!!!

hahaha...

well...
hmmm...
i was thinking why dun u all juz leave the hole there??
so whoever come next dun need to waste so much effort to dig and cover the hole again??
isnt it more efficient???

well...
hahaha...
juz my 2cents worth of thoughts...

then hubbie called me juz now say they got water parade...
now...wat is WATER PARADE???

izzit all man strip and play water together???
or they bathe together in the field??

hahaha...
then hubbie said no...
it simply means they have to drink water together...

now now...
i really dun understand...
drink water only lehz...
lidat oso have to drink together...
siao ah...
now u know why all these funny procedures are in place during NS...
bcoz man are juz soooo...moronic...
ask them drink water dun drink...
until the upstairs ppl have to come out with certain measures to force them to drink water...
and now they have to drink together as a whole grp...
so funny lohz...

i was imagining like 100 NS man...
all top-less (hahaha...yeah..with 6 pacs and super short shorts with side slits and sexy legs...)
standing in the field...
with a barrel of water each...
as they drink...
they pour water on their body too...
then water droplets streaming down their sexy body...
and super wet shorts...
woooo...woooooo....
showing off their super fit oblique muscles....
kaoz!!!!!

*i nose-bleed liao*

hahahahaha...

dear dear is gonna kill me after he read this post...
haahahaha...
he will say, "can dun post this kinda thing???"

well...
its my blog...
i post wat i like...
hahaha...

juz like the Garyng174 wat!!!
he oso post so many home-made porn clips...
but police oso neber catch him!!!

then i only type words wat...
and its not some sex stories or wat...
not even picts lehz...

hooo hooo hooo...

oh oh...
and talking abt the garyng 147...
hmmm....
lousy nahz...
i doubt the girls really went to look for him...
(if u know wat i mean if u read his entries...)
i think they are those street-side pros nahz....
maybe give abit more money then they let him film...

anyway,
i think no big deal abt him nahz...
not as if he has some super big prick...
juz a tiny one...
wats there to show off??
i see 1 or 2 of his vid and i got sooooo bored...
i bet singapore has better porn sites than this...

so please please...
if u have better taste for porn...
stop visiting his site...
its a total waste of time...

and i think my little patients has nicer little bros then his...
hahaha...
juz kidding...
how UGLY can little kids look??

oki oki...

i am not some paedophile...
i am juz a normal nurse...
who love kids for who they are...
(not those irritating crying ones thou!!!)
lol...

*updated @ 0820hr*
well...juz to reassure myself that i did remember correctly that this garyng DID REALLY have a small prick...
i revisited his blog juz now...
after i first surf it like close to 2 months ago...

HE REALLY HAVE A SMALL PRICK!!!

well girls (in the vid)...
(i dun care who u are and whether u are reading this...)
u deserve a BETTER, and BIGGER man...

lol...

wow...
finally we are able to wear scrub suits for work...
something that we fight so hard for...lol...
and now we got it...
but with a condition attached - FULL PPE (Personal Protective Equipment)!!!!

yes...
we are supposed to wear an N95 mask + a water proof long sleeve, knee length gown + gloves + KIV goggles...

i dun like this...
its SUPER DUPER HOT!!!

esp when ya in triage...
ya suppose to wear ur full PPE bcoz u're the first point of contact with the patients...
so bcoz of this swine flu shit...
thats the price to pay...

so we have 3 fans in triage to blow at the triage nurses 24/7...
and if someone's gonna block my fan,
i will juz turn around and "hey, get lost!!!!"
i dun care whether i have a patient sitting in my counter or not...
they should understand how fucking hot it is when u are in this piece of crap...
but compared to the CA(chemical agent) suit that we wear during hazmat...
u can consider this PPE to be as thin as paper!!!

hmmm..maybe later i should juz take one pict of myself...
and show u guys wat i meant by HOT!!!

hahahaha...

anyway..i am sooo tired....
sleepy rather...
thou i think i slept enough already...
but still..
maybe it the "not-used-to-night-shift" syndrome again...
and i think i can sleep pretty well after i go home today...
its been a really tiring day...

was looking at FB juz now and saw someone's pict from bkk...
think she went bkk for holiday with her bf...

hmmm..i kinda miss that place sia...
neber been there for like a good 3 yrs??
guess it must have changed alot alot!!!!
was thinking of going there for a short trip after our wedding photoshoot as i will be going for 1 week leave...
juz hope that hubbie will be able to take a few days leave...
so we could juz go there and have a good time after our tiring photoshoot...
lol...

well...i gonna take a rest now...
tired...

haiz...
life's kinda boring...
i like always so sianz...
everything like monotone lidat...
no ups nor downs...

i dun like this...
everything's getting too stagnant...
esp...
haiz..
its juz too private to share over here...

anyway,
ever since hubbie revert to the normal working hours,
he's been a really good baby...
sleep early, wake up early...
kinda didnt expect him to be so kuai...
but he did it...

but i juz dun like this feeling...
i dun know why...

haiz...
maybe bcoz he's putting too much stress on himself...
or maybe he's stressed abt the marriage...
gotta earn more money and save more money...
afterall...
we are not from some fucking well to do family...
we're juz normal ppl...
with him trying to give me the best of watever he could...

well...
i am juz feeling kinda down...
its not due for PMS yet...
but i am feeling this...
kinda funny...

maybe i have unmet expectations...
expectations that may be unreachable...
i dun know...

who has the answer??
i doubt anyone will...

sometimes i juz find it so hard to survive...
no matter how u treat others...
there will still be ppl talking behind ur back...
backstabbing u...

well...
like i had knew it all along...
i can neber please the world...

but i really dun understand that when all i want is to ensure good work flow...
at the end of the day...
we juz wanna benefit our patients...
afterall...
they are all why we are here for...
(other than our pay...of course...)

i mean as a nurse,
it neber come across ur mind that u did all these for ur patients???
hoping that they will have the best outcome for everything??
every treatment that u give???

haiz...

i juz feel kinda upset...
i didnt even know that ppl feels that i am proud, and commanding...
thinking that i am super senior,
and giving orders around...

well...even if i do so,
the end point is not that it will benefit me...
i still do as much job as anyone else in the dept did...
but i juz hope that we all work as a team...
thats wat collaboration is all abt...

but i guess,
after this day...
i shall juz keep things to myself...
do things on my own...
wats the point u ask a favour from others...
when he/she will juz accuse u later that u are being lazy...
and giving orders...
being bery proud...

haiz...
Hei Geok Mei...
wakie...
the world isnt that forgiving afterall...

wow...
its been a long long time since i last update my blog...

hmmm...
abit unlike me rite...

but i was kinda busy...
and held up with alot of stuff sia...

everytime when i am online...
i am busy surfing some other webbies...

if ya think that i am talking abt porn...
hmmm...
then u're really wrong...

i am searching for staff for my wedding...
and recently i am hooked to this webbie that shows online streaming of my fav cartoon!!!!
detective conan!!!!

kaoz!!!!!

and they have super updated vids like ep500+ liao!!!

kaoz!!!!

neber in my life have i seen so many conan series at one go...
hahahahaha....but its really nice nahz...

and in order for me to watch them at ease...
i specially ask hubbie to bring his lappie over, so i could watch conan in bed!!!
no need to sit in the chair and watch over my desktop...

but now..after we fixed the lappie,
it doesnt seems to be loading the vid!!!!

super pissed!!!
and now i am left with nothing to do but to update my blog...
hahaha...

thats sad isnt it...
and tml is the start of my killer 3 nights...

CE's attendance had been really horrible recently...
anyone who had been working recently will definitely agree with me....

i am really lucky as i am on course, i kinda escape from work for like 3 days...
plus my off will be 4 days...
but tml is so sianz lohz...

i tell myself i gonna have enough rest to handle the crowd...

haiz...

kinda wu nai....

esp when my conan is still not loading yet!!!

haiz...
i think i should juz give up...
argh!!!!

i always thought that i had the most unique name in the whole universe!!!

Hei Geok Mei Andrea!!!!

but i was wrong!!!

looked wat i found as i browse thru the net!!!


and i was actually married!!!

omg omg!!!

juz for laugh...
hahahaha...

its like already 2am...
and i am still up...
hmmm...
i am still googling for some PGs...

as i look thru the list...
i found 1 PG that kinda suit me and hubbie's style...
lol...

actually we saw this studio on http://www.singaporebrides.com/ sometime ago liao...
and we even met them and seen some of their portfolios...

the picts were really nice...
and its exactly the style we like...
but the price...
hmmm...
abit steep...
but i guess..
its once in a lifetime...
and i couldn't care less...
hahaha...

and now i am looking thru their blogs...
i am totally in love with the photos they took...
the rich colour...the contrast...they way they capture the real emotions of both the guest and the couple...

the nasty looks on the jie mei's face...
the "have-mercy-on-me" look on the poor brothers...
the painful and torturing gate-crashing...
the ever-so-gorgeous bride...
the i-cant-wait-any-longer groom...
the tears of happiness that reflects on her parents eyes...
the adorable kids jumping of their bed...
the toast to celebrate this lovely union...
the hugs and well wishes from their fellow friends...
the eternal loving couple...

its their day...
and they deserve it...
above all others...

suddenly i cant wait for this day to come...
suddenly it hit on me that...
finally its my turn...
its our day...

the day that we declare to the world that we're husband and wife...

we went ikea for dinner today and we came across a couple...
the husband called his wife "lao po"...

i was asking hubbie why he neber call me lao po...
he argued that its bcoz we are not married yet!!!

hmmm...
maybe now i am the one who cant wait...
cant wait to be his lawful wife...
in the eyes of the law, our parents, and the world...

there is still plenty of planning to do...
but i am glad that we are pretty on the right track...
i am praying that everything will be juz fine...
with the help of my jie meis...
(alrite...i had 9 of them!! hahahaha...)

its kinda a dream come true is it??

well,
it is...

well...i had been busy this whole week...
meeting up photographers and videographers for our wedding...
i dun even have any time to hit the malls...

haiz...

anyway...
i did something really courageous today...
well...
not exactly thou...

lol...

i am really bothered by something recently...
(other than my weight...which is a constant worry to me...)
but my fucking face!!!

kaoz!!!

i am super pissed lohz!!!!

alrite...
i am actually brave enough to take a super closeup shot on my troubled face WITHOUT ANY MAKEUP!!!! (except my eyelash extension...)


look at the fucking clogged pores!!!

omg omg!!!

now this is the close up...

now u understand my worry...
and my wedding is already coming up...
alrite...not that fast thou..
i still have abt 9 more months to go...

but who having such a face will not be worried???

and despite my constant effort in exfoliating almost everyday,
mask at least 3 time a week...
i clean my face so bloody thoroughly with makeup remover be it whether i got makeup or not every single day...
plus i am taking pills...

it still didnt turn out really well...

gone were the old scar and i did not have major outbreaks...
but the fucking eagle-spread-open pores are killing me!!!!

so i have bloody decided to increase the dose of my roaccutane...
(thou the side effect of chipped skin and lips is gonna torture me like hell...)
gonna dump in more money for facials and more facial products...
and be more hardworking in my facial routines...

i juz hope that by the end of 1 or 2 months...
i will be able to see a bit of results...
*keeping my fingers crossed*

or maybe bcoz its the time of the month...
PMS i mean...
i really hope so...

go away u fucking clogged pores!!!

I HATE U BIG TIME!!!

ARGH!!!

i was reading abt darling's blog entry juz now: Perfect

juz for those that cant access her blog...basically this article from Cleo actually talks abt:
(i cut and paste from darling's blog bcoz i am too lazy to type...lol...)

Us WOMEN always have our own long list of what Mr Perfect should be like.. tall, handsome, accomplished, listens to your say, and the list goes on..
But when a man searches for love, he has no idea what the perfect woman entails..
Though more than often we catch them indulging in their voluptuous desires, when it comes to serious matters, they just need someone who will love them because and despite of who they can sometimes be..
Comparing both, men are more fluid with their own set of standards unlike women, where we set our standards and boundaries so stringent it could be the reason why Mr. Perfect always loses his way en route to our happiness..

hmmm...
i do agree that women often set a long list of criteria of wat their perfect man must be like...
but from wat i know...
man do too...

But man really only have 2 categories when they set standards for us:
1. woman they can have 1-night-stand with...
2. woman who is potentially their wife/GF...

why did i say so??

lol...

well..
i was watching some taiwan variety show with my niao niao the other day...
actually its an episode abt bikini girls...
so there were many girls who dressed up in bikini appearing in the variety show...

and as u guys know...
Taiwan girls really LOVE to pad their boobs alot!!
no matter how many "dumpling" they use...
be it BIG or small...

as long as it can make their boobs perky...
it doesn't really matter...

anyway...thats not the point...

there were 2 girls that appeared in the show...
girl A's boob was freaking big!!!
(i dun know whether izzit padded one or real one...)
but she really had those slutty look...

then girl B had those A cup boobs...
but she's really sweet looking...

i was telling niao niao that girl B is really sweet...
then suddenly he told me..
yeah...i would be with girl A if i only wanna have 1-night-stand with her...
whereas girl B is those girlfriend material....

hmm...
i always thought that guys love big boobs girls...
hmm..maybe not all...but most of them bahz...

then niao niao comment that actually some man dont feel secure with their girls exposing too much/too pretty/or having too hot figure...

i find it really funny...
man loves to see girls zao geng etc...
but wanna wrap their woman like a mummy..
lol...
kinda fan jian rite??
hahahaha...