"日久见人心"...

i hope i will neber need to use these words on someone...

well...

today was all fine till i was totally pissed by someone's actions...

maybe i am not meant to be respected...

i felt really pissed...

i am too tired to say/type out/describe how pissed i am here...

u know wat i mean...

like wat i ALREADY said a thousand times(like i have not said enough...)

maybe i am someone of NO POSITION in his heart.

i felt it countless times...

maybe its time for us to step back and think...

is it all worth it??

well..
the things u hate and dislike,
i wont do it upon u anymore.

even though it may be a means of me telling that i need u,
to feel u, for me to feel secured...

but since u detest it so much...

i had learnt to keep things to myself...

much more than wat u thought i am keeping from u...

i will do it,
even if it cause myself a drastic change...

i wont care anymore...

like who will even care abt ME??

i am getting numb...
really numb...

slowly, my fingers are losing the touch of u...

eventually,
my heart will lose the touch of u in my life too...

wat can i do??

that numb feeling u know??

well,

i doubt u will ever understand.