if u ask me if its all worth it?

then my answer would be a DEFINITE NO!!!

but i still cant hide how upset i am...
i am really bad with hiding my emotions...
or maybe bcoz i do feel and really cared...

or maybe bcoz i've been there and felt EXACTLY (well, maybe almost exactly) how u feel...
i am saying from a guo lai ren's POV...

if all u want from me is to say wat u desire to hear...
then i am sorry...
i am not that sort of friend...

i said nasty things...
all bcoz i cared...

maybe i am juz too emotionally involved...
too into it as if its my own business....

maybe in the first place i should have drawn a line...
a marking to where i should have stop...

but now its too late...
i had gone way beyond where i should have been...

maybe i should juz let go and forget abt all...
afterall, its not something that i am in control...

i like chatting with kev...
somehow he has the ability to make ppl wanna pour their soul and spirit out when talking to him...

maybe bcoz he is not involved...
thus he is able to see a clearer and more objective view abt alot of things...

hmmm...

anyway, it doesnt matter now...

i am juz tired...
and i juz wanna forget and get on with life...

may all this be juz a nightmare...
that was neber REAL...