hmmm...
not feeling too well now...

seeing darling suffer like this,
i dun feel good at all...
in fact i start to hate watever thats causing her so much pain...

when i talk to her,
somehow i am able to feel that heartache again...

that was long long time ago...
but i can still feel it...

juz like when u had a cut...
thou it may heal...
the skin closes,
but the scar is still there...

and whenever u touch that scar,
all the memories comes back alive in ur mind...

thou the scar may get lighter and lighter...
but guess there's no way its gonna heal...
no way a scar is gonna heal...

i told her to take things easy on herself...
let nature take its course...
let go...

its a joke isnt it??

its easier said than done...

but didnt many did it too???

juz whether our mind wants to take control...
or we allow God to take control...

many of us struggled thru...
till a point of time we know we got no other way but to trust Him and let him take control of our lives...

how to let go??
she asked me...

maybe she should juz cry and struggle to a point that her heart aches till she thinks she's better off dead...
till a point when all the heartaches consume her...
and thats the point when u will slowly learn how to let go and surrender...

thats wat happened to me isnt it??

but i think maybe i am slightly luckier...
at least i didnt suffer all these for nothing...

but this time...
i dun know how things will turn out for her...

of course i hope it will turn out fine...
but one thing i know for sure...

God's gonna mould her into a stronger woman...