well...i had been busy this whole week...
meeting up photographers and videographers for our wedding...
i dun even have any time to hit the malls...

haiz...

anyway...
i did something really courageous today...
well...
not exactly thou...

lol...

i am really bothered by something recently...
(other than my weight...which is a constant worry to me...)
but my fucking face!!!

kaoz!!!

i am super pissed lohz!!!!

alrite...
i am actually brave enough to take a super closeup shot on my troubled face WITHOUT ANY MAKEUP!!!! (except my eyelash extension...)


look at the fucking clogged pores!!!

omg omg!!!

now this is the close up...

now u understand my worry...
and my wedding is already coming up...
alrite...not that fast thou..
i still have abt 9 more months to go...

but who having such a face will not be worried???

and despite my constant effort in exfoliating almost everyday,
mask at least 3 time a week...
i clean my face so bloody thoroughly with makeup remover be it whether i got makeup or not every single day...
plus i am taking pills...

it still didnt turn out really well...

gone were the old scar and i did not have major outbreaks...
but the fucking eagle-spread-open pores are killing me!!!!

so i have bloody decided to increase the dose of my roaccutane...
(thou the side effect of chipped skin and lips is gonna torture me like hell...)
gonna dump in more money for facials and more facial products...
and be more hardworking in my facial routines...

i juz hope that by the end of 1 or 2 months...
i will be able to see a bit of results...
*keeping my fingers crossed*

or maybe bcoz its the time of the month...
PMS i mean...
i really hope so...

go away u fucking clogged pores!!!

I HATE U BIG TIME!!!

ARGH!!!