feeling very vexed recently...

same old problem keep haunting me like nightmares...

as my character says...

i am avoiding it...
trying all i could do to avoid it...
but i know i should juz face and solve it...
and stop escaping...

haiz...

maybe i should be happy that she's not stopping us from seeing each other...
but rather rushing us to join in unity...

but i juz dun like that idea...
that idea of living with ur in-laws...
no matter how nice they are...
we are still ppl of different centuries, from different background, holding different values...

many of u know wat i mean...

life will neber be the same...

why cant they juz understand that i have a life to live?
the life that my mom and dad had given me??

well...
maybe we dun have the control over all things...
but at least we control watever we could...

when u lose that locus of control...
u feel frustrated...
u feel lost...

thats wat i am feeling right now...

dun know wat to do...

be a piece of boneless crap and let destiny mould me into watever it wants??

or should i fight for my own rights and happiness??

haiz....