i hate doing nights...
bcoz when i do,
i am like cut off from the outside world...

cant go dinner with friends...
cant go yoga....
cant hook myself online for too long...

all i can do is work, go home, eat, and sleep...

and bocz of my little noisy brat and my darling princess niece at home...
i could hardly sleep in the day...
without them waking me up with all the shouting, scolding and crying...

well...
but i have a good way to "sedate" myself...

remembered i said abt PROMET in my previous entry...

well...
it still quite useful...

but guess i shouldnt keep abusing it too much...
if not i gonna move up another level next time...

probably diazepam or midaz...
which i really really dun want...

and the night is long...
i got another 3 more nights to do...

actually...its still quite bearable to work night...
but if happen ya working with irritating ppl...
thats so sickening...

however,
with the help of my other good-hearted colleagues...
they did save a huge bit of my ass from being irritated by her...

but still....
looking at her face is enough to pissed me off...

well...
i am juz acting bery polite...
afterall...
ppl are much more senior than me...
who am i to comment so much??

well...
hei geok mei...
juz work and fuck off...
go home and then sleep...
and forget abt wat had happened...

feeling angy and pissed wont get u anywhere...
neither will it make her feel bad...
its only making u look silly...

i had learned this much ever since i am back from adv dip...
everything to kan kai abit more...

she dun like u, dun like nahz...
she dun feel that u are up to it...
well,
its how she feels lohz...
does it even matter to me?
as long as i feel that i know my work...

thats enough...

who is she to judge...

alrite...
i am juz venting...
hahhahaha...

nothing major happened actually...
hahahaha...

and my leave is coming liao...
and gonna meet up with my jie meis this coming friday to get food and prepare for our bday BBQ...

i cant wait to have a good time...
cant wait to have a deserved rest...
ever since my last leave which was like last yr oct...
i didnt really have a chance to rest...

gonna take this to rejuvenate my body...
probably go for some spa etc...
hahaha....

well...
dear dear said its my bday and we should go ahead...
maybe we should...
afterall, we were all so tired...

i juz cant wait for my 4 nights to finish...
hahahaha....

and i thankz god that i no longer feel that sorethroat...
which is good!!!

now its left with the venue of me and juwita's bday dinner...
and many ppl's gonna come...

i am really looking forward...

well,
thankz for everything...
i should feel grateful...