guess, i better start typing on my keyboard, before i go crazy and start throwing things out of my room!!!!

I AM JUZ SOOOOOOOOOO FUCKING SICK OF THIS XMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

firstly...
ppl keep asking me to plan a christmas party...
when in the first place,
no one seems to be bother to confirm with me their attendance...

no one bother to suggest a place...
when chalet is out of the question...
(definitely cant get bcoz its freaking last min!!!)
and the hotel is too ex or and too small...

please nahz!!!!
want cheap and good,
where to get!!!!

then when everyone seems to forget abt the issue,
ppl start ask me,
hey, is the xmas party still on?????
i thought u say u organising...

please!!!!
organise wat???
when i am left alone to handle every shit!!!
i am not doing this oki...
even if i wanna do...
no one seems to be bother to confirm whether they coming or not...
there is ALWAYS ppl telling me last min...
"hey sorry ah...i cant come...pai seh..."

I AM JUZ SO SICK OF ALL THESE SHIT!!!!

then no chalet,
oki...nvm...
organise a dinner...
jio jio jio...
initially everyone bery on...
wah...oki..sure come...
then when i wanna book the room/table...

then ppl start coming to me...
telling me,
"hey sorry ah..i cant come...
got something on...
paiseh ah...."

at first, we actually plan an outing of abt 10 -12 person,
in the end...
we are only left with a pathetic no of 6 person!!!

why should i not feel sick!!!

then work so many nights so that i can have more off days...
yahz...have more off days to juz stare at the wall lohz...
no plans nothing...
no one seems to be bothered...

i do so many nights, so that i can have more time off with him...
in the end, all he cares is to do something else rather than spending time with me...

then for wat!!!
i rather do normal shifts...
at least i wont be sooooooooooo tired...

u have ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA how tiring nights shifts are for us!!!
i am not sitting by the computer desk typing oki!!!
i dun juz make calls, and talk to ppl...

i walk and run around my whole dept,
answering to angry patient's question...
listening to their complaints...
they not happy then scream at me...
say wanna complaint!!!
then i still must say yes yes...sorry sorry...
when at that freaking moment,
u juz wanna slap their face hard!!!

forcing myself awake...
so that 1 wont have any med error...
bcoz i know i am handling human lives...
when irresponsible ppl give u shit,
u have to go and clear it for them...
run after doctors for stuff...

i dun know...
the tonnes of things i do every day at work...
no words can discribe oki...

and when i am off...
i juz wish that i could spend my time wisely with my loved ones...

but they dun think it this way...
thinking that i have plenty of time to waste...

then nvm...
back to xmas...

wanna buy xmas gift...
walking around the whole fucking orchard,
squashed by ppl till i juz feel like turning around and kick them in their ass...
juicing my brain for ideas of wat to buy for him...
worried that dun know he will like or not etc...
whether he will use or not...

but still, i cant think of something...
no choice...
call and ask him wat he wants...

then he answered me in a SUPER SIANZ AND HECK CARE TONE...
"anything lohz...
u give me money lohz...
this i dun need that i dun need..."

alrite...
fine...
dun buy lohz...
i am sick...

then constantly served by fucking ill-mannered sales person...
and i have no choice but to give them the sales...
as i really need the product badly...
i juz feel so sick!!!

i dun know....
i juz feel so pissed and irritated...
i am so tired...
i juz feel like crying...


I HATE THIS XMAS!!!