busy until i juz wanna stop watever i am doing and yell at someone!!!

esp those 2 at the triage tonight!!!

kaoz!!!!

any old how triage patients...
those suppose to '9',
she didnt '9'!!!

those that were fucking stable,
she send in as a '9' case!!!

a good example would be a 5yr old girl sustain a SUPERFICIAL laceration of less than 1cm over the temporal region...
she send this in as a '9'!!!!
then when i question her,
she say oh..
its bcoz of the pain score!!!

alrite...fine...
when we examine the child,
we pour normal saline and wash the blood off her hair with gauze,
the child was super good,
she didnt make a sound!!!
i even shower her oki!!!

so wat fucking pain score u talking abt!!!

in the end,
bcoz the wound is SOOOOO...superficial till... the doc oso dun know wanna glue or not...

kaoz!!!

then another hemophilia child with difficulties moving his arm...
she send as a Cat 2!!!

kaoz!!!

u vomit blood or not!!!!

when everyone was so fucking busy behind...
the observation area was like a crazy mad house...

the SENIORS infront only bothers whether she can go break on time or not!!!

kaoz!!!

u fucking call urself SENIOR!!!
taking such a high pay!!!
but u are always taking mini breaks...
eating snake like every 10 mins!!!

KNNBCCB!!!

then still have the cheek to ask the T3 to go out and take over her bcoz she wants to go break...
while we are struggling like mad behind!!!

call urself SENIOR!!!

PUI!!!!!

i spit on the ground u're standing on...

damn damn pissed off...

anyway, this dept is full of this kinda shit ppl..

i dun know when they will be leaving...

maybe until i leave liao...
they will still be here...
bcoz they are juz stuck here...
for good...

bcoz they are so fucking lousy till they simply couldn't survive if they are thrown into the outside world...
maybe its only good to stay in their comfort zone yahz...

anyway, he msged me tonight...
asked me to take care of myself...
the weather is cold...
ask me to remember to wear jacket...

thou its juz a short msg....
but sometimes...
thats all i need...
genuine concern...

not words like I LOVE YOU...I MISS YOU...

i mean..yahz...i dun deny that i love hearing them...
and i need them...

but sometimes u juz can sense that these words are not really from the heart...
maybe they were juz said as a phase to end a sms or a conversation...
juz like how u would say "hello" and "goodbye"...

juz come automatically...
but do we really mean it when we say I LOVE YOU??
or I MISS YOU??

do u really miss me??
or u juz say simply bcoz i wanna hear it???

i hope u said these words bcoz u really do love and miss me...
and oso wanna let me know that i was loved and missed by you...
this makes me happy...

anyway...

i am super sleepy now...
heavy eyelids...
aching limbs...