tml will be another week of attachment...

my last week of attachment...

finally...

but it also means that i gonna go back to work really soon...

haiz...

happy and yet not so happy...

happy that all the assignments are gone liao...

not so happy...

gonna start working liao...

sianz...

was reading gracie's blog...

and suddenly remembered something abt the other day when i chat with her on msn...

the reason why she always change bf...
(actually not always change nahz...
she had been with this current bf for like 2 yrs liao...)

"always do things to make ourselves happy...

if being together makes each other so miserable and unhappy,

then wats the point...

might as well go separate ways...

好聚好散..."

suddenly i juz feel like i haben been really living for myself...

had been always concern abt wat others think,
wat others will say...
when did i really bother abt wat i will feel and my own thinkings...


u know those carefree sanitary pad ads?
they always emphasize abt being carefree!!
that means care abt nothing (not even ur 大姨妈!!)
and simply njoy life...


all of a sudden...


i envy this kinda carefree life...


ppl might say..
oh how could u say that...
how could u only care abt urself...
wat abt those thats around u...


why not ask them...
did they even care abt me in the first place??


if not...
then dun expect me to care abt them...


i think i am turning into a selfish freak...


maybe i am juz too tired...


too tired of being nice...
too tired of being too considerate...
too tired of bothering abt wat others have to say...


maybe its time that i take back wat that belongs to me initially...


MY CAREFREE LIFE...