Things that i want and ask for are simple...
But i am dying to find them in you...

I am tired...
guess i am trying too hard...

My heart's dying...
bit by bit...

maybe u are angry...
feeling me being unfair to u...

but i guess...

u should feel upset...
and ashamed of urself...

bcoz i am feeling it...
bcoz of wat is happening...
bcoz i was unable to manage us well...
bcoz we are putting ourselves thru such a tough time...

i had always wanted to make things easy...
or rather hope that things are easy on us...

but seems like u feel that ur pride is more impt than anything else...
it seems that Success and trying to prove urself to others that u are a wonderful man is much much more impt than caring for ur loved one...

seems that i am always the second or third or fourth... or maybe even tenth or hundredth in ur life...
i can neber lower than anyone or anything else...
bcoz i am the definitely last thing in ur mind...

anyway, thankz for the bouquet of flowers and card...

but it only reflects how much effort u are going to put to mend this relationship...

may i know...
how did u go abt ordering the flower??

oh..call the flower shop, ask for Lily?? or Rose?? or watever flower they have??
my budget is 50 bucks... juz give me watever 50 bucks can get...

give them my address...

oh..or maybe add in a card...
tell them over the phone wat message u want to be written on it...
and best part...
are the words even handwritten by u??
i dun know...

then ask them to deliver it to me...
then later transfer the money to them via internet banking...

wat kinda sincerity is this??

do you even know that i dun like Lily??
or maybe juz a little...
simply bcoz they are pink...

how much more sadder can i be?

i am numb to it already...

i have not taken a second look at the bouquet...
it simply reminds me of how u are treating me...
maybe i am juz someone that is so easily available...
someone that u simply took for granted...
someone that u think money can shut me up!!!

u are juz telling me that u know nothing abt me...
so stop making things worst...
stop making my heart break even more...

i guess...

enough is enough...

i think only time can heal...

My piece of advice:
don't start learning how to treasure someone...
only when u realise that u are losing her...