today is the SHITIEST day of my entire life!!!

i thought we are going to have a great time together...

doing things together...

catching a movie together...

being happy together...

juz simply njoying each other's presence...

BUT...

I AM UTTERLY WRONG!!!

he said i dun care abt him...

he said i dun think for him...

he said i dun bother abt how he feels...

abt how tired he is...

abt him going to wake up early tml...

etc etc...

i dun know...

i am utterly disappointed...

my heart aches like HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

u know how painful it is when someone stab u at ur heart???

i am feeling 100000000000000000000x more painful then this!!!

if i dun bother, i wont even care!!!
if i dun bother, i wont even keep looking forward to meeting u...
if i dun bother, i wont even call and tell u that i missed u so much every single day...
if i dun bother... i wont even feel pain now!!!!!!!!!
if i dun bother...

if only i can dun be bothered abt us now!!!
this will take away that hurt and pain!!! isnt it!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i thought u would appear at my doorstep when i reached home...

but u didnt...

and i know u wont...

i wont pick up ur call...

bcoz i dun think talking can solve the problem...
this is too large to problem to be solved by "talking" over the phone...

this is juz too painful!!!

i am upset...
i am hurt...
i am disappointed with us...
i juz dun wanna face this anymore!!!!