.:๑۩ﺴ ≌≈My Life is like a Shooting Star≈≌ﺴ۩๑:.

2010-06-04T06:00:00.002+08:00

had the urge to write in a post after i read a couple of articles on the recent CHC issue...
guess many would have knew wat happened...

well...i used to be from there...
ex-chc goer...

thou i am already not in that church...
but it doesnt mean that i STOP believeing in God...

how can i stop believeing in someone who is ever so real??
the Only One that neber fail to answer my prayers...
The one that guide me...
thou many many things...
and given me wat i had today...
countless encounters that had proven me that He is there and is ALWAYS there...

if u ever been to a CHC service, u will know...
i had been to other services too...in other churches....

but neber had a felt the touch of God so strong...
only in that plc...
the presence of God...
no words can describe...
u can only be there and experience it for urself...

well,
i am not like selling this church now...
but i believe in watever HE is doing...
and of course, watever Mr SaTan is doing too...

war out in the market place is juz sooo real...
this is juz one example of how Mr SaTan can use things and situation to turn and hit God's ppl...

he takes every oppotunity, every single chance he has....

i guess Mr SaTan would have been plotting this for a long long time...
to give a huge strike on His ppl...

i pray that God return his ppl a fair share of Justice...

Let the World see what is it about...

there is alot of questions that i cant answer...
even when my MIL ask me, "why they have to give 10% of wat they earn to the church every month??"

then why do ppl spend tonnes and tonnes of money on 4D, TOTO, put money in temple and all???

its for a hope...
they are buying for a hope...
a hope that they will gain more...

well, in this case...
its well stated in the bible that we have to give 10% of our earning to God...
its call tithes...
that about all i understand...

then she ask again then why so and so dun give money to his/her mom yet give money to church??
his/her mother feed her so big then dun give her money give the money to the church...

then can i ask why ppl no money liao still die die wanna buy 4D???
not as if the singapore pools got always feed him/her, why he still die die wanna throw the money into their pocket???

its again abt hope...

juz that wat ppl believe in is soooo different...

watever it is...

i believe in God and watever is plan by him...

i juz hope that these whole issue will resolved asap...

returning his ppl the justice...

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2010-05-31T22:14:00.004+08:00

wat word could i use to describe my life now...

i guess "-------------------------------------" is the word...

i live day in day out not knowing wat i was doing...

work is SERIOUSLY wearing me out...

and life at home isnt too fulfilling too...

i guess i had lost that passion in life...

i am not longer bubbly, happy...carefree...
i worry about every little thing...
or maybe its bcoz at this stage i am in...
this phase of life...
when things somewat piles up...

i caught myself staring into the blank wall in my room..
for nothing...thinking abt nothing....doing nothing...staring at NOTHING...

i juz STARED...

or was it am i too stressed out with life??

everytime i tell him, dear i am bored...
all he says is come here let me hug hug u...

10 mins later....

he juz dozed off....

it happen countless times...
well, i given up counting how many times it happened...

i am not unhappy with life...
or maybe i am....

but i juz ask myself, "hey, wat do u wanna do in this life??"
"u wanna waste it juz lidat??"

i dun know...

work hasnt been good for him...
fuck his bloody "i-think-i-am-the-smartest-person-on-earth" boss...

his work is affecting him...
so does it affect US...

shall not mention here exactly wat...
but i juz felt deprived...
deprived of everything...

i cant tell him this, knowing that he's stressed enough...
but cant he tell that i am feeling like SHIT inside...
and i mean REAL SHIT!!!

i wanna cry...but dun know wanna cry for wat???
i feel sad and uptight..
but oso dun know for wat...

i juz feel that i am losing "ME"...

i forgotten how i used to me...

i dun hangout as much with my friends now...
i juz stayed at home...

i hate this feeling...but i got no whr i wanna go...
no goals to accomplish...

maybe i should like pick up a hobbie....
but thr's none that attracts me...

saw darling baking those little cupcakes and i am sooo envy...
not that i cant...but thr juz isnt plc that i can do...

baking(aka messing up) in MIL's kitchen...
she's juz gonna kill me....
or maybe i should juz wait till my plc comes...
till i have my own kitchen...

i really feel like crying...
but am not gonna do that...

my lumigan is juz too expensive for me to wash it off my lashes with tears...

wait till one day,
i think i will juz take sometime off and be alone far far away...
when will that be???

prehoneymooning...

2010-04-15T04:15:00.002+08:00

i was soo busy doing packing for our honeymoon...
and tonight is my last night and i had slogged enough...

USA, HERE I COME!!!!!!!!!!!!

wahahhhaahah....

its shiok one nahz!!!

been waiting for this day to come since a long long time...
am soo gonna njoy myself yea..

all that shopping,
eye opening...
swiping cheap bags, wallets, cosmetics, shoes, bras, lingeries, accessories, shades...
the list goes on....

i am soo excited nahz...

but oso i can finally spend some quality time with hubbie...

wahahaha...

can neber be happier can??!!!!

ppl first time go honeymoon wat...of course excited nahz!!!
well, as if i had many many marriage and honeymoon before this??!!! wahahhaah...

but i am sure there are more to come nahz...

whahahaha...

we are going to darling's bday party later!!!

wah...another thing that i am super excited abt...

wahahahah...

at naumi hotel...dun know which room thou...
but we are so gonna drink and get high nahz!!!

sooooo soooo long neber drink till vomit liao!!!
but i am not gonna do it nahz...dun worry...wahahha...
i will juz relac and njoy ourselves..

am not gonna blog too much..i am tired nahz...

love...

huggggsss and kissssessssssss to baby...

and...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MUACKZ!!!!!!!!!!!!

Doggie business...

2010-03-11T03:38:00.004+08:00

alrite, i haben even start typing my first sentence and i already have like 2 cars outside CE with small heads on board...

haiz..

i only juz log in sia!!!

nvm...back to wat i wanna blog abt tonight...

i was browsing thru facebook and happen to see some of my friend's photo with their doggie!!!

woah!!! SOOOoooooooooooooooo cute can??!!!???!!!

since i was a little girl, i have always dream to have a pet doggie...
i found my connection with dogs...
(maybe bcoz my name is Hei "GOU" Mei...but well, thats not the point...)

i mean they are sooo cute and adorable...
so lovable...

when u're happy they share ur joy...
when u're sad they somehow can feel it...
and when u cry, they whine with u too...

i believe this is a God-given connection...
and indeed,
Dogs are Man's BEST Friend...

its pretty common in oversea context that they have guide dogs...
dogs that are specially trained to guide and help blind ppl??

u dun see any hamsters or rabbits, luo han yu or monkeys doing it...

its juz dogs...

it shows wat kinda intelligence they have...

and they are always a symbol of loyalty...
no matter wat happens..
u know they will neber fail to light a smile on ur face...

thus since young, its always my dream to own a doggie...
thou i ever have own a few doggies before...
but mummy is always against it...
u know old ppl dun like pets at hm...they say they are dirty...
well...i think human babies are equally dirty..if u dun bathe them and all...
those were juz lame excuses...

so i tell myself...

I WILL NEVER MARRY A MAN WHO:

1. HATE DOGS
2. DISLIKE DOGS
3. EAT DOGS
4. ALLERGY TO DOGS AND THUS DUN LET ME OWN ONE AT HOME
5. OR FOR WATEVER REASON DUN LET ME HAVE A PUPPY AT HOME

thats why when me and hubbie were walking ard vivo's pet safari (izzit called pet safari?? or watever name that pet shop is...) i asked him whether will he buy me a puppy next time...

he answered: erm..NO...

my heart sunk thru the floors of vivo...

WTF!!!!!!!!!!

i tell u, i swear to all heaven and earth that i will divorce him if he's not gonna buy me a puppy when we have our new home lohz!!!

thats he's promise to me before we got married??!!!??!!!
he said he's gonna get me one as my bday present!!!

he's a FUCKING LIAR!!!!!!!!!!!! isnt it???!!!!!

anyway, if he ever stop me from having a pet doggie, then i'll make sure he sleeps along the corridor of our new flat...

anyway, our new neighbour is his ex-colleague...
he can sleep in his place...

i doubt he will mind...

anyway, be it he happy or not...
i am gonna get one when my new hm is here...
and that our first new member to our family...

haben really got her name yet thou...but i was thinking abt COOKIE...

cute rite...

imagine me holding her treats, shouting "cookie come..."
and she juz wiggle her cute little doggy arse...
running towards me...
jump up to me and give mummy a huge hug...

wahahahahhaha...

watever...
i know i am dumb...lol...

Blogging from my Berry for the FIRST time!!!

2010-03-10T05:13:00.001+08:00

I knew abt this "blogging from ur mobile" thingy since a long long time ago... Tried to like set up an acct long long time ago but seems like its always not successful...

But after multiple attempts, finally I got my mobile acct set up!!!

Yeahz!!!!

I CAN NOW BLOG FROM MY BERRY!!!

Dun need to always find a com to log on...before I can start blogging...

HOORRY!!

Anyway, me is on 4 nights again...

Dun ask me why am I on 4 nights AGAIN...

I got no idea...

Seems like sister knew that I dun have enough money to spend... And give me more nights to do...let me earn more money...

But I think I am not as energetic as before... Doing 4 nights is almost wanting my life...

Maybe I am really old liao...

I can no longer tahan chionging all night...
Play MJ till nxt morning...
Go chalet and tone whole night without sleeping...

Seems like age is really catching up with me...

Anyway, this 4 nights, I am not gonna go bck hubbie's house...

Yes...

Am not gonna let him see me...

Bcoz I think absence make the heart fonder...

As I think he is always taking my presence for granted, me gonna let him have a taste of 5 days without seeing me!!!

Well...and of course hoping that by the time wkend comes, he can't wait to see me again...

However, once again...

High expectation leads to great disappointments...

Thus I shall not expect too much...

Gonna celebrate joycelyn's bday this coming fri...

She say wanna go sentosa and play...

Wow...when was the last time me been to sentosa...
Kinda can't remember liao... But fri is my post night sia...I think I will be super dead by then nahz...
But still gotta buck up and go nahz...

The most put thick thick concealer to cover my dark eye circles...

Sia...I am juz super sleepy nahz... And tired of typing here...

Haiz...

730am faster come!!!
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Plaids for a change...

2010-03-09T05:59:00.000+08:00

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MOULD-LY MOULD-LY...

2010-03-02T03:57:00.015+08:00

today, after having my delicious packed dinner...i cleared up my lunch box and put it on top the the fridge in my tearoom...the usual place where we keep all our lunch boxes and food...

however, there was this freaking bloody stylofoam lunch box which was there for donkey years!!!

i think i seen it there since my first night or worst, even before that!!
i juz find it super familiar...
i wanted to open it and see wat the hell was inside..but i guess it juz always slipped my mind...

i guess i am always too busy in the battlefield beyond my tearoom's door...

finally i decided to risk my life...
to open to the unknown...
well aware that wat awaits me might be tonnes of flying cockroaches, rats, ants or spiders that might crawl out of that yucky box..

but still i decided to open it...

and guess wat i found...

.
.

Tadah!!!!!

i found this disgusting, yucky mould-ful half-eaten pizza on top of the fridge in our tearoom...

side view...

i went to kakjah and ask whether she wanna have some pizza for supper later??

lol...

u can imagine how disgusting the CE ppl are...

haiz...

NEW BLOG SKIN!!!!

2010-02-26T06:04:00.002+08:00

Finally i managed to change a NEW BLOG SKIN~!!!! :D

HURRAY!!!!

WAH!!!
u guys juz have no idea how many donkey years i have been figuring out HOW to freaking use a blog skin from bloggers!!!

YES!!!!!!!!!

AND THIS DAY FINALLY HAS ARRIVED!!!!!!!!!!

WAHAHAHAHHA.......

nothign to be soooo proud of...
scarly u ppl are scolding me STUPID behind my back..

aiyahz!! watever!!!!
like i care!!

so for this newly and nicely "furnished" cyper-home of mine...
i promised i gonna blog more oki!!

well, as if i got plenty of readers...
but i know i got 1 die hard fan...

wahahaha...

anyway, had been having neck stiffness this couple of days sia...
dun know izzit due to poor sleeping posture...
or maybe i am have MENINGITIS???!!!

CHOI!! CHOI!! CHOI!!! PUI!!! PUI!!!!

me juz too tired nahz...
after doing countless of 4 nights...
hubbie ask me dun sua sua do soooo many nights...
if not lidat he will hardly see me for the whole wk sia... ;D

lol...

its coming to the end of the whole CNY...
wow...thats fast isnt it??!!!

but the CE girls are gonna go out tml to pai-nian...
and do some last-min angbao collecting...

and i juz read darling's blog!!!
and she made some DELICIOUS CUPCAKES!!!

wow...
making ppl drool sia...
but i think ric will drool all over her mum's table after seeing his fav calamari...and hopefully his Kong Ba Bao...

wahahahha...

time to end all the New Year Bingeing...

okay okay...
darling ask me go in acc her change uniform...
*ps:she took a cab to work!!! SINFUL!!! lol...

NEW LOVES nahz!!!!

2010-02-25T02:48:00.002+08:00

i will DEFINITELY get this in US!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

CUTE UNTILLLLLLLLLL......

ARGH!!!!!

will have more new love after visiting www.katespade.com

lol....

2010-02-25T02:04:00.004+08:00

i am upset for obvious reasons...
but i am not at all ready to disclose it here...

thinking abt a future...
i dun know whr i am heading to...

i feel like leaving this place..
but seems like i have not planned whr to go...

i am sick and tired...

now i totally understand how and wat she feels...

i shouldnt be bothered by these ppl...
wat they say or do...

at the end of the day,
they are juz passer-by(s)...

think i have more things to worry abt...

i am sick and tired of faking...
faking that i like u ppl,
and i like this plc...

i hope i can move on...
but material stuff is holding me back...

who are my real friends??
only a handful...

but i am glad that i have them...
at least them...

for the rest of the world can die...
i juz need my love ones...

2402201

2010-02-24T05:34:00.004+08:00

yea!!! Ma honeymoon's coming!!! so happy lahz!!!
After such a looooooong wait...
though we are not going europe liao(as wat we had planned)...
but i am still happy and excited with that idea nahz...

ma totally not interested in seeing old buildings and all...
i want SHOPPING , SHOPPING and SHOPPING!!!!!

and of course...
i like vibrant cities...
i think i am more of that urban type...

so USA, HERE I COME!!!!!

went bck hm yest and was charting with mummy and bro abt my honeymoon...
going whr, how the planning and all...

mummy: "wah..go one honeymoon need sooo much money one ah!!! Go for wat??!!!"

bro: "of course nahz...its once in a life time lehz...only when u honeymoon, then u will go for such a LOOOOONG holiday...after which...FAT HOPE!! anyway, wait they come back u can "carry grandson" liao...

i was back-facing them...
but my face was like -_______-!ll...

anyway, the whole world is getting married..
and soon the whole whole will be giving birth...

yea..
thats part of the cycle yahz...

haiz...
sometimes i think...
i oso wanna have babies...
esp in my area, i see ALOT of cute little kidos okay!!!
and is perfectly aware of how much fun and happiness they can bring into our lives...

but at the same time, i am not really sure whether i am ready for this kinda responsibility or not...
i cant even like take care of myself PROPERLY!!!
how to take care of andrea-richardson junior??

i doubt my ability...

and at the same time... i juz wanna njoy myself first...
thou i keep telling ric abt our 2-yrs baby-free contract...
but seeing all the ppl ard him(esp his relatives) were all married with kids..
u can see the look of envy in his eyes...

somewat i can feel it...

well,
i dun wanna burden myself...
esp when i am planning to take my degree now...

i am super clear that i cant handle work, family, friends, studies and a baby all together!!!
thou i know some ppl are super duper good at handling and managing their time...

i am obviously not one of them...

but at the same time...
i dun wanna disappoint him...

i know his wishes...
esp when he keep telling me...erm...u want u want...a baby???
and how disappoint he was when i told him that my HCG was -ve the other day ...

p/s: oki, i took a HCG the other day bcoz i got super bad migraine and the W24 doc wanna prescribe me some ponstan...knowing well that it might affect pregnancy, he ordered a HCG juz to make sure that i am DEFINITELY not preggy...

p/s/s: btw, he refered me to NNI for ?chronic migraine, and bloodily address me as MDM HEI in his referral!!! is he tired of living or something?!??!!!!??!!! juz dun let me see him in CE, i will make sure he wont survive a day!!!

other than stress from him...
the whole world seems to be asking me, "hey are u pregnant??!! or planning to get pregnant??"

a few reason i can think of why ppl ask tme his:

1. i bloody put on weight after my wedding till i look like am PREGNANT!!!!! FML!!!!
2. they are juz concern.
3. they are juz KPOS...
4. they juz ask for the sake of asking...
5. to strike a conversation with me..but guess u got better things to ask...

well...and somewat it bcums a norm that ppl should get pregnant once they are married???!!!
its like its a SOP (Standard Operating Procedure) that i should be pregnant after i am married...

KI SIAO OR WAT???!!!!???!!!!

its MY vagina, MY uterus, MY fallopian tube and MY EGGS!!!!!!!!!!

when i song i wanna have a baby, i will juz do it!!!

wat has it gonna do with YOU, YOU and YOU - randomies in my life!!!

argh!!!

its really getting on my nerves!!!!

i am juz venting...
maybe auntie wanna come liao...
that y i am feeling this...
we call it PMS...
Pre-Menstrual Syndrome..

aka, Post Marriage Syndrome...

haiz...
another tell-tale sign that obviously i am not PREGNANT...

so...

STOP ASKING!!!!

ROAR!!!!!!!!!

10022010

2010-02-10T04:18:00.002+08:00

it was really fast...
and my wedding was over...

much faster than i could realised in time...
lol...

anyway its a HUGE load off my shoulders...

once again, i cant have any right words to express how much gratitude i had towards my JMs and Bros...

u guys rocks babe!!!

too bad the raw footage cant be out before CNY...
the videographer said the had too many clients to rush...
but hopefully by end of nxt wk...

anyway,
i didnt have anytime to blog abt my wedding...
since i already have enough things to do, and to keep me busy...

marriage life was so far so good...

he's loving me more...

i could feel it...
and as his wife...
i feel my responsibility to love him more too...and to take care of him...

but that doesn't give him the reason to treat me like a slave sia!!!

but now wat worries me is abt how to keep the flame going??

well, other than have great sex...
thats a no-brainer...

but i think both gotta put in effort to manage nahz...

now me no more small kid...no more single me...

its now "WE" liao...and my mom keep KB say," ai yah u adult liao ah!! gotta take care of ur husband ah!!!"
like as if my husband dun know how to take care of himself...
i had enough training in washing brats' buttock liao... i dun need extra training in that...

this coming CNY will be our FIRST CNY as Mr &Mrs Richard Koh...
wow...

its really kinda exciting...
except the giving angbao part...
and not receiving any...

argh!!!
now i know why adults always dun look forward to cny...
hahahah...

anyway, this is my first night...
and i am already missing my bed...missing him...

4 days not being able to sleep with hubbie...
wat kinda torture it is??? but its a calming time for my ears...
no snoring at least...
wahahahaa...
but i guess i got kinda immune to it liao...
i was like sleeping right in his arms the other day for the WHOLE FREAKING NIGHT!!!!

wah kaoz!!!
usually i cant...
by 3-4am, i would have kicked him several times and ask him to shut up!!!

but i didn't that day!!!
maybe i am juz too tired i guess...

anyway, good day...

looking forward to meeting darling for fu ruo ri...
and night shift with her...

at the mean time..let me slog my life...

2010-01-02T02:29:00.002+08:00

i am amazed at how my body handle this stress...

Stress Tolerance Level: 0%

well...
i am juz totally sick of this "I AM AT THE MERCY OF YOU" saga!!!!!!!!!

yes....

i am talking abt none other than the BRIDAL STUDIOS!!!!!!!!

First, they always try to convince u and talk u into buying the most expensive package they can offer...

Next when they got u hooked, they will convince u that everything is fine in ALL means so that they can have less workload...

next they will try to convince u to top up MORE money into ur package...
and everything u ask for they will say,"can....add money lohz..."

then when u ask them to do things, they will say,"oh..but hor if u do this right, it will blah...blah...blah...." and talk to u anything under the sun in hope that they can run away from responsibility....

i am juz soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo fucking sick of it can!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and today my makeup artist(MUA) called me...
and something serious reallly cocked up!!!!!!!!!!!

WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i reallly am lost!!!!!!!!!!!

i feel soooooooooooooooooooo pissed that my big aunt juz come...

usually i am due 3-5days later...and i am super zhun one lohz...

but now all these is causing me alot alot of stress...
and is pissing me off totally...

haiz...

who can i talk to???

hubbie is sleeping...

and i feel really lost....

wat if they cant let us have an earlier slot??
and i ALMOST quarrel with my MUA juz now...

haiz...

wat if she draw me into a witch on that day how???

haiz...

My "DREAM" Wedding...

2009-12-31T06:14:00.005+08:00

wow...i am FINALLY done with my 4 nights...
actually it was not as bad as wat i thought it would be...

so....

GOODBYE CE!!!!!
SEE YA NEXT YEAR!!!!!!!!!
(which is actually juz 1 day away...but i am off for freaking 5 days!!!! Hooray!!!)

am gonna be REALLY busy with the 过大礼 stuff...

i am tooooo much into all these preparation...
till i had a weird dream yest...

i dreamt that i was getting married!!!

i mean yahz...i know i am REALLY getting married...
but somewat like time flies bery fast...
like one sec i am sleeping on my bed early in the morning...
since i juz got back from a night shift...
and the next moment i am like in my gown getting married!!!!

sia lahz!!!
fast enough or not!!!

wahahahahhaha....

anyway, back to the dream...

i dreamt that all my JMs were at my place...
and my makeup artist was like "drawing" me...

and when i look down,
i was already in my WEDDING GOWN!!!

i was like WTH!!!!
i thought i juz fell aslp...
how come wake up then i bcum the bride liao...

i remembered that in my dream, i still turn and ask weili...
(who was around me when the makeup artist was making up for me)

"hey u sure today is my wedding day???!!!"

"yeah lahz!!!! u siao ah!!!"

"Sure or not!!!! i haben even have my Hen's ngiht lohz!!! we haben even go drink yet lehz!!! i dn remember me attending my hens party and getting drunk at all lehz!!!"
(side story: apparently we were discuss and setting the date for my Hen's night juz the night before i had this dream...wahahahhaa...)

"no we went liao wat!!! u wanna go how many times..."

i still dun feel rite and i think that something is really amissed...
i was even wondering whether am i in a dream during the dream itself...

wahahahahha...

then i thought cannot be nahz!!! sure something wrong...and definitely i am in a dream...
and thus i forced myself to wake up...

and indeed...

i was lying in my bed...

wahhahahahahhaha...

see....

i stress till lidat lehz!!!

wah kaoz!!!

someone better destress me before i go seriously crazy!!!

LOL...

23 days...

2009-12-30T03:51:00.002+08:00

time flies and its counting down to the last month...

its juz 23days more...

and its down to our BIG DAY!!!

other then tiredness...
there are still loads of stuff to be done...

but i guess its getting more and more excited...
as the dream is approaching...
but at the same time i am worried and anxious...

had been reading more and more stuff...
i guess i will juz do my best...
and i know God will do the rest...

gonna guo da li this coming sunday...
wow...thats another huge thng...

and i haben even finish pai-ing my invi cards...

argh~~~!!!

and now i am sourcing for wedding songs...
more of back ground music nahz....
as the main march in songs we had already decided like LONG LONG time ago...

well...
its time to end my break and go out to relieve miss snake women...

1 more night to my deserved 5 day offs...

its been 9 days since i have a rest day...

God Bless Me...

Counting down...

2009-12-19T01:43:00.003+08:00

am having my break now...
luckily its juz 2 nights this time round...
if not i am juz gonna die flat...

had been having insomia for many many nights...
i keep scaring myself over worthless things...

well...watever had happened...
i am juz gonna leave it behind now...

all i ask for is a chance to turn over a new leaf and start afresh...
leaving the past behind...
i juz wanna be myself...

the wedding is round the corner and i am feeling more and more stress...

maybe retail therapy is my only escape...

yes....

lol....

wat an excuse to shop rite...

hmmmm....

i juz bought like 7 tops in 2 days???

wahahahahhaha...

and i am super guilty can!!!
bcoz darling is busy at home helping me to do my ang bao box...
while i am happily shopping outside...

ahhhhhhh!!!!
WO ZHEN BU SHI REN!!!!

lol....

but ....

who ask u to be my "LARLING"...

lol...

alot of wedding things seems to be pissing us off...
especially when u know all the ppl whom is servicing u, is juz out to chop u and squeeze ur wallet dry!!!

thats soooooooooooo mutha-fuckingly irritating!!!!

like wat my bridal studio did this afternoon...

bridal studio coordinator: "oh u wanna add another photo huh?? erm...cannot lehz unless u pay additional $85 dollars for the editing..."

andie: "oh oki lohz..then nvm..."

*hung up the phone then call and tell hubbie that they refuse to add in 1 unselected photo into the album for us...

hubbie: "wat is this??!!! u all missed out 1 photo we also didnt make life difficult for u all... now we juz wanna add in another photo then u wanna charge this charge that!!! the photo it self is not even well edited!!! (can still see hubbie's double chin and my fatty arms...lol...i might as well edit myself!!!! i think i do a better job!!!!) why should i pay???!!!!"

bridal studio coordinator: "okay okay...we will add in for u..."(lan lan)

hubbie: "and i wanna meet up with the album designer... once he/she is done with the design..."

bridal studio coordinator: "okay okay...i will try to arrange the date for u..."

really irritating lohz!!!
they are juz out to squeeze our money and not even taking pride in their work...

really pissed off with them!!!

they better fuckingly do our album properly...
if not i gonna FFFFFFFFFFffffffff..... them upside down lohz!!!!

angry!!!!!

hmmmm....

for the time being...
i think i juz gonna relax and take things easy...

looking forward to sunday...
finally can rest in hubbie's arm...
haben been seeing him for almost a wk liao...
miss him big time...

Random: i juz took my weight this pm...down by another 1.5kg...

woooooohooooo....(spin round the room!!!!)

YEAH!!!!!!!

Yoga Work Wonders!!!!!

2009-12-13T23:14:00.002+08:00

"日久见人心"...

i hope i will neber need to use these words on someone...

well...

today was all fine till i was totally pissed by someone's actions...

maybe i am not meant to be respected...

i felt really pissed...

i am too tired to say/type out/describe how pissed i am here...

u know wat i mean...

like wat i ALREADY said a thousand times(like i have not said enough...)

maybe i am someone of NO POSITION in his heart.

i felt it countless times...

maybe its time for us to step back and think...

is it all worth it??

well..
the things u hate and dislike,
i wont do it upon u anymore.

even though it may be a means of me telling that i need u,
to feel u, for me to feel secured...

but since u detest it so much...

i had learnt to keep things to myself...

much more than wat u thought i am keeping from u...

i will do it,
even if it cause myself a drastic change...

i wont care anymore...

like who will even care abt ME??

i am getting numb...
really numb...

slowly, my fingers are losing the touch of u...

eventually,
my heart will lose the touch of u in my life too...

wat can i do??

that numb feeling u know??

well,

i doubt u will ever understand.

ALL I WANT FOR X'MAS IS THIS...

2009-12-05T15:52:00.009+08:00

X'mas is coming...

and its a season for the Snow, Thanksgiving, Carols, Santa Claus, Pressies, Logcakes, Turkey, Xmas Trees...

oh...not forgetting the ANGELS...

was looking around for some angel costumes for hubbie...
but found none...

mainly bcoz we got no idea how a MALE angel should look like...

lol...

maybe like some Egyptian man + a pair of angel wing + halo???

*shugged shoulders*

so i went online and googled for some images...

and was WOW-ed!!!!

YEAH!!!!

I WANT THESE ANGELS!!!
*PS: provided hubbie will look like this... -___- !ll

fallen...but still look as delicious!!!
*slurp*

OMG!!! look at the obliques!!!

wah....

i will salivate till i turn hypovolaemic!!!

DL+++

2009-11-30T23:31:00.003+08:00

i dun know wats wrong with me...
but seems like every single thing is pissing me off!!!

the wedding is near but there are still tonnes of things to be done...
was i even this stressed during my adv. dip??

i dun remember...

start to feel like its a chore...
rather than something i am looking forward to...

maybe its towards the start of the month,
when my auntie neber fail to visit me...
i feel the same pissed feeling...

its was 2130hr and i was rushing home juz now bcoz i am on am shift tml!!!
and the night shift ppl are still not out at 2135hr!!!
my blood started BOILING(AGAIN)!!!!

haiz...

and the last patient i triaged was a freaking "F+++++++++++++" father that juz wanna "F" all the ppl around him...
i dun know wats wrong with him...

he shouted at me, "u all better treat my son properly hor!!! Recently u all got a big news say wat got children die in KKH hor!!!!"

in my heart, "hello uncle...this is a HOSPITAL... ppl dun die here, die where??? if u soooooo scare that ur son will die here, then go somewhere else lohz...who needs ur son's dead body here???"

PISSED!!!

ppl are juz so moronic and they think that they are so SMART!!!

SO SMART THEN TREAT UR OWN CHILD!!!

thats wat i hate abt morons....
act as if they know alot when they know nuts...

pissed me off fuckers!!!

WARNING: Only for matured readers...ps: plenty of vulgarities

2009-11-19T03:23:00.003+08:00

this blogging during night shift thingy is a real CURSE~~~!!!!
i dun know where these "sick" kids come from...
but they seems to come here by coaches or bus....

dun come then all dun come,
but one come, all come at one go!!!

WTF!!!

there's another xiao tou coming!!!!
wah lan eh!!!
enough or not???!!
argh!!!!

and they dun seem to understand that they are suppose to get a queue number, seat down, and wait for the nurses to see them before they register...

thats so fucking irritating can!!!
every fucking time when i am half way triaging,
i gotta always look out for idiots that barge in,
looking like they lost their way in a forest or desert,
and as if their child's super fucking sick...

i got sooooo fucking pissed, i gotta stop my triaging and say, "please take a queue no first and i will call for u shortly."

wah kaoz!!!
its bloody written on the signage and cant u read it urself???

are u all illiterate or blind??

its so distracting and i cant concentrate fully on assessing my patients...

and no matter wat we do, wat signage we put or wat ever shit,
there will still be morons that are like this...

they think this is their ah gong's hospital!!!

then when asked wat is ur child's name??

"fever!! FEVER!!!"

TMD!!!!
its ur fucking child call FEVER!!!

argh!!!!

i am juz soooo fucking pissed!!!

haiz...

i think i over-worked...

i need a break..

wat i had last wk wasnt really a break...
i still gotta fucking write report for my HK trip!!!
and i am already dozing off...

haiz...

and why cant some ppl juz understand and stop making me soo irritated and continue pissing me off...

well,

WATEVER.

i couldnt be bothered...

here's another xiao tou...
(oh...and its an indian xiao tou...)

ARGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

*ps: sorry for all the vulgarities... but i really cant take it anymore!!! luckily HO LF came out on time to relieve me...if not i think i will scream at the next idiotic patient that i see...*ROAR*

back from HK....

2009-11-17T05:20:00.004+08:00

hey hey...
me juz back from hk...
for the 4th day i guess...
but i am still sooo tired...
waking up early at 7 plus and sleeping at 1 plus every single day,
with a 12 hours of non-stop walking on heels isnt something fun at all!!!
however, this trip is an eye-opener...

i always thought Singapore was REALLY advance in medical technology...
but i was WRONG!!

One Mountain still got Another Mountain Higher!!!

but we still not that bad nahz...
still consider we can deliver high standard of medical care...

anyway, this time back to hk,
brought back alot of memories...
the last time i went there was to celebrate his bday for him...
when he was in HK for an exchange program...

i still remembered it was meant to be a surprise!!!
but i kinda let the cat outta the bag...
lol...

i still remembered how everything went...
the 10 days i was there in HK with him....
and he skipped classes juz to accompany me thru the 10 days...

lol...

sweetest memories ever...
precious indeed...

anyway,
i gotta get back to me usual routine...
sleep early(at 6am) and wake up late(say 2pm???)

my biological clock totally hay wired after i went there...
when ppl forced us to have morning call at 630am, when we are only meeting at 9am...
(i got totally no idea why they gotta do this...)
and sleeping at 1am...and get up at 730am again the next day!!!!

argh!!!!
i hate office hours suddenly!!!
but i gian the wk end off...
haiz...
maybe i should juz stick to shift work for the time being...

Monday...

2009-11-09T02:17:00.008+08:00

am leaving on this coming tues...
for hongkok...

still got another free day to pack my stuff and all...
do some last min purchasing for some random toiletries...

am taking this chance to take a break too...
away from the noise, the confusion, the busy surroundings...
away from my usual place...

going into a new place,
new environment...
new friends,
new ppl i'm meeting everyday...
new things to discover...

its a form of escape i guess...
an extra space given to me to think and ponder thru questions and things that had happened...

come to think,
i should be BERY busy with my wedding preps...
and actually i am...
but my mind cant seem to be settled...

always taking other ppl's problem to tire myself out...
that seems to be one of my fav pastime...

maybe i am juz lidat....
maybe it juz runs in my bld...

this KPO character...

maybe i am really one...

hahahaha...

i dun know how to continue writing this entry...

i am tired...
worn out...

i have tonnes of words in my heart,
but i cant express it...
not at this point of time...

maybe there are many many misunderstandings...
but i am not really ready to find out wats really going on...
i need time to juz rest my mind...
and carry on with life...

so does all my friends...
those whom i loved and cared...

2009-11-06T04:05:00.004+08:00

if u ask me if its all worth it?

then my answer would be a DEFINITE NO!!!

but i still cant hide how upset i am...
i am really bad with hiding my emotions...
or maybe bcoz i do feel and really cared...

or maybe bcoz i've been there and felt EXACTLY (well, maybe almost exactly) how u feel...
i am saying from a guo lai ren's POV...

if all u want from me is to say wat u desire to hear...
then i am sorry...
i am not that sort of friend...

i said nasty things...
all bcoz i cared...

maybe i am juz too emotionally involved...
too into it as if its my own business....

maybe in the first place i should have drawn a line...
a marking to where i should have stop...

but now its too late...
i had gone way beyond where i should have been...

maybe i should juz let go and forget abt all...
afterall, its not something that i am in control...

i like chatting with kev...
somehow he has the ability to make ppl wanna pour their soul and spirit out when talking to him...

maybe bcoz he is not involved...
thus he is able to see a clearer and more objective view abt alot of things...

hmmm...

anyway, it doesnt matter now...

i am juz tired...
and i juz wanna forget and get on with life...

may all this be juz a nightmare...
that was neber REAL...

2009-11-05T04:22:00.002+08:00

was able to be in traige for consecative 3 nights...
not bad liao...

all thankz to my dear colleagues who are soo lovable and caring to change assignment with a swollen eyelid girl...

i was neber more thankful...

but my break was like split into 4 parts,
all thanks to doris who neber fail to call resus (always)...

i was all too free and i decided to resume blogging..

actually i had several unfinished entries...
that i dun think i am gonna finish typing them...
its pointess...
i already kinda forgotten how i feel at that instant when i was writing it...

so i had decided to delete them...

blogger had getting really irritating when i try to add picts...
well, since a long long long long long time they had been this irritating...

so i will totally boycott bloger when u wanna load any photos...

my fans who wanna see more updated photos of me,
can visit my facebook then...
thou i may start to boycott Facebook too...
as its starting to get boring, and irritating...
but we'll see how it goes...
at the mean time, it still a good and fast way to load and store my pict on cyberspace...

so i guess its juz gonna be words and words in this place...
maybe i should go for more short short entries...

well.
i'll try to keep everything sweet and short...
simple and nice..

alrite, i will juz stop here then. bye

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUBBIE!!!

2009-11-04T02:41:00.005+08:00

i cant apologise more tat my blog is sooo badly maintained...
hmmm...
i am not that IT-savy after all...

had been loking thru blogger.com,
searching for nice blogskin but i found none...

its hubbie's bday...
and i juz wanna say a big...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i cant emphasize more...
abt how fortunate i am, to be able to find ya....

well....
i am a xiao jie...
and i have a bery xiao jie pi qi...
(yeah...i know i got bery bad temper... and u always call me nano-gas...)

*ps: i had goggled over the net and this is wat i found on wikipedia
Nano means something very small. It comes from the Greek word nanos (νάνος) which means dwarf.
*pps: i am obvious NOT a Dwarf!!! but well, maybe i AM a little more difficult to handle...this i agree...lol...

but deep down u know i still love u...
(despite me throwing my tantrum around(alot)...lol...)

hmmmm...
our wedding's round the corner...
and i am recently REALLY busy with my eyes surgery etc...
so i have yet to find time to really get ur present and stuff...
but i hope u will love wat i am planing to get for u...

well, i really really hope so!!
i am not a good gf,
but neither are u a GOOD bf lohz!!!

u already kinda predicted wat i gonna buy!!!
and u are really a surprise spoiler by saying eh, u shouldnt buy this nahz..waste money etc etc...

BLOODY HELL!!!

juz like grace lidat!!

SICK IN THE MIND!!

lol...

anyway, i gonna end my blog here...

been huanting by the endless "xiao-tou" coming my way...

argh!!!!

the curse of blogging during night shift....

POP...

2009-11-03T03:22:00.002+08:00

finally...

i got my eye job done...
and going thru the healing process now...

argh!!
its indeed tough...

walking around with a swollen pair of eyes isnt wat i wanna be seen with...
still healing takes time...

and yeah...
i am that sort of impatient bitch...

am heading to HK in 8 days time...
for some educational trip that MOH organised...

well,
i am kinda looking forward,
but at the same time i am not...
well, partly due to my swollen eyes,
another thing is that i wont be able to spend much time with him over that wk end...

haiz...

izzit that i am pms-ing...
or i juz simply love to be affected by other ppl's problem...

when the whole world thinks it has nothing gonna do with them...
its only me that is left to feel pissed and angry over the whole matter...
i mean...
i oso dun know why...
but i juz felt pissed...

the same kinda pissed feeling when she left us...
not really a sense of betrayal...
but feels like we cannot be trusted and watever we say simply holds no weight in ppl's heart...

maybe we are not their real friends...

i dun know...

something that kevin told me the other night...

abt woman being a powerful creature...

he said "Behind every successful man, there is forever a strong woman..."

will, i guess we heard abt this a 100000000 times...
but who ever ponder wat this phrase really means?

well,
at least i did...

I always thought that behind every successful man, there will always be a woman who:

1. helps to take care of his kids while he slog his life @ work.
2. prepare his dinner and wait patiently for him to come home.
3. take care of his daily laundry and washing stuff.
4. clear up the house/the mess that the kids made.
5. lie in bed and wait for her man to be home.
6. be his sex slave and make all his fantasies come true.
7. neber ask wat he is doing outside.

last but not least,
8. make him feel like he's the KING...

hubbie always says as long as i take care of the things at home and put his mind in peace,
well knowing that somebody is jagar-ing his home for him...
so he could have a peaceful mind and go all out and fight in his career and provide his best for his family...

maybe thats from a man's POV...

but kev instill a new thinking into me...

he said... its all abt POP...

POWER OF the PUSSY!!!

well...please dun get me wrong...its not that "pussy" u are thinking abt...

like shooting ping pong ball using ur uhem... down there...
or hiding some razor blades inside us...
(liek those thai-show stunt...lol..)

but its all abt the POWER of WOMAN...

we have certain powers,
or rather we can manipulate ppl using their love for us/ sexual desire for us to achieve somethings...
of course i dun mean like get me a drink and i will bed u??

no no...thats not wat i mean...

well, many man think with their head...
0.00001% big head and 99.99999% with their small head...

so well basically man is a pretty easy animal to control...
but why is there so many heart breaking bastards out there???

we blame no one but ourselves...

we are the one that open ourselves to all these hurts...
we are the one that asked for it...
we are the one that is not strong enough and fumble at their feet...
we let our heart to play us out....

i had neber seen many woman exercising their power...
well, at least not the ppl around me...
not even myself...

we give in too easily...
we cant let go...
we hold on to useless relationship...
we hate the feeling of losing...
we hate that heartache...

we are stupid woman...

but who dun fall and learn their lesson?

well, at least i look back,
and saw my old scars...
i am glad that i had them to keep...

it reminds me of how badly i was hurt the other time,
how much pain i went thru,
how much tears i shed,

and how fortunate i am now...
how i rip the fruits of wat i sowed...

heartaches are meant to be accepted and lessons are meant to be learnt...
but not meant to be kept in ur heart to torture u till ur death bed...

when are u going to wake up and accept that wat u want isnt really HIM?
when are u going to realise that he can give u nothing?
when can u let go of ur past and accept that things are neber gonna be the same?
when can u understand that u and him are already in the history?

i felt sad when my friend told me that i dun understand..
maybe i really dont...
at least thats wat she feels...

if thats wat keeps u happy, by all means...
i juz hope that history do not repeat itself...

T.C.

2009-10-02T05:04:00.003+08:00

time flies...
and its abt 3 months plus since my last entry...

yeah...
i am busy...
VERY BUSY...

with all the wedding preps...
and travelling around...
hahahahhaha...

Life is Good...

hmmm....
i dun think anyone will notice that i actually updated my blog today...
bcoz it had been untouched for like ages...
hahaha...
i doubt anyone will bother to go and browse thru it now...

anyway...
who cares...

hmmm...i juz had my wedding photoshoot done like 2 wks ago...
and now i am waiting "patiently" for the photos to be out...
and wat the hell is taking them sooo long to load my photos from the memory card to the com???
i seriously have no idea...

i guess i will juz give them a call and find out how things are going...
afterall, we paid sooo much, of course i am not gonna let the bridal shop ppl sit there shake leg rite...
hahahaha...
think its bery difficult to earn my money sia...
hahahahha...

Life is Good...
(oh..did i already mention it??)

then well...
i cant neber re-emphasize it enough...
lol...

i am loving him more...
thou at times he still does make me angry...
but i think i am one lucky girl...

he seems to be flirting more with me now...
abit mushy to said that he flirts with me rite...
hahaha...
but he does!!!
and i am lov'in it~~~~!!!
(for once i am agreeing with MacDonald's slogan...)

hmmm....
i dun know...
i had always been on 4 nights recently...
and even when i work normal shift...
i dun see him THAT often now...
(we use to seeing each other like 2 to 3x a week...)

but now..i will only stay over at his place over the weekend...
and as the week starts...
i am back to my house...

but even when i dun see him,
i still feel that i am being loved by this special someone...
and it feels really xing fu...
now that i have a BB, we can communicate even easier...
that makes things much easier and better for the both of us...
lol...

hmmm...
as the days goes by...
my wedding is oso around the corner...
and i am full of excitment...

not only abt the end result...
but the whole process of choosing our hotel, to deciding on the gown, till Photoshooting, sorting out for PG and VGs, and there are still one whole list of things/task that are to be done...

we are busy...
but busy till we feel soo blissful...
its like a dream come true...

its like everyday,
i am counting down...

and after our wedding, shortly will be our house thats coming...

wow...

i am soon-to-be a man's wife...
and having my own home with him...

sometimes its juz so unbelievable...

looking back...
i juz knew him when i was in sec 4...
those childish days...
hahaha...
hmmm....i dun dare to look back...

but now...
vroooommm....

here we are walking down the aisle towards our future...

i think time flies faster than a ferrari....
hahahahaha...

sweetest memories stays..

and we are another Happily Married Couple....

23/01/2010, Pac Pacific...

wedding preps...

2009-06-18T05:30:00.004+08:00

hmmm...
my head have neber been this BIG before...
doing all the sums for the wedding...
going to sign up the videography package by the end of this month...
and this will cost us a good 4k+ already...
haiz...

i started doing my accounts for our wedding sia...
and now in my head is juz $$$$ & ¢¢¢¢...

argh!!!

i gotta really start looking into my spendings...

so no more shopping...
no more cabbing...
no more dining in high class restaurants...
normal restaurants oso cannot...

must eat hawker or if got home cook food,
thats the best!!
lol...

hmmmm...i suppose everyone works hard and save as much as they can before the wedding sia??
or am i the only one??

hmmmm..i doubt so...
after all, money dun drop from the sky...
and everyone works hard to earn wat they want...

and not everyone is soooooooooo fortunate to marry a millionaire or billionaire...

but i am already bery fortunate to marry a FUTURE Billionaire!!!
(i really hope so sia!!! so i can shake leg at home!! hahaha...)

*p/s: dear, this is juz a joke..not meant to stress u further in ur already bery stressful working environment...

hmmm...
its time to rest my mind!!!

all the H1N1 cases are driving us nuts!!!!
and i kena OT sia!!
so i worked like from 1800 to 0330!!!
9 1/2 hrs...

well...
maybe alot of u work longer hrs...
but working 9 1/2 hrs in A&E isnt an easy task...

imagine the whole time u need to be on ur toes...
buzzing around like some busy bee...
neber once ur leg will stop walking...
nor ur butt hitting the chair...

even if u sit in triage,
ur mind gotta keep spinning and working...
esp when u triage patients...
not an easy task...
thats why ppl say triaging is the most tough section in the A&E...
thus supervisiors always assign those that are more senior and experienced there...

afterall, recognising a sick child and providing immediately treatment isnt always easy...
kinda test ur clinical knowledge, observation skills, abilty to pick up abnormal findings quickly and being bery sharp and steady with ur work...

and after a long day,
i am still awake now!!!
kinda steady rite...
hahahaha...

alrite..i think i am abit groggy now...
time to hit the sheets...

Girls' Shattered Dream...

2009-06-10T00:17:00.005+08:00

i bet u wont find this cutie boy unfamiliar...

esp those die hard "American Idol" fan!!!!

yeah...

he's Adam Lambert...

hmmm...i dun really watch American Idol...
(nurses dun have time and the luxury to go after drama/tv series...shift work kill lives!!!)

but i somewat saw this cutie pie on yahoo news!!!
omg omg...
he's sooooooo cute!!!!
the moment i saw his pict,
i juz spend my whole day googling all abt him!!!

hmmmm....

seems like he's the 1st runner up in American Idol!!!

and sing really well!!!

OMFG!!!!

can sing so well...

and so cute looking...

HE'S ALL GIRLS' DREAM!!!!!

then came a BAD news...

HE is actually a GAY...
not surprising for those who are his fans...

but can u hear my heart shattered??

how can such a adorable and charming guy possibly fall in love with another man!!!

i juz cant get thru wat he's thinking...

and i fucking wonder who the hell is the fucker who is soooooooooooooo fortunate to have him...

and there u go....

his BF...

Darke Labry...

(kindly ignore that girl in the pict...i dun know who the hell is she...)

AND EVEN THE bf OSO SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO FREAKING CUTE CAN!!!!!!!

i really feel like crying!!!

dun tell me all the girls in the world all die liao mehz???

u need to go and screw another man???

WTF!!!!

can u jolly well juz turn ur head and look around...

if not ur big head,

at least ur small head down south!!!

i cant believe my eyes...

his BF cheering for him on American Idol...

some picts that the paparazzi got when the couple visited on of the Bar/Pubs...

holding hands some more!!!

ARGH!!!!

*andie clenching fist*

typical gay couple..

haiz...

now now...

i am really upset...

i thought he was juz the perfect man for me to fall in love with...

well...

since we 志不同，道不合...

then i cannot 强求oso...

i juz wish them happiness...

but remember to wear 套套...

AIDS is on the rise sia...

haiz...

*broken hearted*

**********************************************************************************

RANDOM: my blue black on my rt leg...

i found them while i was the "H1N1" nurse...

i dun know how i got them...

but its juz so swollen initially...

i thought it was DVT!!!

hahahaha...

well..i think i juz knocked onto some sharp corners unknowingly...

now its 3 days already...

but its still has tinch of blueblack...

now u know bad it hurts...

poor me...

*sob*

0607090505

2009-06-07T05:05:00.001+08:00

my 2nd nights....
and i am absolutely tired...
my dun-know-how-many-freaking-rounds-of-friday-sat-and-sunday-nights!!!

i miss my wkend offs...
haben been having one for like yrs!!!!

suddenly i juz feel that i want to spend more time with him...

note:
its not that we gotta spend more time together...
but rather...
its me wanting to spend more time with him......

hmmm...
i missed his embrace...
sleeping in his arms...
his smell...
his voice...
his warm hands...
his everything...

sometimes i really think that i am already bery fortunate...
looking at the ppl around me...

i means its not like i got absolutely no problems haunting me in life...
well...
maybe not at this moment of time...

i still remembered how i scolded him upside down this morning bcoz he was suppose to come and fetch me...and was 30 mins late!!!

argh!!!

i was really fuming!!!
imagine not have ANY sleep for a good 12 hrs...
its not really fun to keep waiting like donkeys outside the dept...

i gave him a piece of my mind the moment i got up the car!!!

but by the time we reach the hawker centre for breakfast...
we were giggling away already...

hahahahaha...

somewat i realised its not a must to get wat we yearn for...
and wat we want may not necessary turn out to be wat's really for us...

but rather...
wanting something/someone that can make yourself happy is the most impt thing...

so i guess its always happier to have someone to love u, rather than loving someone...
esp if that someone simply doesn't appreciate ur love at all...
and stepping it on the ground like some dirt...

i guess i had grown up alot...
thru the things i had gone thru...

events that were witnessed by all...
while others were juz small little secrets that i would love to keep it to myself forever...

its painful even when u try to think back...
the pain somewat lingers...

but rather than avoiding it...
forcing urself to forget or even to deny its existence...

i guess...it would be better to accept and acknowledge them...
and learn from it...
as all were valuable lessons in life...
and be grateful that u had seen and been thru them...

hmmm...
definitely there are more to come...

but now i am no longer handling it all alone...
i know that he will always be there with me...

2009-06-04T00:53:00.001+08:00

BEWARE!!!!

I AM NOT IN THE PERFECT STATE OF MIND TO THINKING NORMALLY!!!!

JUZ THE TIME OF THE MONTH WHEN MY HORMONES SURGES AND ANY IRRITANTS WILL JUZ KILL!!!

SO SCRAM OFF!!!

BEFORE I START TO KILL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-06-04T00:12:00.002+08:00

I WANT A NEW PHONE...

BLACK BERRY STORM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but my mobile plan is gonna expired only next yr!!!!

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Be Strong...

2009-05-20T23:46:00.004+08:00

hmmm...
not feeling too well now...

seeing darling suffer like this,
i dun feel good at all...
in fact i start to hate watever thats causing her so much pain...

when i talk to her,
somehow i am able to feel that heartache again...

that was long long time ago...
but i can still feel it...

juz like when u had a cut...
thou it may heal...
the skin closes,
but the scar is still there...

and whenever u touch that scar,
all the memories comes back alive in ur mind...

thou the scar may get lighter and lighter...
but guess there's no way its gonna heal...
no way a scar is gonna heal...

i told her to take things easy on herself...
let nature take its course...
let go...

its a joke isnt it??

its easier said than done...

but didnt many did it too???

juz whether our mind wants to take control...
or we allow God to take control...

many of us struggled thru...
till a point of time we know we got no other way but to trust Him and let him take control of our lives...

how to let go??
she asked me...

maybe she should juz cry and struggle to a point that her heart aches till she thinks she's better off dead...
till a point when all the heartaches consume her...
and thats the point when u will slowly learn how to let go and surrender...

thats wat happened to me isnt it??

but i think maybe i am slightly luckier...
at least i didnt suffer all these for nothing...

but this time...
i dun know how things will turn out for her...

of course i hope it will turn out fine...
but one thing i know for sure...

God's gonna mould her into a stronger woman...

blogging from KL..

2009-05-12T09:20:00.002+08:00

i am actually in hubbie's hotel now...
while he's working...

came over yest afternoon bcoz i simply missed hubbie too much...

initially i wasn't planning to come over...
as the airtix will cost me abt 80 plus...
thus i think its senseless to juz spend so much juz for a 3D2N stay...

however, as i was abt to go off shift yest...
i was juz casually googling for the price of the airtix...
hoping it will drop abit...

then i saw this promo that tiger airline is having...
FREE airtix!!!

i juz need to pay for the tax etc...

so in the end, i only spend 60 bucks for the airtix here!!!
but i was still contemplating whether should i come over or not...

then hubbie msged me....
asking me to come over...
hahahahaa...

so that i could accompany him...
hooo hooo hooo...

hmmmm...
so he really missed me...
hahahaha...

anyway, this place is damn cool!!!
and i took freaking lotsa picts...
cant wait to upload it at home...
as i dun wanna overload this lappie with all my photos...
hahahahaha...

alrite...
gonna catch some sleep first then i'll be meeting my cousin later...

he's gonna bring me around sia...
lol...

Random

2009-05-10T04:51:00.006+08:00

argh!!!
i am juz soooo freaking busy these days..

hmmm...
or rather i am juz way tooooooo tired...

seeing the numbers are going up every single day...
as our staff morale are juz plunging down...

i got tonnes of picts that i wana upload here...
but the loading here is juz like shit!!!

why dun u guys juz go to my FACEBOOK acct to view it???

hahaha...
uploading there is definitely easier than here...
why cant blogger juz review the way how photos can be uploaded??

hmmm...

anyway,
i am too lazy to blog now...

i got 1 more night to go...

and hubbie will be away to malaysia tml...
till next friday...

he's going for some company training stuff...
and bloody hell going to stay in a pretty nice hotel...
call Pacific Regency Hotel Suites

the room seems pretty big and comfy...

with the floor plan...

initially wanna to with him too as the air tix to KL is only like 80 bucks!!!

but come to think of it,
i can actually do alot of stuff with 80 bucks oki!!!

like go for a nice nice dinner with the girls...

or

shop for a few more dresses...

or

simply save them in my acct for our wedding purposes...

haiz...
so i leave that idea alone...
anyway, i only got 3 days off...
not enough time to acc hubbie oso...

and he will be busy going for training...
hanging out with his colleagues...
trying to blend into the culture of the company...

maybe i will juz be a distraction if i am there...
then all he wants to do after work everyday will be to head back to the hotel stat to see me...

hahahaah...

anyway, its not safe for a girl to roam around Malaysia too...
who knows i will be the next RAPE-and-KILLED victim...
then u can see my beautiful face in the headlines the next day...

argh!!

i dun like that idea!!!

anyway,
i tired liao...

nights...
going back to work soon...

nothing much in particular...

2009-04-30T03:19:00.008+08:00

me tired lehz!!!
its my 3rd night...
and i still have 1 more day to go...
surviving on wang cafe's kopi-gao (coffee with milk THICK) every night...
but even with that,
once i reached home and done with my "decon"...
i sure drop dead on the sheets...

kinda lonely this week...
i haben seen hubbie for a good 5 days already...
since he left for work on monday from my place...
i somewat re-called that he did kinda say bye to me before he left for work...
and thats the last time i saw him this week...
kinda miss him yeah...
and now he's slogging his life away in reservice...
poor him...
but luckily this time round he's only going for 1 wk...
according to him...
the reservice this time round is a "low" key one...
though i dun totally understand wat it means...
but i suppose its not so xiong like the previous ones...
when he heed to go and dig hole and sleep inside...

then i was wondering...
y singapore government so rich ah...
pay ppl to go into the forest and dig hole and sleep inside...
then after u sleep liao...
cover the hole back...

juz like dogs...
when they wanna pee,
they dig a hole oso...
then after they pee,
they cover the hole back...

hahahaha...

juz joking oki!!!
all NS man please dun throw stones at me!!!

hahaha...

well...
hmmm...
i was thinking why dun u all juz leave the hole there??
so whoever come next dun need to waste so much effort to dig and cover the hole again??
isnt it more efficient???

well...
hahaha...
juz my 2cents worth of thoughts...

then hubbie called me juz now say they got water parade...
now...wat is WATER PARADE???

izzit all man strip and play water together???
or they bathe together in the field??

hahaha...
then hubbie said no...
it simply means they have to drink water together...

now now...
i really dun understand...
drink water only lehz...
lidat oso have to drink together...
siao ah...
now u know why all these funny procedures are in place during NS...
bcoz man are juz soooo...moronic...
ask them drink water dun drink...
until the upstairs ppl have to come out with certain measures to force them to drink water...
and now they have to drink together as a whole grp...
so funny lohz...

i was imagining like 100 NS man...
all top-less (hahaha...yeah..with 6 pacs and super short shorts with side slits and sexy legs...)
standing in the field...
with a barrel of water each...
as they drink...
they pour water on their body too...
then water droplets streaming down their sexy body...
and super wet shorts...
woooo...woooooo....
showing off their super fit oblique muscles....
kaoz!!!!!

*i nose-bleed liao*

hahahahaha...

dear dear is gonna kill me after he read this post...
haahahaha...
he will say, "can dun post this kinda thing???"

well...
its my blog...
i post wat i like...
hahaha...

juz like the Garyng174 wat!!!
he oso post so many home-made porn clips...
but police oso neber catch him!!!

then i only type words wat...
and its not some sex stories or wat...
not even picts lehz...

hooo hooo hooo...

oh oh...
and talking abt the garyng 147...
hmmm....
lousy nahz...
i doubt the girls really went to look for him...
(if u know wat i mean if u read his entries...)
i think they are those street-side pros nahz....
maybe give abit more money then they let him film...

anyway,
i think no big deal abt him nahz...
not as if he has some super big prick...
juz a tiny one...
wats there to show off??
i see 1 or 2 of his vid and i got sooooo bored...
i bet singapore has better porn sites than this...

so please please...
if u have better taste for porn...
stop visiting his site...
its a total waste of time...

and i think my little patients has nicer little bros then his...
hahaha...
juz kidding...
how UGLY can little kids look??

oki oki...

i am not some paedophile...
i am juz a normal nurse...
who love kids for who they are...
(not those irritating crying ones thou!!!)
lol...

*updated @ 0820hr*
well...juz to reassure myself that i did remember correctly that this garyng DID REALLY have a small prick...
i revisited his blog juz now...
after i first surf it like close to 2 months ago...

HE REALLY HAVE A SMALL PRICK!!!

well girls (in the vid)...
(i dun care who u are and whether u are reading this...)
u deserve a BETTER, and BIGGER man...

lol...

CE NURSES ARE SOOOOOOOO "HOT"!!!!

2009-04-28T02:37:00.002+08:00

wow...
finally we are able to wear scrub suits for work...
something that we fight so hard for...lol...
and now we got it...
but with a condition attached - FULL PPE (Personal Protective Equipment)!!!!

yes...
we are supposed to wear an N95 mask + a water proof long sleeve, knee length gown + gloves + KIV goggles...

i dun like this...
its SUPER DUPER HOT!!!

esp when ya in triage...
ya suppose to wear ur full PPE bcoz u're the first point of contact with the patients...
so bcoz of this swine flu shit...
thats the price to pay...

so we have 3 fans in triage to blow at the triage nurses 24/7...
and if someone's gonna block my fan,
i will juz turn around and "hey, get lost!!!!"
i dun care whether i have a patient sitting in my counter or not...
they should understand how fucking hot it is when u are in this piece of crap...
but compared to the CA(chemical agent) suit that we wear during hazmat...
u can consider this PPE to be as thin as paper!!!

hmmm..maybe later i should juz take one pict of myself...
and show u guys wat i meant by HOT!!!

hahahaha...

anyway..i am sooo tired....
sleepy rather...
thou i think i slept enough already...
but still..
maybe it the "not-used-to-night-shift" syndrome again...
and i think i can sleep pretty well after i go home today...
its been a really tiring day...

was looking at FB juz now and saw someone's pict from bkk...
think she went bkk for holiday with her bf...

hmmm..i kinda miss that place sia...
neber been there for like a good 3 yrs??
guess it must have changed alot alot!!!!
was thinking of going there for a short trip after our wedding photoshoot as i will be going for 1 week leave...
juz hope that hubbie will be able to take a few days leave...
so we could juz go there and have a good time after our tiring photoshoot...
lol...

well...i gonna take a rest now...
tired...

21042009

2009-04-21T23:45:00.003+08:00

haiz...
life's kinda boring...
i like always so sianz...
everything like monotone lidat...
no ups nor downs...

i dun like this...
everything's getting too stagnant...
esp...
haiz..
its juz too private to share over here...

anyway,
ever since hubbie revert to the normal working hours,
he's been a really good baby...
sleep early, wake up early...
kinda didnt expect him to be so kuai...
but he did it...

but i juz dun like this feeling...
i dun know why...

haiz...
maybe bcoz he's putting too much stress on himself...
or maybe he's stressed abt the marriage...
gotta earn more money and save more money...
afterall...
we are not from some fucking well to do family...
we're juz normal ppl...
with him trying to give me the best of watever he could...

well...
i am juz feeling kinda down...
its not due for PMS yet...
but i am feeling this...
kinda funny...

maybe i have unmet expectations...
expectations that may be unreachable...
i dun know...

who has the answer??
i doubt anyone will...

upset in progress...

2009-04-18T16:53:00.003+08:00

sometimes i juz find it so hard to survive...
no matter how u treat others...
there will still be ppl talking behind ur back...
backstabbing u...

well...
like i had knew it all along...
i can neber please the world...

but i really dun understand that when all i want is to ensure good work flow...
at the end of the day...
we juz wanna benefit our patients...
afterall...
they are all why we are here for...
(other than our pay...of course...)

i mean as a nurse,
it neber come across ur mind that u did all these for ur patients???
hoping that they will have the best outcome for everything??
every treatment that u give???

haiz...

i juz feel kinda upset...
i didnt even know that ppl feels that i am proud, and commanding...
thinking that i am super senior,
and giving orders around...

well...even if i do so,
the end point is not that it will benefit me...
i still do as much job as anyone else in the dept did...
but i juz hope that we all work as a team...
thats wat collaboration is all abt...

but i guess,
after this day...
i shall juz keep things to myself...
do things on my own...
wats the point u ask a favour from others...
when he/she will juz accuse u later that u are being lazy...
and giving orders...
being bery proud...

haiz...
Hei Geok Mei...
wakie...
the world isnt that forgiving afterall...

busy....

2009-04-17T01:02:00.005+08:00

wow...
its been a long long time since i last update my blog...

hmmm...
abit unlike me rite...

but i was kinda busy...
and held up with alot of stuff sia...

everytime when i am online...
i am busy surfing some other webbies...

if ya think that i am talking abt porn...
hmmm...
then u're really wrong...

i am searching for staff for my wedding...
and recently i am hooked to this webbie that shows online streaming of my fav cartoon!!!!
detective conan!!!!

kaoz!!!!!

and they have super updated vids like ep500+ liao!!!

kaoz!!!!

neber in my life have i seen so many conan series at one go...
hahahahaha....but its really nice nahz...

and in order for me to watch them at ease...
i specially ask hubbie to bring his lappie over, so i could watch conan in bed!!!
no need to sit in the chair and watch over my desktop...

but now..after we fixed the lappie,
it doesnt seems to be loading the vid!!!!

super pissed!!!
and now i am left with nothing to do but to update my blog...
hahaha...

thats sad isnt it...
and tml is the start of my killer 3 nights...

CE's attendance had been really horrible recently...
anyone who had been working recently will definitely agree with me....

i am really lucky as i am on course, i kinda escape from work for like 3 days...
plus my off will be 4 days...
but tml is so sianz lohz...

i tell myself i gonna have enough rest to handle the crowd...

haiz...

kinda wu nai....

esp when my conan is still not loading yet!!!

haiz...
i think i should juz give up...
argh!!!!

I AM MARRIED???

2009-04-04T03:22:00.002+08:00

i always thought that i had the most unique name in the whole universe!!!

Hei Geok Mei Andrea!!!!

but i was wrong!!!

looked wat i found as i browse thru the net!!!

and i was actually married!!!

omg omg!!!

juz for laugh...
hahahaha...

wedding prep...

2009-04-04T02:08:00.004+08:00

its like already 2am...
and i am still up...
hmmm...
i am still googling for some PGs...

as i look thru the list...
i found 1 PG that kinda suit me and hubbie's style...
lol...

actually we saw this studio on http://www.singaporebrides.com/ sometime ago liao...
and we even met them and seen some of their portfolios...

the picts were really nice...
and its exactly the style we like...
but the price...
hmmm...
abit steep...
but i guess..
its once in a lifetime...
and i couldn't care less...
hahaha...

and now i am looking thru their blogs...
i am totally in love with the photos they took...
the rich colour...the contrast...they way they capture the real emotions of both the guest and the couple...

the nasty looks on the jie mei's face...
the "have-mercy-on-me" look on the poor brothers...
the painful and torturing gate-crashing...
the ever-so-gorgeous bride...
the i-cant-wait-any-longer groom...
the tears of happiness that reflects on her parents eyes...
the adorable kids jumping of their bed...
the toast to celebrate this lovely union...
the hugs and well wishes from their fellow friends...
the eternal loving couple...

its their day...
and they deserve it...
above all others...

suddenly i cant wait for this day to come...
suddenly it hit on me that...
finally its my turn...
its our day...

the day that we declare to the world that we're husband and wife...

we went ikea for dinner today and we came across a couple...
the husband called his wife "lao po"...

i was asking hubbie why he neber call me lao po...
he argued that its bcoz we are not married yet!!!

hmmm...
maybe now i am the one who cant wait...
cant wait to be his lawful wife...
in the eyes of the law, our parents, and the world...

there is still plenty of planning to do...
but i am glad that we are pretty on the right track...
i am praying that everything will be juz fine...
with the help of my jie meis...
(alrite...i had 9 of them!! hahahaha...)

its kinda a dream come true is it??

well,
it is...

FACE IT!!

2009-04-04T00:22:00.004+08:00

well...i had been busy this whole week...
meeting up photographers and videographers for our wedding...
i dun even have any time to hit the malls...

haiz...

anyway...
i did something really courageous today...
well...
not exactly thou...

lol...

i am really bothered by something recently...
(other than my weight...which is a constant worry to me...)
but my fucking face!!!

kaoz!!!

i am super pissed lohz!!!!

alrite...
i am actually brave enough to take a super closeup shot on my troubled face WITHOUT ANY MAKEUP!!!! (except my eyelash extension...)

look at the fucking clogged pores!!!

omg omg!!!

now this is the close up...

now u understand my worry...
and my wedding is already coming up...
alrite...not that fast thou..
i still have abt 9 more months to go...

but who having such a face will not be worried???

and despite my constant effort in exfoliating almost everyday,
mask at least 3 time a week...
i clean my face so bloody thoroughly with makeup remover be it whether i got makeup or not every single day...
plus i am taking pills...

it still didnt turn out really well...

gone were the old scar and i did not have major outbreaks...
but the fucking eagle-spread-open pores are killing me!!!!

so i have bloody decided to increase the dose of my roaccutane...
(thou the side effect of chipped skin and lips is gonna torture me like hell...)
gonna dump in more money for facials and more facial products...
and be more hardworking in my facial routines...

i juz hope that by the end of 1 or 2 months...
i will be able to see a bit of results...
*keeping my fingers crossed*

or maybe bcoz its the time of the month...
PMS i mean...
i really hope so...

go away u fucking clogged pores!!!

I HATE U BIG TIME!!!

ARGH!!!

Man and Woman...

2009-04-01T02:32:00.002+08:00

i was reading abt darling's blog entry juz now: Perfect

juz for those that cant access her blog...basically this article from Cleo actually talks abt:
(i cut and paste from darling's blog bcoz i am too lazy to type...lol...)

Us WOMEN always have our own long list of what Mr Perfect should be like.. tall, handsome, accomplished, listens to your say, and the list goes on..
But when a man searches for love, he has no idea what the perfect woman entails..
Though more than often we catch them indulging in their voluptuous desires, when it comes to serious matters, they just need someone who will love them because and despite of who they can sometimes be..
Comparing both, men are more fluid with their own set of standards unlike women, where we set our standards and boundaries so stringent it could be the reason why Mr. Perfect always loses his way en route to our happiness..

hmmm...
i do agree that women often set a long list of criteria of wat their perfect man must be like...
but from wat i know...
man do too...

But man really only have 2 categories when they set standards for us:
1. woman they can have 1-night-stand with...
2. woman who is potentially their wife/GF...

why did i say so??

lol...

well..
i was watching some taiwan variety show with my niao niao the other day...
actually its an episode abt bikini girls...
so there were many girls who dressed up in bikini appearing in the variety show...

and as u guys know...
Taiwan girls really LOVE to pad their boobs alot!!
no matter how many "dumpling" they use...
be it BIG or small...

as long as it can make their boobs perky...
it doesn't really matter...

anyway...thats not the point...

there were 2 girls that appeared in the show...
girl A's boob was freaking big!!!
(i dun know whether izzit padded one or real one...)
but she really had those slutty look...

then girl B had those A cup boobs...
but she's really sweet looking...

i was telling niao niao that girl B is really sweet...
then suddenly he told me..
yeah...i would be with girl A if i only wanna have 1-night-stand with her...
whereas girl B is those girlfriend material....

hmm...
i always thought that guys love big boobs girls...
hmm..maybe not all...but most of them bahz...

then niao niao comment that actually some man dont feel secure with their girls exposing too much/too pretty/or having too hot figure...

i find it really funny...
man loves to see girls zao geng etc...
but wanna wrap their woman like a mummy..
lol...
kinda fan jian rite??
hahahaha...

exhausted...

2009-03-25T05:42:00.003+08:00

i am definitely more tired than usual...
having to handle night shifts...
waking up like 3 hrs earlier every day...
going for yoga classes everyday...
not forgetting to eat lesser...

even doris said i looked more moody...
probably i am really too tired...
not enough sleep bahz...

but all these effort did pay off nahz...
at least i lost abt 2 kgs since i start off my lose weight regime again...

i hope things will last...
and i wont go collapse thru the process...
but so far so good...

but i seriously need more sleeping time sia...
working out is really really tiring...
esp i put all my might and strength into these classes...
and after that i tend to get weak arms and legs...
hahaha...
maybe bcoz i am not that used to the intense training yet...
lol...

like juz now...
i cant even move a patient from a stretcher to the bed via a draw sheet...
(well...the child was pretty heavy to start with...he's a big boy...15 yrs old sia!!! but usually i will have strength to pull him over...esp with the help of another 3 person...)
my arms are juz too weak...

how i wish my 4 nights will end quickly...
thou this is only my 2nd night...
and my leave can quickly come...
and i am on leave together with dear dear...
bcoz he's gonna be officially JOBLESS!!!

not exactly jobless...
but only for 1 week...
then he's gonna start his career in another company...
and tml is his last day...

yeah!!!
at least i can have 1 whole week with him and him only sia!!!
taking our deserved rest together...
and we can sort out our wedding stuff too...

and its gonna me our farewell party for deo this coming sat...
i am really excited!!!

but the gathering and stuff like that...
but i dun really like the idea of getting drunk...

nahz....
i dun think i wil even get drunk in the first place...
i will juz reject and avoid watever that miss ore gives me...
and i swear that i will never pour watever she hands me into my mouth...

hmmm...in this way, it should be pretty safe already...

teeyu said she's dying to get drunk...
i mean...what there to die for??
she will get drunk after like 2 neat??
simple...
nothing difficult to achieve...
she's a lousy drinker afterall...

hmmm...
time to close my internet browser...
guess sister is coming on shift already...

and its time to GO HOME!!!!

OUR BIG DAY!!!

2009-03-23T14:07:00.002+08:00

woow...
its been kinda long since update this little corner of mine...

this few weeks had been really packed for me...
up and down...
my emotions went zooming...
i feel like i am riding on a roller coaster...

but since things are more settled...
well...
life had been much better for me...

anyway...
OUR BIG DAY IS SET!!!!

its gonna be on 23 JANUARY 2010!!!!

@ Pan Pacific Hotel...

so u guys can imagine how busy i will be...
but i thank God that things are more or less settled...
bcoz we had signed a package with our bridal boutique like last yr...
and hotel had already confirmed already...

so more or less the 2 major arrangement are done...

the rest are more of the small small little things that we gotta do...
shop for wedding band and stuff lidat...
arrange for actual day VG and PG...
coming out with the timeline for the wedding...
guest list...
fitting of gown...
photoshoot...
print the invitation cards...
and lots more!!!

thou busy..but i guess we are kinda happy and excited abt this union...

my friend asked me...
why the sudden change in me??

well..
if i dun wanna do it, no one can ever force me...
but if i set my heart on something...
i make sure i put in all the effort i could to fulfill it...

thus...
this explains the change u're seeing...

well..this is a happy occasion...
and i decided to be happy abt it...
and having no regrets...

well..
its time to hit the club again...
i dun have much time left thou...
lol...

my 2nd night...

2009-03-14T08:08:00.002+08:00

i had a wonderful night with a bunch of really fun girls...
patient load was still alrite...
we still have time to sit around,
chit chat for awhile...

i was assigned as obs 1 nurse yest,
while huiting and veron mummy as triage nurses...
so i went break with veron mummy...

we got into a consult room...
and was sitting around...
making ourselves comfortable...
ready to chit chat...

suddenly, i heard my phone ringing...
"it better not be huiting!!" i told myself...

well...true enough...
its her...
but she hang up even before i could pick up her call...
and i was telling veron mummy that didnt she find huiting bery irritating at times??

then out of a sudden...
we heard someone knock on the door like some crazy woman...

the only name that went into our mind was...

"ORE HUITING!!!!"

well true enough!!!
the knocking really drove veron mummy crazy!!
and she climb up and slammed open the bloody door,
while i was still sitting behind her...

she looked like she's goona kill huiting...
but seems like she saw someone else....
and her expression changed immediately...
she even invited the person in...

i was thinking who the hell was that??

i pop my head out...
and its hubbie standing in front of me...

hahahhaa...

with a packet of guo tei (fried dumplings)...

he's sweet isnt it??
always sending me supper,
popping by to see me esp when i am on night shift...
telling me that i looked dumb in my stupid bear bear apron...
(not as if we wanna wear that!!! we were forced to!!!)
not forgetting to plant a kiss on my lips....

lol....

hmmm...
its a sweet thing...
even to see him for a minute...
i am happy...
u know girls like surprises...
no need for a huge one...
but something that matches the needs of her heart is sufficient...

hmmm...
i gonna sleep now...
seems to get more and mroe drowsy liao...
hooo...hoooo...
nights...

ANDIE IS ON CLOUD NINE!!!

2009-03-12T21:51:00.002+08:00

hmmm...
i am kinda in a happy mood recently...
lol...
everything seems to fall in place nicely...

hubbie had recently tendered...
and his last day will be the start of my leave...

hoooo...
hurray!!!!

finally we can have some rest together...
but i guess we juz gonna slack at home sia...
afterall there isnt much place to go...
and its time to save alot of money...
so sianz...

well...
thats not exactly wat made me really happy today...
hooo hooo hooo...

hmm...
we quarrelled yest evening...
for some reason that i dun think i should announce it here...
but we juz refused to talk to each other lohz...

we didnt msg or call each other for the whole of yest....
think its more than 24 hrs...
lol...

then he called me at abt 7 plus pm juz now...

hubbie: "why u didnt call me??"
(in a calm and soft tone)
me: "u oso didnt call me wat..."
(my usual self...trying to challenge him)
hubbie: "its bcoz i am angry with u..."
me: "then why now u still call??"
(slightly pissed...but still in a challenging tone...)
hubbie: "its bcoz i missed u..."

hooo hooo hooo...

i cant help it but he juz brought a huge smile across my face...

hahahaha....

well..he wanna date me this sunday for movie...

hooo..hoo...

can i even consider it a date??
maybe i should...
juz to make myself feel that we are still patohing...
rather than those really old couple...
hahhaha...

Trip to Genting...

2009-03-10T00:38:00.008+08:00

me went genting with hubbie last week...
its like been 2 yrs plus i haben been up there...

there isnt much things i like abt that place...
other than the cool climate....
no interest in the Casino, nor the theme park...

but this tie round since hubbie and his dad is driving up there...
so juz go lohz...
anyway its free!!!
lol...

free room + free transport...
why not???

so i did 4 nights so i could have 3 days off...
but thru out that 4 nights i was super tired!!!
didnt have enough sleep...
everytime sleep at 10 plus or 12 plus pm,
i would be up by 4 plus pm...
only slept for like 4 hrs...
and stil gotta work night...
so its juz damn shacked...

then on sunday, once i off shift,
hubbie came and fetch me...
and we head off to malaysia...

our virgin road trip to genting...

after a long 5 hrs drive,
we are finally in genting...

hmmmm....
i think its better if u drive up urself...
as compared to taking coach...
its so much more comfortable...
i was like cuddling hubbie to sleep...
with his blankie covering me...
keeping me warm...

then u can stop anywhere any time u want...
not so much restricted...

we stayed in resort hotel...
his parents redeem the room using their world card points...
they must have alot of points sia!!
if not how to redeem 2 rooms at one time...
lol...

anyway, the rooms look soooooooooooo much nicer after they reno...

the toilet + shower room...

there is even rain shower...thou it isnt that obvious in this pict...

we managed to get only 2 single bed...
bcoz all rooms in the higher level only have single bed...
however i think their single bed is those super single...
thus me and hubbie squeeze into one bed at night...
i dun care if he snores or drools...
i dun dare to sleep alone sia!!!

kinda spaceous too...

the pretty nice view from out hotel room...

can see abit of the theme park...

after resting for awhile, we were all geared up to hit the casino...

hubbie juz cant wait...

another shot of us in the hotel room...

its really cold there...so cardigan is a must!!!

and its cant really keep me warm when i am out in the open...

inside those building still oki...

Shopping De First World...

we didnt really buy anything except for my pink-pink-bling-bling handphone deco...

really match with 小pink rite!!

this cost me abt S$14...

think pretty reasonable nahz...

all is bling alphabets and got heart shape charm some more...

good enough...

me loving it!!!

my dearest hubbie...

ooohhhh...帅帅的哦!!!!

andie...as usual...

hubbie tok this pict for me i guess the 2nd day...

before we heading for dinner i think...

we saw some of those kiddy ride...

and i die die wanna try see i can fit in or not...

hahahaha...

well,

i can oki!!!

juz a lil squeezy...

hahahaha...

trying my best to squeeze in!!!

lol....

sign of victory!!!

lol...

we were also given free 4 tix to this magic show called "Dreamz"...

well,

as the name suggested...

while u watch, u really can drift into ur dream land sia!!!

bcoz i caught hubbie drifting into his a few times during the show!!!

hahaha....

then the next day,

we had 阿一鲍鱼 as breakfast!!!

and hubbie ordered this for me...i

ts suupppeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrr nice can!!!!

some fresh crabmeat dumplings cooked in sharkfin soup!!!

kaoz!!!!

he really bery 疼me!! lol...

anyway,

the whole trip,

i only spend SGD 75!!!!

can u believe it???

SGD 75!!!!!

hahahaha...

will wanna go again if i can...

hahaha...

My Newly TeeYu-ed Hair!!!

2009-03-09T22:50:00.004+08:00

following our trend setter - Miss Chew Tee Yu (721)...

i went to Teeyu-ed my hair too!!!

now i have a total new look!!!

hubbie said i look cuter and younger...
not that i looked old to start with...
but it juz makes me look youngER!!!

while others keep saying that i look like those china/japanese dolls...

hahahaha...

then i told kah hui...
if i ever start singing "大错特错，不要来。。。" in the triage...
kindly juz ignore me...

hahahaha...

but she's more worried that if i ever do so...
i sure will xia suay her!!!
and parents will definitely start questioning her why her colleague ki qiao in the triage...
hahaha...
then i will make her mah lu sia...
hahahaah...

anyway,
my newly trryu-ed hair is kinda cute yahz...

not really wat i wanted thou...
but guess i will juz let it grow longer before i can start doing other adjustment to it...
lol...
=)

busy sat!!

2009-03-08T01:55:00.003+08:00

today had a freaking busy day @ work...

all thankz to 721 (aka Chew Tee Yu)!!!
hahaha...

as she was the usher for the day and it was abt 12 plus when the queue wasnt that bad...
we were chatting with Michelle outside room 20...
it was raining like cats and dogs...

i was telling them sure the crowd will decrease bcoz the parents wont wanna come bcoz its so cozy to sleep at home on a rainy day...
so most probably they will come back after the rain...
that will be like in the early evening liao...
and we will be off shift by then!!!
haahha...

then this foul-mouth chew tee yu say that it might not be the case...
wait rainy day then alot of rta and breathless will come in...

and true enough...
the moment after she said that,
the crowd start to come...

and ambulance keep coming one after another!!!

i think i received at least 4 to 5 ambulances back to back...
and i dun know call how many resus for rta liao!!!
then some more got one # femur bcoz its raining and the child slipped and fell in her void deck!!!

WTH!!!

really feel like plastering 721's mouth lohz!!!
or maybe i should have juz pour some acid in!!!
hahahah...

and it was like mad house behind...
and everyone was soooooooo busy...
with michelle and veron mummy settling resus cases...
while me and tee yu trying our best to clear the crowd in triage...

so we have to triage and usher paitent at the same time...
as i press for the next queue no,
i have to go out and usher the patient into my room...
so the moment i step out of my room,
i start shouting for their queue no...

and there was this particular patient that i called...
i pressed the queue no and i get out from my seat and storm out to the waiting area...
and i started shouting at the top of my voice, "queue no 180, queue no 180!!!!"

and guess wait, the patient was juz right in front of me,
waving his hands at me telling me...i'm here, i'm here...

well,
and 721 withness the whole incident...
and she was laughing at me...
hahahah...

well,
after work,
hubbie came and fetched me...
and we went for frog leg porridge with 721 and melvin in geylang...

its really really nice...
shall blog abt it next time...

then we head to parkway to look for some working shirt and pants for hubbie but we found none...
thanks to his out-of-shap-body...

either the chest too tight...
if not the sleeve is too long for him...

argh!!!

so we left and went to 師奶茶餐廳 @ ECP for supper....

this is their famous milk tea..
they sort of filter the tea using STOCKINGS!!!!
i personally finds nothing marvelous abt this...so i suggested that one day i shall make him a similar cup of milk tea using my stockings...hahahhaa...
that wouls taste really yummy!!!hahahaha...

this bake rice is still not bad...with 3 kinds of sauce inside...curry, tomato and seafood cream...i prefer the curry and tomato thou...the cream kinda tasteless...

crispy sotong..this nice....will the ?thai sauce on it...lol...

claypot eggplant...pretty nice...but i had eaten nicer ones...

XO Friend carrot cake...

this is REALLY GOOD!!!!really bery crispy lohz!!!and MUST go with their chilli!!!damn damn nice!!!

a shot of us before we tuck in...pardon my messy hair...its like almost 12 am already when we reach there...

hmmmm...

its time to sleep sia...

damn tired liao...

tmo still gotta work lehz...

sianz...

Insomia

2009-03-07T08:55:00.002+08:00

had been having difficulty sleeping these few days...
always waking up 2 or 3 hrs before my alarm rings...

like i slept at 0240 yest...
and i woke up at 0640...

so i had juz slept for 4 hrs only...
when i can juz wake up at 0900...
hmmm...
thats 3 hrs plus earlier...

haiz...

thats wat happened the other day too...
was suppose to wake up at 0515hr...
but i woke up at 3 plus 4...
darn!!!

am i thinking too much???
thats why i keep having insomia...

haiz...
even diazepam is not working very well for me...
think promet is still better...
lol....

gonna get more promet soon...
i had used up my stock already...
lol...

My Ranting Goes On...And On...

2009-03-06T22:40:00.015+08:00

i am really worn out recently...

had been doing 4 nights...
didnt have enough sleep already...
then i head off to Genting with hubbie...
and had been acompanying him to casino every night till 4 or 5 am...
how much sleep u think i can get??

then come back, the next day kanan morning shift and got mock code in PSTC!!!
best part, the whole mock code process was recorded and played backk during our debrief...

then out of no where,
there were abt 20 plus thai doctors visiting kkh...
and sooooooooo heng my reg bring them up to see our mock code...

best lohz...
we already bery nua liao..
then still show other outsider how lousy we are....

kaoz!!!

super sia suay ah!!!!

its not that the scenairo was freaking tough...
(its juz a simple collapsed, pulseless VT)
its juz that i dun know how to doc give instuctions one lohz..
i myself think i can lead better lohz!!!

its freaking messy lohz...

i still remember i did much better during my ACLS practical exam lohz!!
at least i was MUCH MUCH more calm and compose and i am definitely not as messy as her....

the child was COLLAPSED!!!

COLLAPSED!!!!

PULSELESS!!!!!

and she asked for R.S.I!!!!

i juz shoot back say,
why do u need RSI??
the child is collapsed...

then she realised...

ohh....yahz hor...

dong...

hello...

u're a doctor lehz!!!
MBBS lehz!!!

do u need a Diploma in Nursing to tell u that?

thats why ppl say...

Behind Every Successful Doctor...
There's Always A Nurse To SAVE THEIR ASS!!!

absolutely right man!!!

so ppl always look up to doctors rite...
please...
most of it is juz from the outside...

without nurses, u go and work urself lohz!!!

i see how u guys can survive...
i bet u will have med error on ur very first day...
and u wont even survive long bcoz u will commit soooooooo much mistake till u kena strike off from the medical board...

thats why nurses are always trained to be really careful esp when doing patient care...
be it procedure/giving med/resuscitation or watever shit...
its so that we could save those brainless doctors!!!

u ppl get me???

anyway,
the staffing is juz super weak this few days...
and i sooooo heng kena in-charged on these day..
2 consecutive days...

u may ask..how weak is the staffing??

the most senior is my good-for-nothing sister...
she practically knows nothing...
if u ever ask her something...
she will ask u back...
so in the end, u gotta find the answer and solve the problem urself...

the next senior is me liao...
with only 3 yrs working experience and e-trained...

then is all the junior SN...
how junior...
hmmm...
they join the dept for only 3 months or lesser??

then is my enrolled nurse liao...

steady rite!!
and both my SSN and another intermediate is outside in the triage...
and i am juz push to go and die lohz!!!

first i am sooooooooo busy with paper work...
and at the same time i gotta take care of the patients, the flow of the whole dept and those little chicks...

and was best???

my SSN (SENIOR STAFF NURSE) come and send a breathless trachy paitent in as "9" case!!!!

some more the patient is on BIPAP ventilator!!!!

he's a moron or something izzit???

let me list the reasons why this patient should be a resus case...

1st: paitent is BREATHLESS!!!
2nd: she is obviously in RESPIRTORY DISTRESS!!! she had subcostal and intercostal RETRACTIONS!!!
3rd: she has a TRACHOSTOMY!!!!
4th: she is on BIPAP VENTILATOR!!!!!

this is NO-BRAINER kinda resus case lohz!!!

and true enough...
the patient turn out to have pneumonia!!!
and was admited to HD...
i mean she has to go HD definitely bcoz GW can neber handle ventilator...

u as a SSN and u should have fucking lots of experience!!!
and u cant even anticipate how bad this paitent will be!!!

and best part,
when i push patient into the resus room,
he couldnt even bother to come in and help!!!
he juz stand at the CE entrance to usher paitents....

WAT THE FUCK!!!!
(pardon me that i have to spell out the whole word bcoz i am super pissed!!!!)

and its only left with me and one EN to run the whole resus...
its not that there's alot order to administer...
but the BIPAP alone can kill u...
if u ever nurse/transfer patient with a BIPAP or any kinda ventilator...
all the wiring/tubing/connection etc etc...
u juz wanna go crazy lohz!!!

and he fucking got face to send patient as a 9!!!!

Bloody Fucker!!!

i pray that u will fall into a drain when ya walk...
when u shit, ur shit comes out from ur mouth...
and when u pee, ur urine comes out from ur nose...
and u eat thru ur ass!!!
and some decent person can help me stick ur cock up ur fucking ass!!!

CHEE BYE!!!!

hur......................

but i am still feeling really tired...
i was juz telling 721 that i had polyuria and polyphagia recently...
keep waking up 2 to 3 times in the night to pee...
and i keep getting hungry...
so i went to check my urine yest morning...
(hahaha..i got plenty of dip stick at home..)

and it was a clear NEGATIVE!!!
then 721 kaopei me say its bcoz i drunk too much water before i sleep...
hahaha...
yeahz..
i had a big cup of apple juice and 1/2 cup of water before i sleep that day...
thats the night when i keep waking up to pee...

hahahah....

and my 2 consecutive morning shift is makeing me really tired...
i really cannot do morning shift sia!!!

can die ah!!!

and i juz soooo tired even when i am stationed in triage...
triage non-stop lohz!!!
triaged until i wanna slap the child and the parent and ask them to scram!!!

some moron patients juz wanna struggle like there's no tml...
and their retarded parents will juz stand there and fold their hands...
watching u battle with their child...
and will neber offer any fucking help...

hello!!!!

its ur kid oki!!
i can jolly well slap her till she passed out and do my assessment...

but i've decided to do the humane way...

calm the child, "play" a lil with her, distract her, make some stupid sound with that fucking sweet bottle... praying that the reading quickly appear on the dinamap!!!
so i can ask them to get out of my room stat!!!
along with that crying and yelling!!!

GET OUT!!!!!!!

argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

now i feel sooooooo much better after i vent that anger that i bottom up for these few days...

well,
i had some genting picts that i wana load...
but i am juz soooo tired and i am pissed off with him...

haiz...

he's a retard nahz...
i am juz soo tired to complaint abt him...
not matter wat i say...
he's neber gonna change or make any changes...
so i juz couldn't be bother anymore...

so i juz gonna wash up and head to bed soon...
i rather i rest my worn out soul...
and recharged my body to fight a war again tml...

Gonna see my 鸟鸟 wear 帅帅 to work really soon!!!

2009-02-28T05:17:00.003+08:00

Finally the day that i am waiting for is here....

i gonna see my 鸟鸟 wear 帅帅 to work soon!!!!

yes!!!!

i cant be happier lohz!!!

hmmm...

many ppl knows i got this fetish for guys esp when they wear LONG SLEEVE SHIRT and FORMAL WORKING PANTS...

hahaha...i dun know why!!!

i juz find guys soooooooooooo... charming in formal wear...
and they look even more 帅 when they wear a suit...

hooo hooo....

alot of ppl think that Doctors and Nurses are like a match made in Heaven...

OHHHHH...
PLEASE!!!!!

spare me!!!!

i had enough of lazy, demanding, unreasonable, inconsiderate, untidy, proud, and suck'up doctors all around Singapore (be it in my area or other areas....)
they all over the place and every single minute i am at work, i gonna see their bloody face...

thou i dun deny the fact that we do have very nice and friendly doctors around...
(like our darling Deo and Benny...)

but still...
they are the minority...
hahahah...

so ask me go home and face their stupid nonsense that they gonna give again!!!
and all u talk abt is diseases, medical stuff... PAITENTS, PATIENTS and PATIENTS!!!!!!!!!!

OVER MY DEAD ARSE!!!!

hahaha...

so i always thinks that a NURSE (of course its me!!!) paired with a BUSINESSMAN (of course its my 鸟鸟!!!) is really so match lohz!!!

and cute too...

hooo hooo...

i can already imagine me helping my 鸟鸟 to tie his tie early in the morning while he get ready for work...
(thou i got totally no idea how to tie a tie...hahaha)

ohhh...

hmmmm....

wat the hell am i think now...
my imagination seems to have gone wild...

hahahaha....

well...
i promise i will go get some more shirt for him...

no more ugly polo tee/jeans/sport shoes/slippers...

its juz gonna be nicely pressed long sleeve shirt + black working pants + his super yan tao black leather shoes+kiv tie...

hahaha...

hooo...

i am juz soooooooooooooo... EXCITED now...

hooray!!!!

2009-02-25T14:41:00.003+08:00

perhaps i am thinking too much...
i seriously hope that its me thinking too much...
but i can somehow foresee all the hardship, quarrels, and unhappiness thats gonna come my way...

i am unhappy...
i am sad...

but i am left with no other choices...

i dun want him to be stuck in between us...
i dun want her to constantly give him those unreasonable nonsenses...
i dun want him to suffer anymore...
why not i take on all the stuff and juz give in...
its gonna be end to all suffering...
even if its juz for now...

so wat if i have dreams?
so wat if i have incomplete things that i wanna do during my singlehood...

My Degree...Bye Bye...
My SuSu...Bye Bye...
My Freedom...Bye Bye...

all these are worthless craps in their eyes...

i do not hold a life for my own...

my life is a worthless piece of shit compared to their plans they have in mind for themselves...

so wat can i do??

i am left with absolutely no options...

seen a crying bride before??

i am one...

wish me happiness...

Words to those KayPos...

2009-02-24T05:01:00.003+08:00

i think its time that u guys start minding ur own business...

and stop passing unnecessary comments on wat we are doing...

as u are seriously not welcomed!!!!

so wat if u are rich??
(or acting like u 're one rich man/woman/tai-tai...)
that doesnt bother me...

its ur life...
it has absolutely nothing gonna do with me...
and i simply couldnt care less...

so u juz mind ur fucking own business...

and

shut ur fuck'up!!!

Is He Over U??

2009-02-23T17:15:00.003+08:00

i was reading this article online juz now...

Dating 101: Four Signs He's Over You

well...
conclusion...

MEN ARE JERKS!!!
(not ALL man thou...we still have some kind souls out there...)

2009-02-22T14:38:00.001+08:00

Andie is hanging over...

argh...

Confused and Heartbroken...once and again...

2009-02-22T00:36:00.003+08:00

feeling very vexed recently...

same old problem keep haunting me like nightmares...

as my character says...

i am avoiding it...
trying all i could do to avoid it...
but i know i should juz face and solve it...
and stop escaping...

haiz...

maybe i should be happy that she's not stopping us from seeing each other...
but rather rushing us to join in unity...

but i juz dun like that idea...
that idea of living with ur in-laws...
no matter how nice they are...
we are still ppl of different centuries, from different background, holding different values...

many of u know wat i mean...

life will neber be the same...

why cant they juz understand that i have a life to live?
the life that my mom and dad had given me??

well...
maybe we dun have the control over all things...
but at least we control watever we could...

when u lose that locus of control...
u feel frustrated...
u feel lost...

thats wat i am feeling right now...

dun know wat to do...

be a piece of boneless crap and let destiny mould me into watever it wants??

or should i fight for my own rights and happiness??

haiz....

"super-sweet-to-the-core-of-my-ass" CE oranges!!!

2009-02-18T23:58:00.002+08:00

i found something in CE that is juz too cute for me to not blog abt...

i was hungry during my 2nd break...
and decided that i should have some fruits to aid in my digestive system...
so i head to the fruit vending machine outside CE...

and this little fellow caught my attention!!!

all these cute little oranges!!!

omg!!!

they are super cute and juicy lohz!!!
and they are REALLY REALLY SWEET!!!!!

hahahaha....
i took this in the resus room....
pardon my messy hair....

the reflection of the madness in CE...

hahaha...

will definitely have them again tml!!!
yummy!!!

2009-02-18T22:39:00.002+08:00

i am juz sooo...fucking pissed off now!!!

when can all these nonsense be out of my life?!!!

i thought it was long settled...

but i dun understnad why ppl juz love to create new injuries by digging into old wounds??

i am juz so sick of all these!!!

how i wish to could shout at her and wake up her fucking idea abt why i simply refused to listen to wat she has to say????!!!

why my life isnt wat i am in control of??

but some other stranger??!!
(if not for him...)

i am juz soooooooooo unhappy now...

its suppose to be a special and happy occasion isnt it??!!

why does things ALWAYS turn out this way!!!

can someone juz tell me!!!!

unwell...

2009-02-16T21:43:00.001+08:00

andie is feeling sick...

sneezing and coughing...
with a sore and bitter throat...

with my tummy twisted...

all woman's monthly affair...

haiz...

feeling so sick now...

Post VDay entry...

2009-02-15T04:32:00.003+08:00

kaoz!!!
its my last night!!!

FINALLY AH!!!!!!!!!

i had been waiting and waiting lohz!!!

finally its my 3 rest days!!

its been a long time since i'll be off for 3 consecutive days...
i am really tired...
and i seriously need a break...

slept at abt 9 am this morning...
and i was wide awake by 3...
i dun know why....
dun seem to be able to sleep that much nowadays...
esp when sister keep putting me on day shifts (AMs or PMs)
this is my first round of nights ever since i am back from my leave...
which was abt 2 weeks ago...

still pretty used to the night shift routine...
not so tired anymore...
maybe bcoz my mood is good sia...

today is Vday...
but i still gotta work...
damn sianz...

but hubbie is really nice...
came and fetch me from home for dinner...
initially we wanna head to Marina Square as i told him i wanna buy a new pair of crocs shoes...
bcoz my paitent VOMITED RIGHT INTO MY SHOES!!!

well...
guess i didnt blog abt this yet...
and since i am talking abt this,
why not let me narrate the story once again...

its was my first night...
and i was triaging outside with veron mummy...
its was abt 3 plus i guess...
i triaged this 1yr plus child for cough and vomiting...

she didnt have that 'i-wanna-vomit-now' kinda look...
so i was like putting on my oxygen probe and bp cuff....
and all of a sudden, she juz "BLEAH"!!!!

wooo!!!
great!!!

my shoes was juz right on the spot where she vomited on...
and it landed right onto my foot (not my shoe hor!!!its my foot!!!)
the warm milky vomitus juz seep thru the gap into my shoes...
and eventually went in between my toes!!!

WELL DONE!!!

i was fucking pissed...
but i hold it there!!!

"nvm nvm..she's sick..."
i told myself...

i moved myself away abt half a metre from the kid...
worried that she might puke and might kena me again...

then all of a sudden,
she vomited again!!!
and its that kinda projectile vomiting...
(a kind of forceful vomiting when the vomitus juz "shoot" out...)
and again...
it kena my foot for the 2nd time...

i was really damn pissed...
at the same time...
i was trying to calm myself and trying my very very very best to calm the mom and the child down too...
(the child was crying her head off!!! and the mother was frantically trying to clean the vomitus off her poor daughter...)

well... by the time i finish triaging the child...
i had a whole foot + shoe full of milky warm vomitus...
with milk curds some more...

i mean...
thankz..but i dun think my foot needs any milk bath for the moment...

in the end, i send her in as a "9" case...
bcoz she's running a high fever...
but at the same time, i dun want her to mess up my waiting area too...

after settling that case...
i limp my way to the toilet...

every step i took,
i could feel milk "squirting" out from the side of my foot...

its really disgusting....

anyway, hubbie saw me limping into the toilet...
hahahaha...
(he was there to send us supper...)

so now i need a brand new pair of working shoes...
i had one that i bought for like $5.50...
but its juz for urgent use...
i really need a proper pair of working shoes...
u know how much nurses have to be on our feet...

so today we were suppose to go to the crocs outlet to source for my shoes...

but as we were exiting from CTE to orchard,
the jam was like driving us crazy...
so i suggested why dun we juz go novena...
its not so crowded...
and definitely nearer to CE...
so easy to come work too....

so he took a detour and we reached novena in like 5 mins time....
my hubbie is a clever boy...
hahaha...

so we had sakae...
a damn filling meal...

and we went walking around a lil...
accompany him see his fishes...
then go buy stocking for jaime...
hahaha...
and some other stuff...

thou its juz a simple evening...
but we really did njoy ourselves...
we did talk quite abit...
and i am happy...

we were like a sweet lil couple...
playing and teasing each other...
hahaha...

anyway, i had already planned wat dishes to cook on the 19th...

its out 8th Anniversary...

really looking forward...
but it will be a simple outing as both of us will be working too...

but i gonna make some simple dish...
then maybe have an outdoor dinner or something...
i dun know...
hahaha...

a good way to save money and still be romantic sia!!!

hahahaha....

He's a Sweet Little Thing...

2009-02-14T04:58:00.005+08:00

its Vday now...
but the poor me still have to drag my foot to work...
even tml...

sianz...

me sitting at the triage...
super sianz...
they keep coming non stop...
i think i had been typing words like "fever", "diarrhoea" and "vomit" for countless times...
fever 1/7, fever for 5 hrs, vomiting x1, diarrhoea x2...

super duper sianz lohz...
but hubbie definitely brighten my boring shift....

it was abt 0430hr...
as i was abt to go for my break...

i saw a black car driving into our CE entrance...
i was thinking....

wah kaoz!!!
here they come again...
when are they going to stop??

anyway, i am on break...
so its gonna be kah hui who triage the next one...

i was packing my stuff and getting hold of water bottle...
ready to leave the triage counter...

juz then hubbie appeared from no where...
standing at the CE entrance...
holding a box of FRIED BEE HOON...

hahahhaa...

he's really cute...

thou he's tired...
he woke up early as he got 2 interview to go this pm...
and gotta work from 6pm till 4am...
then after work,
he bought me breakfast and deliver it all the way to my door step...

he's real sweet isnt he??

so we sat down at one corner outside CE...
and have our bery nice fried bee hoon...

after makan...
i brought him to tour around the dept...

and saw ervin...
hahaha....

well...
they chit chatted alil...
guess like 1 min??

hahaha...

he's really a sweetie pie nahz...

i dun know...

he's juz up to more of this kinda sweet lil actions recently...

juz like the other day...

i said i missed him...
and wanted to see him...
so wanted him to stay over at my place that night....
but he rejected me as he had promised to bring his mom to temple the next morning...

well...
as the bery Xiao Jie's temper...
of course i got pissed and angry at him...
and i totally refused to pick up his calls...

and guess wat...

i was already sleeping...
and in the middle of the night...

guess it was abt 4 plus...

i heard some idiot keep knocking onto my room's window...

hmmm....
it neber come across my mind that it might be some eerie stuff...
but i was juz super pissed off as i was already in my dream land...
and there was this constant "kock..kock...kock...." sound coming from my window...
and its seriously getting on my nerves!!!

so i got up and slammed open the window...
and guess wat i saw!!!

i saw my niao niao standing outside my window...
passing me my ipod...
(i left my ipod in his car the other day and i keep complaining to him abt how difficult my life would be without my ipod!!!)

wat is my niao niao doing outside my house in the middle of the night??

well...i was really really irritated...
(i hate ppl to disturb my sleep)
he asked me to open the door for him...
but i was juz too irritated and tired to do it...
so in the end i went back to sleep stat...
i think he oso left after seeing that i didnt open the door for him...

and when i woke up the next morning,
i saw the ipod lying on table...
then i recalled that he did actually came over in the night...
juz to let me see him...

ARGH!!!

i regretted big time that didnt let him in...

anyway, if i really let him in...
thats it...

i think i will juz cling onto him and dun let him go...
hahaha...

anyway, i still got 1 more night to go...
and its so damn sianz...

juz so freaking tired now...
haiz...

My Very First Driving Lesson!!!

2009-02-08T11:53:00.004+08:00

finally i pluck up the courage to challenge myself...

i always wanted to be chauffeured around...
that's the life of a "Tai-Tai"...
hahahaha....

but now,
i decided that i should juz a more independent...
as i am really sick of the life whereby i gotta squeeze in bus and mrt with others (esp the peak hrs)!!!
or when i was dying to flag for a cab...
some moronic idiot will juz come and cut my queue and snatch my cab!!
or when i ask hubbie to come and fetch me, but he's always too busy...

ARGH!!!

so i finally asked my bro to teach me how to drive...
(yes...he's a driving instructor)
after like erm...6 yrs...
he had been asking me every CNY to learn how to drive...
ever since i reached 18 yrs old...

so now...
he's teaching me driving...
all FREE-OF-CHARGE!!!

YEAHZ!!!

hahaha...
but hear from my mum and sister in law that he's quite fierce...
so sure will kanan scolding from him one...
but free one lehz...
can hiam mehz???

anyway i gonna juz learn auto care...
easier to drive...
and easier to pass...

hahaha...
afterall, my purpose is to juz learn how to move a car...
hahaha...
the car can move can liao...

and after i get my licence,
i will definitely fulfil my dream...
and buy SuSu™!!!

PS: SuSu™ is the registered name for my coming new car... her family name is call Suzuki Swift...hahaha... SuSu™ is so cute... and i sure will bling bling her!!!

its so tired to drive...
my leg is like cramp bcoz my bro keep asking me to step on the break...
then step and let go abit, step then let go abit...
then when he ask me to step the accelerator,
i dun dare to step too hard...

juz in case the car juz fly forward...
hahaha...
this is the first time in my life for sitting in the driver seat!!!

wooo....

anyway i think my driving skill is still oki...
notta bad nahz...
juz that my bro said that i got no guts...
dun dare to step the accelarator...
hahaha...

so funny...

really looking forward to my next driving lesson...
its really fun sia!!!

My First Counselling Letter...

2009-02-04T23:08:00.004+08:00

nowadays its juz so easy to get a counselling letter...

management accuse u being late...
forget ur acct password/system password...
or other ppl accidentally log ur password out...
neber come for training course...
taking like 7 days of MCs out of the 14 days quota...

alot alot nahz...
plenty of lame reasons...
i juz couldnt be bothered to list them out one by one...

juz so sick of working...
not for the money...
i would have left...

not for the passion...
i would have tendered...

not for the bond...
which i took it bcoz i wanna upgrade myself...

not for alot of things...
life wont be like this now...

FUCKED UP!!!

well,
i am not the "Andrea" that i used to be anymore...

panicky, OCD, happy-go-lucky, taking small issues too hard...

i had learn something...
a attitude that so valuable...

the COULDN'T-BE-BOTHERED attitude...

everything...
close one eye lohz...
angry huh?
pissed huh??
feeling unfair huh???

for fuck??!!

juz come to work and then go back to sleep...
these ppl is not worth ur life to be angry over them...
they are juz NOT worth it...

so counselling letter huh??

sign lohz...
i already prepare my name chop and my pen when i enter the room...
eager to look at how a counselling letter would look like...

woo...
computerised one lehz....
not bad...
some more sister already typed in my Name, Employee No, Designation, wat Offence i made, wat things to reflect on, wat lesson to learn, and some other various shit nahz...
save me the time and trouble to fill it up...

interesting...

somemore before i sign, still ask me to read...

for wat??!!

even if u wronged me,
even if i felt that its unfair,
can i change the content of the letter??
can i refused to sign it??

nahz...
i doubt so...

so why bother asking me to read then??

i gave up....
and juz chop and sign off....

that my COULDN'T-BE-BOTHERED attitude...

see that??

wooo...
my first counselling letter...
sound good sia...

Lash me up!!!

2009-02-02T23:29:00.003+08:00

i am hooked to eyelash extension now!!!
makes my peeps really lovely!!!

had the first one...
but was like SH*T!!!!

makes my eyes like droppy lidat...

damn dulan!!!!

thank god my 2nd set was really nice....

woo...

pretty eyes...

hoo hoo...

look at how freaking long it is....

everywhere i go, ppl keep looking at my lashes!!!

hahahahaha...

but its freaking difficult to maintain...

cannot splash water on ur face...

wash hair must tilt ur head up so ur eyes wont kanan water...

clean eye makeup must clean properly....

then sometimes it will poke ur eyes...

canot juz rub ur eyes lidat....

tonnes of trouble...

but i still love it...

i guess its more to getting used to it bahz....

i love my lash extension!!!

My Reunion Dinner...

2009-02-02T19:05:00.002+08:00

My Reunion dinner on CNY eve...

as usual...

thou there were only abt 20 of us coming back for dinner...

but my mom will juz cook until as if there were 200 of us...

i juz dun understand...

my whole table full of food!!!

and i dun even have spaces for my bowl and chopstick!!!

let alone eating!!!

my mum's famous curry!!!

she made the curry paste herself!!!

Mothers...

the most wonderful creature on earth...

braised sea cucumber with duck!!!

kaoz!!!

look at how thick those sea cucumber is!!!

my mom start "soaking" them like 1 month prior to every CNY!!!

pure hard work sia!!!

wonderful and filling reunion dinner...

think we had the most sumptuous dinner...

hahah...

*WARNING: SCARY FB APPLICATION!!!

2009-02-02T18:26:00.006+08:00

one of my friend on FB (short form for FaceBook) send me an application called...

"Sex Games"...

mmm...

sounds interesting isnt it??

so i open the application...

and saw this page...
.

looks pretty oki...
sexy girl in the pict too...

i was happily looking thru the page...
until i found something in the pict that was juz pure
SCARY,
DISGUSTING,
HORRIFYING
AND
SIMPLY MAKES ME WANNA PUKE STAT!!!
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
TWISTED BRA STRIP!!!!

argh!!!!!!!!!

YES...

I HATE TWISTED BRA STRIP!!!!!!

i will neber visit this application EVER AGAIN!!!!!!!!!

RESTED...

2009-01-30T22:53:00.002+08:00

finally its sat tml...

juz one day i could be with him...
spending some time with him alone...

i had missed sleeping in his embrace...
but i dun really fancy those snoring...

my ever so tensed body will get to relax for a lil while...
closing my eyes...
and empty my mind of any thoughts for a moment...
njoying myself in his pressence...
at least i know someone is accompanying me...

things seem to get better whenever he's around...
maybe i have that sense of security whenever i am with him...

my eyes get really heavy...
and my heart juz settles down...
everything seems to juz slip off from my body...

my worries...
my stress...
my thoughts...
my concerns...

all seems to slip away...

thats how i feel whenever i am lying beside him...

feeling rested...

I REALISE...

2009-01-28T22:37:00.005+08:00

we had another quarrel yest...
erm...
not really a bery bery bad one...
neither izzit juz a small tiff...

but he had finally made me realised one impt thing...
something that i had always failed to see...
to see in him...

he ask whether can i feel that he loves me...

my answer is no...
i cant...

he broke down...

he came and asked again...
whether do i love him then...

my answer is dun know...

he broke down again...

as the time goes by...
i juz feel that our life had somehow reach the bottle neck...
its like we are together for the sake that we are together...
and there is no other meaning in being together...

we still argue...
we still quarrel...
we still scold and yell at each other...
we are still angry and pissed with each other...

he said i have a bery bad temper and i am always very demanding...

well,
i couldn't help myself but agree with him...

maybe wat had happened had make me a changed person...

a more selfish person perhaps...
someone who juz cant trust and believe anyone else anymore...
someone who is so afraid to get hurt (again) and juz wanna protect herself...
even at the expense of others...
even her closest one...
someone who is getting more and more beautiful on the outside...
but with an ugly heart...

maybe i am turning into such a person...

maybe not to everyone...
but at least...
he feels that way...

nevertheless...
he told me that he had been putting up with all my nonsense...
all my scolding, harsh languages, shouting, even all the humiliation that i put him thru...

he's tolerating it....

at the end of the day...

he juz wants me to be happy...
he juz wanna see a smile on my face...
he juz wanna hug me to sleep and complete my day with a smile...

however, everytime i got angry and irritated.
he feels upset...
bcoz eventually he knows that he's gonna complete my day with a smile...
he knows that i wont be happy....

all that he wants is for me to be happy...
thats his agenda...
its that simple...

he said...
he has alot of important things in his life now...

his parents...
his career...
his car...
to start a family...
etc etc...

but the bottom line is...

I top the list...

no...i didnt hear him wrongly...

I AM THE MOST IMPORTANT PERSON IN HIS LIFE NOW...

all the things he has done...was juz for me...
get a good job...
so we could quickly start a family...
to build our dream home...
have enough money to buy me my fav KTV system...
buy me a lil puppy that i had always wanted ever since i was a little girl...
to get a car so i dun need to squeeze with others in public transport next time...
to give me and our children a stable and lovely home...

well,
i neber know that i am this important to him...
i neber thought that he really loved me this much...
he rather turn his parents down and disappoint them...
juz bcoz he wana make me happy and not wanting to lose me...

i mean...
i really didnt know....
and i juz so stubborn thinking that i lead my own life...
thinking that no one can force me to do wat i dun wanna do...

haiz...

i am disappointed with myself...
big big time..

i should juz start changing my thinking...
and see things from a bigger picture...
to start to think more maturely...

haiz...

My Bday Batam Spa Treat From Hubbie...

2009-01-26T03:47:00.012+08:00

23/01/09 was my 24th bday...
and as promised...
hubbie brought me for a spa treat in batam...
as i told him i was really tired and worn out from work...

as hubbie forgotten to fax the hotel thingy to the ferry counter,
our ferry was delayed...
but luckily...
we still managed to take the next ferry to batam...

andie full of anticipation...
but hubbie's kinda tired...
as we slept really late the night before...

M.U.A.C.K.Z

woo...andie on the ferry...

hubbie's sleeping...
but i juz keep snapping...

we had this in the chinese restaurant in holiday inn...
and only 4 dishes, and it cost hubbie S$61!!!!
i could believe my eyes when the bill came!!!
damn!!!

the legendary indoor swimming pool...
well,its not exact legendary...
its juz that we didnt know where is it all along...juz heard of it only!!!

en route to our hotel room...

woo...beautiful...i mean the plants around me...

getting all ready for a good soaking in the Jacuzzi and spa treatment!!!

the famous tea tree spa in Batam...

entrance to Tea Tree Spa...

the damn SHIOK jacuzzi!!!

reception of Tea Tree Spa...

hubbie looking thru the Spa menu...

nice waiting area...

another view oh the jacuzzi...

entrance to one of the couple spa room...

simple furnishing...but its really enough for u to relax urself big time!!

by the pool...

we had all these 10 dishes for only S$51!!!!!!!

the cheapest deal u can get!!!

and the food is FUCKING NICE LAHZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the YUMMIEST Almond Cream that i had eaten in my whole life time!!!!!

sweet yet u wont get sick of it...

has almond taste but not too strong till it will make u puke...

yet it has this freaking nice milk fragrance!!!kaoz!!!

i had 2 bowls of this!!!

hahahah...

complimentary cake from the hotel...bcoz its MY BDAY!!!!!!

cam whoring with my bday cake...

wooooo...its chocolate cake sia!!

posting with my cake before i slice it...

woah!!!

happy...

a blissful couple...

how could i missed out my dearest...

i am not heavy at all!!!his expression is lying!!!

cum on cum on...snap me with my bday cake...

make a wish...

and blow the candle...

and it will come thru...

now!!!think of a wish alrite...

blow...

yeahz!!!and cut it...

andie - choco cake: "yummy...hooo...i gonna eat u..."

yummy bday cake!!!

our buffet breakfast..

double sunrise...

my fav porridge nahz!!!!

i am thinking abt it all the time!!!

pre-blending...

post-blending!!!

looks kinda yucky...

but i love to eat it this way!!!

woah!!!delicious!!

alrite...

i am too tired to blog now...

gonna go pai nian tml...

time to catch some sleep liao...

ohhh...

happy new year ohh...

2009-01-26T00:00:00.002+08:00

Andie wishes all a

HAPPY "NIU" YEAR !!!!!!!!!

post-packing-my-room entry...

2009-01-23T02:19:00.002+08:00

waiting for hubbie to come fetch me to his place...
finally finished packing my room...
thou the outside looks really neat and tidy...

hmmm...
do not judge a book by its cover...

hahahaha...

there are still plenty of shit that's hidden in my drawers...
wanted to tidy them...
but i really really got no time already...

hubbie's bring me to batam tml...
for my bday spa treat...
hahaha...

time to get going!!!
yeahz!!!!

2009-01-23T00:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ANDIE!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

I AM OFFICIALLY 24 THIS YR!!!

I KNOW I AM OLD...

HAIZ...

画心 - 张靓颖

2009-01-22T01:24:00.003+08:00

a nice MV...
juz wanna share...

kinda regret not going to watch the movie...

2009-01-20T00:19:00.001+08:00

i really had a wonderful time celebrating my bday!!!

hahaha...

thankz everyone for the surprise!!!

*happy*

Excited!!!

2009-01-15T03:38:00.003+08:00

woooo...

this is my 3rd night already...
and finally my last night working with her...
gonna go yoga later....
guess bcoz i dun really need that much sleep for tonight...
as i wont be working with her already sia!!!
i am more than happy...
hahahahaha...

and i am really looking forward to our bbq on the 18th...
to celebrate da jie and my bday...
woah!!!

and gonna meet the girls to get the BBQ stuff tml!!!

I LOVE PLANNING BBQ WITH THEM!!!

well,
for some reason,
u know these 2 sisters of mine will neber run away from responsibility...
they will always be so into planning all these...
the process is always so njoyable...
and the end result will always be a well organised, fun and tidy bbq party!!!
hahaha...

this time we're gonna have our chalet in Chevron @ Jurong...
its kinda far from where we stay...
but that place there is really nice..
and all of us will be driving...
so guess the distance is not really a problem...
and the swimming pool is juz right outside the chalet...
u could literally jump into the pool right from the door step...
(erm..provided u can jump far enough and not land urself on the pool side...)

i have one more night to go...
i juz hope time can pass by quickly..
so i can get my rest soon...
hahaha...

2009-01-13T03:01:00.003+08:00

i hate doing nights...
bcoz when i do,
i am like cut off from the outside world...

cant go dinner with friends...
cant go yoga....
cant hook myself online for too long...

all i can do is work, go home, eat, and sleep...

and bocz of my little noisy brat and my darling princess niece at home...
i could hardly sleep in the day...
without them waking me up with all the shouting, scolding and crying...

well...
but i have a good way to "sedate" myself...

remembered i said abt PROMET in my previous entry...

well...
it still quite useful...

but guess i shouldnt keep abusing it too much...
if not i gonna move up another level next time...

probably diazepam or midaz...
which i really really dun want...

and the night is long...
i got another 3 more nights to do...

actually...its still quite bearable to work night...
but if happen ya working with irritating ppl...
thats so sickening...

however,
with the help of my other good-hearted colleagues...
they did save a huge bit of my ass from being irritated by her...

but still....
looking at her face is enough to pissed me off...

well...
i am juz acting bery polite...
afterall...
ppl are much more senior than me...
who am i to comment so much??

well...
hei geok mei...
juz work and fuck off...
go home and then sleep...
and forget abt wat had happened...

feeling angy and pissed wont get u anywhere...
neither will it make her feel bad...
its only making u look silly...

i had learned this much ever since i am back from adv dip...
everything to kan kai abit more...

she dun like u, dun like nahz...
she dun feel that u are up to it...
well,
its how she feels lohz...
does it even matter to me?
as long as i feel that i know my work...

thats enough...

who is she to judge...

alrite...
i am juz venting...
hahhahaha...

nothing major happened actually...
hahahaha...

and my leave is coming liao...
and gonna meet up with my jie meis this coming friday to get food and prepare for our bday BBQ...

i cant wait to have a good time...
cant wait to have a deserved rest...
ever since my last leave which was like last yr oct...
i didnt really have a chance to rest...

gonna take this to rejuvenate my body...
probably go for some spa etc...
hahaha....

well...
dear dear said its my bday and we should go ahead...
maybe we should...
afterall, we were all so tired...

i juz cant wait for my 4 nights to finish...
hahahaha....

and i thankz god that i no longer feel that sorethroat...
which is good!!!

now its left with the venue of me and juwita's bday dinner...
and many ppl's gonna come...

i am really looking forward...

well,
thankz for everything...
i should feel grateful...

upset...

2009-01-12T03:25:00.002+08:00

maybe its juz the time of the month...

i mean PMS...

haiz...

feeling kinda down...
especially when all ur hormones starts to surge...
and pimples juz pop everywhere on my already-not-that-beautiful face...
thats really making me bery upset...

even hubbie start asking me why i had some red red patch on my face??

well...
its not that damn obvious thou...
and it can be nicely camouflaged under my super concealer...

but thats not enough!!!

I WANT SILKY SMOOTH SKIN!!!

i mean which girl dun want their skin to be the nicest of all...
radiant as ever??
soft and smooth like cotton??

afterall...
good skin definitely can make me more confident...

i dun wanna live under the control of makeup stuff and photoshop!!!

i wanna live a MAKEUP-FREE life (as much as possible)!!!

haiz...

had been bery hard working in removing my makeup thoroughly...
cleansing my face well...
trying out many types of masks and diligently applying them,
almost every night...

but still...

the signs of youth (PIMPLES!!!!!!) dun seem to be going away!!!

haiz...

dun tell me i need to turn to pills again...
something that i am trying really hard not to do...

but i am really sad...

maybe i should juz go back to my skin doc and get some remedy...
before the situation goes from bad to worst...

*SOB*

My Crazy E Shift...

2009-01-11T00:03:00.006+08:00

its was freaking busy in CE today...

since the time i came on duty at 6 pm....

i sat down and triage non-stop!!!

NON STOP!!!

not a single minute my fingers were off the keyboard...
and i only went for my first break at 10pm!!!

i didnt eat anything for the whole day!!!
and had juz yoga-ed before coming to work...

so u can imagine how hungry i was!!!
i could eat a whole cow man!!!
my hands were shaking as i take my patient's bp and everything...

thats really a pure torture!!

and the last queue no now was like 352!!!
but its barely passed 12 mn!!!

kaoz!!!

argh!!!

how i wish 0130hr quickly come...
then i can go back and rest already!!!
finally its my off day tml!!!
been dying to rest bery long liao...

gonna catch a movie with hubbie, juwit, tee yu and their bfs...'
been wanting to watch Red Cliff 2 for a long long time...
esp after watching the part 1...
leaving me hanging high and dry!!

hahaha....

anyway was doing E shift yest...
so stayed back to chat with juwita for awhile before going home...

hahaha...

abt some HOT and SPICY stuff!!!

hahaha....

well,
i am not gonna share too much here....
afterall,
its really personal!!!

muahahaha...

alrite...
back to work...

sianz...

B****** = BASTARD!!!!

2009-01-10T03:17:00.007+08:00

the world is so small...

small until anything could happen...

well...
B's ex happened to be a friend of my friend...
and somehow...
i came across her profile on friendster...

actually i saw it a couple of weeks ago...
or maybe months ago...

but didnt know why..
i decided to take a look at it today...

and as i scroll down the list of comments (formerly know as testimonial)...
i saw his msg...

"oi! stupid lesbonish women stop blocking my message!"

well...
i was kinda shock when i see that...

thou i got no idea wats the "story" behind that msg...

but..
its obvious that she didnt wanna hear from him again...
thats why she's blocking his msg...

i got no comments abt that...

but how could a man call his ex stupid lesbonish women !!!!

FUCK!!!

thats super rude and mean lohz!!!

anyway,
i am not that surprised...
i already feels that he's a jerk...
but this simply re-confirm with me that he is one!!!

i remembered that i once read in his blog...
and he said something like congratulating his brother's...
as his bro finally found his true love...
and was like gonna get marry or something...

and he said he envy him...
bcoz he had found his true love...
while he used to have the true love...
he thought it was her...
but let her slipped away...

well,
i guess this kinda jerk juz deserve to live and die of loneliness...
will he ever understand wat is love?

i dont really sometimes...
but i am trying...
and i bet everyone is trying...
except him...

no wonder he has no one to love...
and no one to love him...
no wonder he has to envy others...

well,
my last few words for this entry...

B****** = Bastard!!

wow!!!
same no of characters too!!!

hahaha....

wow his mom can foresee that he's gonna be one big BASTARD!!!
thus gave him this name...
hahaha....
a good one...

as for me...
i guess i am juz dumb and blind to even like him in the first place...

noticed i said like,
and not love...

thankz god i didnt fall right in...
even though i almost...

hahahha...

its another good day ahead...

Our Most Exciting Girls' Night Out!!!

2009-01-06T22:36:00.006+08:00

had our very first JAG (Joyce, Andrea, Grace) girls' night out last friday...

meet up with da jie and gracie for shopping and makan @ suntec...

as usual,
we were the center of attraction...

well,
not that we did it deliberately...

but somehow...
we juz managed to do it...
to grab all the attentions of other shoppers...
making them turn their head...
looking at us...

well,
definitely not by looks...
how could that be...
maybe if i go out alone...

there will still be guys looking at how cute i am...
(alrite...keep ur vomitus to urself...i dun wanna u to puke all over ur com..thats not bery nice..hahahah...)
but definitely not when i am with the other 2 crazy girls!!!

we were juz as noisy as usual...
nothing special...
talking, yelling, laughing at the top of our voices...

hahaha...

da jie suggested a new soup restaurant in suntec...
and heard that they serve really nice souppies..

hahaha...
yes!!!

finally no more soup spoon...
erm...
actually soup sppon oso bery nice...
but always drink oso sianz rite...
hahaha...

the new restaurant is call "Souperlicious!!!"

bery cute shop name indeed...
hahaha....

and they really had quite a number of nice and delicious soup...
like corn and chicken, some asparagus shit... erm...shroom mushroom...some clear broth (something like ABC soup) and my fav hot and spicy soup!!!

yummy!!!

its really nice...
and we ordered half serving of potato salad and macaroni salad each...
meaning we mixed 2 types of salad into 1 serving...
but in the end we were served 2 big bowls of salads!!
and we were only charged for the price of 1 bowl!!!!

well...
maybe we were juz too pretty!!

hahaha...
who can resist us??

hahaha...

by the time we finish our dinner...
all the shops were closed...
there really isnt much stuff to shop anymore...
thus, we decided to head back to bishan to steal Mian Mian™ out...
and drive around...

*ps. Mian Mian™ is a registered name for da jie's family mini van...
she's really a cutie pie...like a loaf of bread...thus the name...

once we got hold of Mian Mian™, we head to Dempsy Hill to chill a lil...

have some Ben and Jerry ice-cream waffle as desert...
while we discuss abt our chalet bday celebration...

as usual....
we laugh as loud as we can...

but no one seems to care...
bcoz its SO NOISY THERE!!!!!

some crazy live band playing...

i almost went deaf!!!!

hahaha...

well...after they closed (at abt 1am!!! can u believe it?!!! its a friday night and singapore's night life end its business at 1am!!! haiz...shame on them!!!)

then we head to Marina Barrage...

yahz..
the new Dam (Damn)!!!

seriously,
there isnt much to see at all..
except maybe if u wanna go there with ur lover to feed mosquitos...
then i would strongly encourage u to give it a try!!!

or else...
please dun waste ur time...
u have better stuff to do...

and by the time i left that (damn) Dam...
its abt 2plus am already...

3 of us were juz so tired...
driving along CTE...

suddenly gracie slowed down...
bcoz the car infront of us oso slowed down...

but when she looked at the rear-view mirror,
she saw a car coming really near us...
and he's riding really fast...

and the next moment...
i head a loud BANG!!!
and i was like thrown forward a lil...
(thank God i worn seat belts...)

i quickly see if i could turn my head...
and turn behind to see if da jie's oki...

after that, the fuming gracie and andie went straight down...
with that "i-gonna-kill-that-bastard!!!" look...
hahaha...

the moment we got down we start scolding that idiotic driver!!!

he turned out to be a 20-yr old moron!!
with some other kidos...

if he's a slight bit cuter,
we would have let it pass...
but too bad..
he isnt...
hahah...

kaoz!!!

and when we asked him why didnt he noticed that we slowed down...
guess was he said...
"i wasnt looking in front at that time..."

wat the fuck!!!
if u dun look in front while u drive,
where the hell are u looking??

at ur cock izzit!!

damn!!!

really pissed!!!

luckily there isnt anyone injuried...
if not i gonna screw him alive...

look at our poor mian mian....

erm...the other car wasnt any better...
hahaha..
his body kit came off too...
hahaha....

more specific injuries of mian mian...

dented car plate...

and back door...

stucked in the middle of the CTE @ 3am...
feeling great yahz...

well,
as a trauma-trained nurse,
i quickly started my mini-trauma survey on my sisters...
asking them any pain here or there...
palpating their neck and head...
hahaha..
thank god everything was oki...

it was the first time that we got into an accident..
and we got totally no clue abt wat to do man!!!

we started ringing everyone in mind to get help...
and while we were cracking our heads on wat to do,
there was this bloody uncle call bernard from elite motor..
saying wat wanna help us...

please!!!
he juz wanna earn our money oki!!!
damn!!!
he was like nagging and nagging...
say wanna tow mian mian away...
while mian mian still can move lohz!!!
siao!!
why need to tow??
i was really pissed...
finally i cant take it anymore...
and kinda raised my voice a lil to ask him to get lost and leave us alone!!!

after a good 2 hrs,
we finally settled the repair and damage issue...
and was abt to head home...

juz then...
we got into mian mian...
and try to start her...
but we cant!!
no matter how hard we try...

and guess wat!!!

we ran out of battery!!!

darn!!!

Gracie forgotten to off the hazard lights!!!

argh!!!!!

and we gotta start calling for help again...

thank God, graice's friend and kk came down to help...
and hubbie came down too...
well, but he didnt do anything at all...
hahaha...

finally we were on our way home!!!
all of us were so worn out...
from the fun, laughter...
and that excitment of having a traffic accident...

hahaha...

that ends our exciting JAG girls' night out...

well,
we will still plan more night outings...
but guess,
we'll juz take public transport next time!!!
hahaha...

TRANSFORMER!!!

2009-01-06T19:16:00.008+08:00

juz received this email from da jie...

my jaw was like dropped onto the floor after i read it...

well...

all i gotta said is that...

NEVER UNDERESTIMATE WAT MAKEUP CAN DO!!!

at least i feel abit more comfort...

i dun think my makeup and photoshop skills do make me look so different so drastically..

hahah...

well,

njoy...

My new girl Friend! pretty? yeah, i know,
let me to 'show off' more of her pics.

selina look a-like.

SOOOO Adorable right? i knew it, i m proud of her!

We fall in love deeply after 1st meet, every time i see her cute face, i just drool all over my tee, and even cum without jerking (haha)…. everything went so smoothly, in love deeper each and everyday.

Just one thing weird about her is that, every time we make-out, she request to turn off the light, she told me; she's shy. alright…i never think much. Every morning, she always wake up 1 or 2 hours earlier than me, makes me wonder…. is she hiding something from me??

But its ok, she always look fabulous!! i just love her!!!

One fine day,out of random, i peek into her drawer and i found a picture in her house… which is…

THIS!!.

ARGH~!!! WHOSE THIS??? WHO?

i started to make wild guesses…

who is she??

my gf 's MOTHER?

my gf's JUON SISTER?

OR my gf's MAID!?

LATER did i know, its HER (my gf)!!!!

ITS HER!! WITHOUT any MAKE UP!!!!

Can you believe your eyes?
they are same person!!!

she even show me how she transform!!

#1. ok, let's face it, the clean without touch'up face.

#2. Add contact lens that enlarge her pupil, and double-eye lids Sticker & Glue.

#3. Basic moisture cream to keep face healthy.

#4. Foundation is important! make skin tone more even, IMPORTANT!! apply VERY little amount of Foundation at both side of the cheek, in order to make your face look longer and slimmer!

#5. Concealer is to cover up all flaws, such as eye bags, pimple and wrinkles.

#6. Next Add natural Fake eye Lashes & draw a nice brow!

#7. Added mascara at the bottom eye-lash, in order to make both upper and lower eye lash even.

#8. Add eye liner. Longer eye-liners! longer the better, make small eyes look not only bigger, also longer as well.

#9. Add eye shadow. use one dark and one lighter colors to blend.

#10. Add lip gloss and blusher! & Lastly Style your dolly hair!

and...

TADAH!!!

& this are the 10 steps how my pretty ugly girlfriend transform.

oh please...

somebody tell me i am not like this am i???

hahaha....

well...

fake stuff is always beautiful...

fake diamonds...

fake lashes...

fake nails...

well...

but the heart cant be fake...

and that genuine love...can neber be fake...

guess, that the most impt thing...

but still....

its really scary!!!

hahaha...

02012009

2009-01-02T02:34:00.006+08:00

today is my 2nd night...
and as usual, i am kinda tired...
but luckily...
i was assigned to do triage...
so still oki...

tml is the wk end off that i had been really looking forward to...
after working thru the new year...
there isnt much things to celebrate for anymore...

i spend the last few seconds of 2008 in CE's practical room,
holding down a struggling child,
while another of my colleague assisted my senior consultant in a nail avulsion...

well...
wat a way to receive the new year...
work non-stop....

now i can official say i work from 2008 to 2009 non-stop man!!!

had been looking forward to resting...
chilling out with my friends...
shop a lil...
with my now tight budget...
i spend too much on online shopping...

and maybe meet him for movie...

well...
i juz look forward to not coming to work...

thou i love my job...
i do love the kids...
(but i hate some of the parents)...

but i am juz tired of all the politics and sick ppl here in my dept...
neber fail to pissed me off...
i juz wanna kick their ass...
if i can...

Sister was really in a good mood recently...
that day,
she came up to me and asked me to pass a msg to the rest of the staff...
she held onto my hands...
and as she was abt to blah out watever she wanna said,
she suddenly paused and look into my eyes...
she smiled...

then i open my eyes big and asked "yes sister??"

she said...
"ur eyes are so beautiful..."

i was shocked to my death bed...

well, i almost...

thou i know all these compliments really depends on the weather in her office that day...
she definitely made my day...

there will definitely be angry or unreasonable parents...
those that really land u in deep shit...

however,
i know i love kids...
i am happy when parents really appreciate ur efforts in helping their child...
i dun need them to compliment me on a feedback form...
neither do i need them to write to the papers abt how good/efficient we are...

all i need from them is a "thank you" and a smile...
and maybe address me by my name...
rather than missy missy ah..or nurse ah...

hahahaha...

thats genuinely enough...

2009-01-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!!!

i hope u have a good year ahead...

one thats much better off than mine...

HAPPY 2009!!!

Goodbye 2008...

2008-12-31T14:53:00.005+08:00

its a wink of the eye...
and we are at the end of 2008...

a year thats so full of things to remember...

how i struggle thru my adv dip...
how the emotional crisis pushes me down...
how the love from my loved ones helped me up...
how i decided to make a turning point in my life...
how i know XXX...
how we started...
and how it all ends...
how my heart was drained off all emotions...
how my tears accompanied me thru the nights...

so many things happened...
and so many silly things i did...

its all in 2008....

well...
i have no new year resolutions...
or should i start having some?
but i am only left with another 9 more hrs to think...
before the new year kicks off...

well...
i juz wanna have a "pain"less life...

free from heartaches...
free from sleepless nights...
free from haunting memories...
free from tears...

and maybe,
continue to lose more weight...
for myself...

now that i had private my blog...
i can write more of "myself"...
and need not worry how others will look at me...
esp him...
when he juz simply dun understand wat i mean...

well,
that doesnt matter anymore...

maybe at this time of the year..
that very last few seconds...

i juz wanna be alone...
drown in my work...
and njoying it...
with the company of my dear colleagues...
the crying kids...
and complaint-full parents...

guess i will be happier this way..
rather than suffering the constant heartache inside...

and maybe i will be free from the harsh reality for a minute...
this is wat i hope...

i am not gonna call him today...

no new year wishes for us...
nothing...

ask me why start the yr like this...

i got no idea...

we quarrelled abt the marriage again yest...
and its breaking us up...

isnt marriage something to unite us?

in our case...
no...

its juz something that HE WANTS TO DO...

maybe like a project?

well,
he said if we dun get married soon,
he will lose all motivation...
he will be lost...
without a goal to work towards...
nothing to look forward to...
he said he cant promise that he will not find another more suitable girl...
he may stray...
juz like wat i did...

well,
i got no comments...

afterall...
i am the one who let him down...
i dun wanna find excuses for myself...
i dun wanna push the blame around...
wats the point?
will he even feel that he has a part to play??

the fact is - i did fall for another guy...

can i even feel hurt when he said he may turn to another girl??
am i in any position to feel upset??

or maybe its juz pay back time...

i dun know...

i have no control over this...
maybe i should juz let God take control...
and i'll juz flow with it...

anyway, i am tired...
i juz wanna njoy myself...
with my friends...

njoy shopping,
buying clothes...
KTV...
makan...
etc etc...

and not to touch that hurting spot again...

well...
maybe that my new year resolution too...

Goodbye 2008...
and Happy 2009...

2008-12-31T02:43:00.000+08:00

有人说，
不是每段恋情，
都要开花结果，
才叫“完美”。。。

也有人说，
还未盛开的花蕾，
是最迷人，
最让人心动的。。。

因为它藏有无限的可能。。。

没有人知道将来会是如何。。
他们仍然深爱着彼此。。。

花朵盛开时，
虽然美丽，
但也往往让人失去了那盼望的心。。。
没了惊喜，
也没了期待。。。

若是你。。。

你会选择，

那盛开的花朵，

还是

那含苞待放的花蕾呢？

Hubbie's New Baby...

2008-12-30T02:28:00.008+08:00

hubbie's new car is really damn cool...
hahaha...

maybe i sua ku nahz!!!
but the suround system got remote one lehz!!!
and got plug to plug ipod oso...
so u can listen to songs in ur ipod!!!

hahaha...
he asked me to photoshopped the car plate no away...

alrite...
i'll juz do so....

more picts to come once we got stuff to put inside...

Post Xmas Entry...

2008-12-30T01:20:00.002+08:00

this is the longest time i didnt blog...
for a straight 6 days???

well...
i was busy...
really busy...

tired from my night shifts...
busy doing last min shopping...
for xmas gifts...

i juz hope that u guys will really like the gifts that i bought for u all...
like i said...
Xmas is a season for giving...
thats why when i gave Veron mummy her present, she's like abit surprised...
and said, sorry, but i didnt get anything for u...

well,
its really alrite...
Xmas is all abt sharing ur love and maybe its time to give...
after u had been receiving so much for the rest of the yr..

the main thing is abt ppl loving wat u got for them...
thats the most impt thing to me...

and i really njoyed catching up with my loved ones...
cant be happier...

took juz a few picts...
with hubbie's *NEW* Black Berry BOLD!!!
hahaha...
yahz...
my XMAS + belated Birthday pressie for him...

on xmas eve...@ Esplanade...

with my dearest...

he keep kao pei say i take alot of picts...
but where got!!!
only a few...
i mean a few nice ones...
(if u filter out those that either me or him looks like a piece of shit!!)

there's another shot...

well,
the picts were rather blurred...
bcoz my new samsung phone's cam is SHITTTTTTTTTT...until....
its the worst cam that i ever used...

really bery disappointed...
still call themselves 5 mega pixel cam phone!!

PUI!!!

but its PINK!!!!
wat can i do??

haiz..anyway...
i was hoping for a CANON CAMERA as bday present...
as my warranty for my bejewelled Casio cam's gonna expire soon...
haben get to see any model that i like yet for the moment...
but sure must be PINK one!!!

hahaha...

alrite...
andie signing off...
tired...

more picts to come...
i promise...

I HATE THIS XMAS!!!

2008-12-24T00:37:00.003+08:00

guess, i better start typing on my keyboard, before i go crazy and start throwing things out of my room!!!!

I AM JUZ SOOOOOOOOOO FUCKING SICK OF THIS XMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

firstly...
ppl keep asking me to plan a christmas party...
when in the first place,
no one seems to be bother to confirm with me their attendance...

no one bother to suggest a place...
when chalet is out of the question...
(definitely cant get bcoz its freaking last min!!!)
and the hotel is too ex or and too small...

please nahz!!!!
want cheap and good,
where to get!!!!

then when everyone seems to forget abt the issue,
ppl start ask me,
hey, is the xmas party still on?????
i thought u say u organising...

please!!!!
organise wat???
when i am left alone to handle every shit!!!
i am not doing this oki...
even if i wanna do...
no one seems to be bother to confirm whether they coming or not...
there is ALWAYS ppl telling me last min...
"hey sorry ah...i cant come...pai seh..."

I AM JUZ SO SICK OF ALL THESE SHIT!!!!

then no chalet,
oki...nvm...
organise a dinner...
jio jio jio...
initially everyone bery on...
wah...oki..sure come...
then when i wanna book the room/table...

then ppl start coming to me...
telling me,
"hey sorry ah..i cant come...
got something on...
paiseh ah...."

at first, we actually plan an outing of abt 10 -12 person,
in the end...
we are only left with a pathetic no of 6 person!!!

why should i not feel sick!!!

then work so many nights so that i can have more off days...
yahz...have more off days to juz stare at the wall lohz...
no plans nothing...
no one seems to be bothered...

i do so many nights, so that i can have more time off with him...
in the end, all he cares is to do something else rather than spending time with me...

then for wat!!!
i rather do normal shifts...
at least i wont be sooooooooooo tired...

u have ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA how tiring nights shifts are for us!!!
i am not sitting by the computer desk typing oki!!!
i dun juz make calls, and talk to ppl...

i walk and run around my whole dept,
answering to angry patient's question...
listening to their complaints...
they not happy then scream at me...
say wanna complaint!!!
then i still must say yes yes...sorry sorry...
when at that freaking moment,
u juz wanna slap their face hard!!!

forcing myself awake...
so that 1 wont have any med error...
bcoz i know i am handling human lives...
when irresponsible ppl give u shit,
u have to go and clear it for them...
run after doctors for stuff...

i dun know...
the tonnes of things i do every day at work...
no words can discribe oki...

and when i am off...
i juz wish that i could spend my time wisely with my loved ones...

but they dun think it this way...
thinking that i have plenty of time to waste...

then nvm...
back to xmas...

wanna buy xmas gift...
walking around the whole fucking orchard,
squashed by ppl till i juz feel like turning around and kick them in their ass...
juicing my brain for ideas of wat to buy for him...
worried that dun know he will like or not etc...
whether he will use or not...

but still, i cant think of something...
no choice...
call and ask him wat he wants...

then he answered me in a SUPER SIANZ AND HECK CARE TONE...
"anything lohz...
u give me money lohz...
this i dun need that i dun need..."

alrite...
fine...
dun buy lohz...
i am sick...

then constantly served by fucking ill-mannered sales person...
and i have no choice but to give them the sales...
as i really need the product badly...
i juz feel so sick!!!

i dun know....
i juz feel so pissed and irritated...
i am so tired...
i juz feel like crying...

I HATE THIS XMAS!!!

2008-12-22T09:10:00.001+08:00

My UGLY look with my mud mask on...

hahahahahaha....

result of being too bored...

post night shift...

2008-12-21T08:14:00.004+08:00

its a bright sunny Sunday morning...
but i am still as stone as ever...

feeling really really fatigue...
after the whole long night...

my eye sees nothing...
even my nerves are tired of controlling my eye movements...
i am juz staring at watever that's in front of me...

guess i am still not quite used to doing nights yet...
ever since i am back...
i used to be more alert...
and more energetic...

where have i channel that energy to??

why cant i juz tahan night shifts anymore...
i used to be able to do it pretty well...

haiz...
sad...
as its my good source of income...
for nurses...

i seem to age a thousand yrs for every night shift i do...
not every round hor...
its every night...
means...
4 night = 4000 yrs older...

hahahaha...

i am being over-exaggerating...

but night shift does make u age much faster alrite..
at least i believe so...

thus... i am typing this with my$1.90 "Neutrogena Deep Hydrating Mask" on rite now!!
hahahaha...

alrite...

15 min's up...
and its time to shut down my brain and everything...
time to catch some beauty sleep..

zZzzZZZzzz...

Assignment really kills!!!!!!

2008-12-21T02:13:00.005+08:00

Assignments are KILLERS!!!

but thank God...

mine were all over...

and i dun see it coming back to me anytime sooner...

i refer u to my darling's blog on ASSignments...

hahaha...

i mean...
darling should be very grateful that Ervin suggested me to be her next counselling candidate...
(but its after abt 10 unsuccessful attempts to record a counselling session with Ervin...)

i can imagine how FRUSTRATED Ervin might be...
juz like how hubbie kao pei me when i did my counselling assignment with him the other time...

i remembered that i keep asking him the same question...
saying the same thing...
repeating myself countless time...

and when i was talking...
hubbie will always give me the "Wat-The-Fuck-U-Talking-Abt??" look...
and give some funny hand gestures...
writing notes to me...
giving me a clue of wat to say/ask next...
hahaha...

bcoz i really got no idea how to hala liao!!!
seems like we are out of topic to counsel abt liao!!!

maybe bcoz hubbie talked abt his work...
which i have really bery limited understanding...

but think back...
when i did the transcript for my counselling assignment...
i oso feel like slapping him...

kaoz!!!

he got no idea how many million times he said the word "meaning"!!!

"erm...meaning...this...erm....meaning that...."
MEANING ur ass ah!!!

hahahaha...

anyway, its a really fun session nahz...

and i dun know how many "u know" i said in darlings recording...
hahaha...

i doubt i will ever wanna know...

hahahaha....

anyway, me glad that i was able to help her out a lil to lighten her load for assignments...
bcoz i myself went thru that torturing time...

when everyone is out having fun...
u are either staying at home...
buried in a pile of notes...
or typing on the stupid keyboard...
then time seems to be like crawling pass...
every single sec or min...
u juz pray and hope that this agony will be over soon...

or u are out too!!!
but super guilt-ridden..
bcoz u know u have incomplete assignments waiting for u...
and u are suppose to stay at home instead of partying inside...

ARGH!!!!

hahaha...
but anyway...
its all worth it...

for the amt of knowledge u gain from this course...
its all worth it...
hahaha...

Thy Suay-ness

2008-12-18T23:57:00.005+08:00

today met up with joyce and grace at amk to discuss abt our coming steamboat party on xmas day...

lol...

then suddenly da jie say she's gonna ask one "Feng Shui master" to come and "see" her house this sat...
to give advise on how to chase off her suay-ness and improve her luck...

hahahaha...

then i was wondering she got so suay till she need a feng shui master mehz???

juz then grace start to kao pei why the watermelon juice today isnt sweet at all...
then da jie say its always this taste one wat...
but grace say her's always quite sweet wat...
so must be da jie SUAY!!! thus always got those that is not sweet one nahz!!!

then she down there lan lan...
juz then i interrupted...

maybe thats why she need to spend $220 on a feng shui master...
so that next time she come suki, she will have a cup of DAMN SWEET WATERMELON JUICE!!!

hahahaha....

we burst out laughing...

then she continue to explain...
the reason why she really need a fengshui master...

say wat she work so hard, but the money she earn is always spend on other ppl, but not herself...
then the way how money went out from her account is like those running water tap...
then she dun know fall down for many times within 1 month...
then always forget to this, forget that...

then i tu her...
she u always forget this forget that,
then walk on flat ground oso can trip and fall...
then i think its time u change UR BRAIN!!!!
and feng shui master wont do much of a help...

u will need a BRAIN SURGERY!!!
or a BRAIN TRANSPLANT!!!

hahaha....

we cant stop laughing...

hahhahaha...

anyway, the Feng Shui Master is gonna come this sat...
see wat he will say...
wait he tell da jie...

"u have to paint ur room PINK!!!!"

(da jie claims that she HATES pink!!! but please!!! bluff who!! u think i stupid izzit!!!!!!)

"oh..in order for u to have good luck for the rest of ur life,
u gonna sleep in this place from now on..."
(pointing at the corridor...)

hahahahha...

♥♥My Little Piece of Heaven...♥♥

2008-12-17T03:53:00.009+08:00

i juz love this little corner i have in this cyber space...

a place that i could juz freely say wat i want to...
share with other my fav colour - PINK !!!
upload picts and songs that i love...
spill feelings that were unknown to others...

a secret corner that i reveal my true self...
thru my fingers...
thru my keyboard...

regardless of who is reading...
whether they know me or not...

Does it really matter??

afterall...
its "ME" that i am writing abt...
(and of course things that made me happy...
and things that made me upset or pissed me off...)

thats why i named it as "My Little Piece of Heaven..."

its MY Heaven...
and its all abt ME...

hahaha....

typical "I" personality!!!

attention-seeking u can say...

nahz...
it doesnt bothers me...
i mean...
who is not!!!!!!!!!

i juz love blogging in this sweet lil corner that belongs to me...
and me only...

K-ing @ Liang Court...(part 1)

2008-12-16T01:33:00.006+08:00

took these pict some time ago...

erm...

long before i went to aussie...

post K-ing with Tee Tee, darling, Dr Benny and his gf, angela...

juz the first part...
bcoz i am too tired to edit and compile the rest of the picts...

(imagine i still left abt another 400 picts to compile...
yes...we took abt 400+ picts in a 4 hrs ktv session...
crazy sia!!!
and i still got video somemore!!!
hahaha...)

wait till i have MORE energy and time!!!

having a research presentation tml...lol...
and i am damn nervous...

bcoz my Senior Nursing Manager juz called me in the afternoon...
telling me that she will be there tml to support me...

OMG!!!!

another words...

she's there to hear abt my rotten proposal...
(i hope it isnt that rotten after all...)

haiz...

anyway, i juz did my rehearsal...
all by myself...
seems oki...
but i really dun know wat question they will ask...
i hope they ask none....

anyway, back to the picts...
promise will be back to load the rest asap...

at the mean time...
njoy the beautiful "scenery" of Clarke quay...
and the gorgeous us (ME and tee yu...)
hahahaha....

andie...

my dearest tee yu...

cant imagine she take nice picts sia!!
hahahaha...

couple shot...

here's another couple shot...

all by herself...

me and me again...

tee tee...

i love the bridge and the colourful shelter...

look at the colourful bridge...

lighted tree...

blink blink...

andie and the blinks on the tree...

tired @ home...

2008-12-14T23:46:00.003+08:00

i am so sleepy....

i slept at least 9 hrs yest...
but i am still too tired...

and juz couldnt be bothered with my presentation...
for this coming tues...

my brain juz couldnt work...

my bed...
my bolster...
my eeyore....

thats the only things i have in mind now...

xmas is coming...
but i am surprise that i still didnt have much plans till now...

WATS WRONG!!!

its XMAS!!!

haiz...

tired...
too tired to do any planning...

haiz...

anyway,
i love my nails...

WOW!!! my dept is full of MORONS and RETARDS!!!!

2008-12-12T23:11:00.004+08:00

today was a crazy day!!
and as usual...
i was the in-charged...

dun know its my luck...
or i am juz plain suay...

then bcoz of the renovation.
there are really alot of major changes in our dept setting...
and definitely affecting the work flow...
and everyone are adapting to the new layout and where things were kept...

then once start shift got resus - breathless liao...
then nvm... we easily settled that child...

then finally it was 1530hr...and its time for me to go break...
so me, juwit and veron mummy happily go break...

then half way eating...
"du du..doctors to resus room, one query dehydrated child..."

alrite fine...
i leave my half-eaten luch box to attend to the resus case...
alrite..the child wasnt really THAT dehydrated...
but he was more of an AMS (altered mental state)...
and thats why it was put in the resus...

then oki...
juz when everything was going well...
we set plug, give fluids, monitoring his GCS...
i thought we will be sending this patient to the observation area liao...
and we could continue with our break...

then came veron mummy..
(she was T1 today...)
telling us that she received a VHF standby for a 3 yrs old RTA, dowsy, head and neck injury...

damn...
in my heart..thats it...there goes my break...

kaoz...

haiz..in the end,
other than this child...
there came another 2 injuried child lohz!!!

wah kaoz!!!
buy 1 get 2 free lohz!!!

damn!!!
and total of 3 p1 patients lohz!!!
and the SCDF person dun even have the courtesy to tell us that its a mini mass lohz!!!

and in the end 2 see in resus bcoz of the head and neck inj and another one is ? hip inj.
and the other one was send in as a "9"...
bcoz all our 3 beds were occupied,
and he is rather stable...

damn!!

and bcoz the drowsy child need more attention...
i was left ALL ALONE to handle the ? hip inj patient...

imagine its only me and the doctors doing the survey...
and i need to get help from the medical students to do the log roll...
and i assist in plugs, take bld, send bld, give fluids, run istat etc...
at the same time running away to hide when they shot xray for the other child...

i got no idea how many of my "eggs" were burnt!!!!
kaoz!!!

i got totally no hands sia!!!
until the drowsy child went up to CT scan...
then got ppl notice the pityful me struggling all alone...

but thats not the worst part...

the freaking stupid registration clerk fucking register the child wrongly for 3 times!!!

first time wrong name..
then wrong spelling for the name and wrong birthcert...
(she registered under the his brother's birthcert no...)
then 3 time, its even better!!!
she totally mixed up the case!!
and register them the elder brother case as the younger brother...
and the younger brother as the elder brother...

wah kaoz!!!
u got no idea how much i wanna KILL HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

they fucking got no idea how much trouble they are causing us with this simple thing that goes wrong!!!

then nvm..i explaint to her fucking (and i really mean FUCKING MANY TIMES!!!) and she still dun understand!!!

i realy dun know was inside her brain sia!!!

and best part,
all the xrays and blds was sent with the wrongly registered labels!!!
even the admission form, EDR, and procedure form was wrong!!!

WTF!!!!!!

u imagine how much shit i gotta clear after the patient go...

need to bloody explain to the stupid clerk fucking many times to make her understand her mistake...
then get new labels then go to lab and relabel the bld...
then go inform the xray ppl and ask them to change in their systems...
but till now they cant change bcoz the system cock up...
and i have to get the IT ppl to come down and sort it out tml morning...
then change all the EDR, Procedure form, admission form and re-label all the nursing charts!!!!

wah kaoz!!!
can u imagine how much shit job i gotta do!!!
and that fucking NC is not helping at all lohz!!!
she fucking dun know wat to do lohz!!!

like wat other ppl always say her...
she damn "buay GAN"!!!

fuck sia!!
only know how to use her mouth to shout at ppl, but do nothing!!!

blood hell!!!
really damn pissed!!!

i always help to save ppl's life....
but who is there to save mine??

i am juz left to die lohz...
and only some of colleague bother to help the dying me....

and i only managed to continue my break at 1930hr...
to finish my half-eaten lunch box that was there since 1530hr..
haiz...

PISSED!!!!!!!!

i am doing morning shift tml...
and i gotta sleep now...
so i will have energy to continue clearing the shit thats left over today...

URGH!!!!!!!!!

somebody help me please!!!!!!!!

Dying to go for spa again...

2008-12-12T02:30:00.003+08:00

i was busy helping my colleague with the planning of her upcoming trip to batam with her bf to celebrate their anniversary...

was like helping her to see wat are the reasonable packages around, advising her on the trip and oso comparing other hotel with the one i recommended...

then i was reading back my post on my Wonderful Spa Retreat...

it really makes me dying to go back there lohz...

i was reading on how i describe the process of the spa...
and somehow, i can feel that "shiok" feeling once again...
and juz wanna go back for their spa again...

however...
i got totally no time now...

maybe next yr bahz...

at the mean time...
its time to sleep...

maybe in my dreamland...
i can get some decent spa massage bahz...

hahaha...

.:*๑۩ﺴ ≌≈My Life is like a Shooting Star≈≌ﺴ۩๑*:.

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prehoneymooning...

Doggie business...

Blogging from my Berry for the FIRST time!!!

Plaids for a change...

MOULD-LY MOULD-LY...

NEW BLOG SKIN!!!!

NEW LOVES nahz!!!!

2402201

10022010

My "DREAM" Wedding...

23 days...

Counting down...

ALL I WANT FOR X'MAS IS THIS...

DL+++

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back from HK....

Monday...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUBBIE!!!

POP...

wedding preps...

Girls' Shattered Dream...

0607090505

Be Strong...

blogging from KL..

Random

nothing much in particular...

CE NURSES ARE SOOOOOOOO "HOT"!!!!

21042009

upset in progress...

busy....

I AM MARRIED???

wedding prep...

FACE IT!!

Man and Woman...

exhausted...

OUR BIG DAY!!!

my 2nd night...

ANDIE IS ON CLOUD NINE!!!

Trip to Genting...

My Newly TeeYu-ed Hair!!!

busy sat!!

Insomia

My Ranting Goes On...And On...

Gonna see my 鸟鸟 wear 帅帅 to work really soon!!!

Words to those KayPos...

Is He Over U??

Confused and Heartbroken...once and again...

"super-sweet-to-the-core-of-my-ass" CE oranges!!!

unwell...

Post VDay entry...

He's a Sweet Little Thing...

My Very First Driving Lesson!!!

My First Counselling Letter...

Lash me up!!!

My Reunion Dinner...

*WARNING: SCARY FB APPLICATION!!!

RESTED...

I REALISE...

My Bday Batam Spa Treat From Hubbie...

post-packing-my-room entry...

画心 - 张靓颖

Excited!!!

upset...

My Crazy E Shift...

B****** = BASTARD!!!!

Our Most Exciting Girls' Night Out!!!

TRANSFORMER!!!

02012009

Goodbye 2008...

Hubbie's New Baby...

Post Xmas Entry...

I HATE THIS XMAS!!!

post night shift...

Assignment really kills!!!!!!

Thy Suay-ness

♥♥My Little Piece of Heaven...♥♥

K-ing @ Liang Court...(part 1)

tired @ home...

.:๑۩ﺴ ≌≈My Life is like a Shooting Star≈≌ﺴ۩๑:.

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