my 2nd nights....
and i am absolutely tired...
my dun-know-how-many-freaking-rounds-of-friday-sat-and-sunday-nights!!!

i miss my wkend offs...
haben been having one for like yrs!!!!

suddenly i juz feel that i want to spend more time with him...

note:
its not that we gotta spend more time together...
but rather...
its me wanting to spend more time with him......

hmmm...
i missed his embrace...
sleeping in his arms...
his smell...
his voice...
his warm hands...
his everything...

sometimes i really think that i am already bery fortunate...
looking at the ppl around me...

i means its not like i got absolutely no problems haunting me in life...
well...
maybe not at this moment of time...

i still remembered how i scolded him upside down this morning bcoz he was suppose to come and fetch me...and was 30 mins late!!!

argh!!!

i was really fuming!!!
imagine not have ANY sleep for a good 12 hrs...
its not really fun to keep waiting like donkeys outside the dept...

i gave him a piece of my mind the moment i got up the car!!!

but by the time we reach the hawker centre for breakfast...
we were giggling away already...

hahahahaha...

somewat i realised its not a must to get wat we yearn for...
and wat we want may not necessary turn out to be wat's really for us...

but rather...
wanting something/someone that can make yourself happy is the most impt thing...

so i guess its always happier to have someone to love u, rather than loving someone...
esp if that someone simply doesn't appreciate ur love at all...
and stepping it on the ground like some dirt...

i guess i had grown up alot...
thru the things i had gone thru...

events that were witnessed by all...
while others were juz small little secrets that i would love to keep it to myself forever...

its painful even when u try to think back...
the pain somewat lingers...

but rather than avoiding it...
forcing urself to forget or even to deny its existence...

i guess...it would be better to accept and acknowledge them...
and learn from it...
as all were valuable lessons in life...
and be grateful that u had seen and been thru them...

hmmm...
definitely there are more to come...

but now i am no longer handling it all alone...
i know that he will always be there with me...